Not today

**Becky** · 08-31-2002, 07:59 PM

Hey People!

Well, my name is Becky, and I am a shadow. If you saw me in a room, you'd never know I was there. But I like it like that.
This jurnal will seam to be missing some importaint details... that's cause my 19 year old sister decided to join CGR (user name frog), and for her sake, I will not mention her on these pages...

I have another sister who is 12, and is taller, and MUCH stronger then me. This morning she tryed to force me out of bed, and it was at that moment that I realized... I was SCARED OF MY LITTLE SISTER!!! I can't wait till she's 13

I'm homeschooled, and it takes me too long to finnish school

I'm am a deffender of the theology forum (I LOVE YOU GUYS!!). I am Arminian, but I am currently studying calvinism

I'm trying to learn the guitar... but failing misserably because I don't know what to do with my right hand!

I am a puppeteer!!! I'm currently writting a Novel. And I'm a poet.

GMartin2R · 09-01-2002, 01:26 AM

what kind of novel?

i'm kinda half writing one. i guess you could call it a military action one. i don't know something like that.

pinkangelkitty · 09-01-2002, 05:58 PM

if i saw you in a room i would know you were there, because i had seen you. if i didn't know you were there, that i wouldn't ahve seen you. lol

**Becky** · 09-01-2002, 06:19 PM

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Originally posted by GMartin2R
what kind of novel?

i'm kinda half writing one. i guess you could call it a military action one. i don't know something like that.

Well, I'm not sure really I haven't decided yet... I'm only working on characturization right now. But when I decided I'll let you know

Did I mention my family house churches? Well, today my house church was visiting another persons house church. It was really great! One person there read the entire book of 1 Peter!!! Oh wait... no... she stoped 4 verses before it ended. Big differance

GMartin2R · 09-02-2002, 12:55 AM

so are they just that small right now or are things just getting started?

**Becky** · 09-02-2002, 05:49 AM

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Originally posted by GMartin2R
so are they just that small right now or are things just getting started?

Since you asked...

House churching is NOT when a church is so small that it meets in a house till it's large enought to buy a building. We meet in a house cause we believe it to be the new testiment pattern. When we get large enough, half of us will split off forming a new house church, totally independed from us... yet totally dependent on the body of Christ.

I've been house churching for about 3 years off and on. It's hard on my family cause we are the only consistant people. When we started house churching, it was with a family of hyper Calvinists. When they discovered that we weren't calvinist, they didn't want to meet with us.... and stoped our friendship soon after. I'm glad we got out of there though. They were only house churching to get away from the rest of the church, rather then to be biblical.
When another family contacted us, I thought it would work this time. Unfortunatly only the dad believed in the biblicalness of house churching... so the rest of the family resented us. :ksad:
They left, and haven't talk to us much since. Now, the person we met through that family I thought would surly stay! Her name is Angel, and I think it fits

My family and her just clicked! But now.... alot is going on in her life. She's sick alot, and was recently evicted from her appartment. So she's moving about alot. I haven't seen her for so long... I fear she too has deserted us.

At present, we have a father and 2 children who come. His brother sometimes shows up, but is often working. We are praying that another family comes.

GMartin2R · 09-03-2002, 12:31 AM

okay

hmm never heard of that.

**Becky** · 09-03-2002, 07:40 AM

Yesterday was such a great day!! lol, I woke up thinking it would be a terrible day, and went to sleep with so much excitment that I couldn't hold it it.

Well... last night I was talking to someone on AIM. He's a friend I've had from CGR for about half a year... by the end of the conversation we discoved we live just a couple miles from eachother!!! And he know's the same people I do!! When I stoped talking to him, I called one of the girls he said was a friend of his. She confermed everything

So my dad's going to take me to visit his youth group in a couple weeks!!! lol.. that in itself was amazing enough for one day
But that wasn't the best of it!!!
There's this woman who my family has become very close to. And I have grown to lover her dearly. Well, all summar she's been away because of either sickness, work, or moving from place to place (she was kicked out of her apartment). Because we were the ones doing all the calling, we started to think she was trying to avoid us. She never called or anything!!
But suddenly, I heard a nock on our door. And it was her!!!! She was here for several hours... and made it just in time for her favorit desert (of which my mom by mirical only was making) lol.

K, I'm excited.

I take this as proof that God DOES care... and IS looking out for me. His timing is perfect!! Who would have thought he'd choose a day that started out terribly, and turn it into something so wonderful!!!

God is awesome

**Becky** · 09-04-2002, 09:02 PM

Tonight was awesome!!

I took a poetry class tonight with both adaults and other teens. She asked us all to take 5 minutes and write an introduction. She asked us to answer the question "who am I? and Why am I here?" Everyone wrote this long introduction telling about themselves, and starting it with the words "Hi my name is__". Everyone that is... except me

this is what I wrote:

I am Rebekah (last name) of (my town)
I am a Child of God
I am a Christian
I found I could write, so I wrote
I knew I must learn, so I'm learning
I heard you could teach, so I'm here

needless to say, everyone loved it

Later she had us write a poem and read it aloud. After a student read, the teacher, (more of a fellow poet... wasn't really class room setting... it WAS at a library) well, she'd give suggestions on how a poem could be done better. I was the last one (again) to read my poem, and when I finished, everyone told me how good it was

Then the teacher emediatly went on to the next thing...

Wait a sec. Read that last sentece again... "Then the teacher emediatly went on to the next thing". She didn't give me a single suggestion!! I figured we were low on time, so she couldn't. After the class I aproched her and asked why she hadn't sugested anything. To my surprise she said there was nothing to suggest!! She thought the poem was excelent!!! She said that I sounded like I knew who I was as a writer, and thought I was good at it!! She told me NOT to stop writing (and added "as if you could"). lol!! I can't believe I might actually make it as a writer!!! My parents have told me I'm good, but that doesn't mean much.. lol.

So... what do you think??? Should I write my Journal in poetry?? lol!! that would be interesting...

GMartin2R · 09-05-2002, 12:16 AM

ehh you could do that

but also include some plain text for those of us(myself included:ktongue

who aren't exactly poetry savvy.:kgrin:

but either way that's cool... if a teacher couldn'tn think of any improvements wow you might make it as a writer. at least as a freelance one or something liek thnat.

**Becky** · 09-08-2002, 06:47 AM

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Originally posted by GMartin2R
ehh you could do that

but also include some plain text for those of us(myself included:ktongue who aren't exactly poetry savvy.:kgrin:

but either way that's cool... if a teacher couldn'tn think of any improvements wow you might make it as a writer. at least as a freelance one or something liek thnat.

K, I'll do both

Well, on the fith I wrote this:

What did I say to make you go away?
So unexpected, I so unprepared. My shields
Taken down, giving full access to my soul
I still a child, may yet bounce back
To nieve, and to carless, to protect my volnorbility
You left as a falling star, leaving me only memorys
I want you back, but you never come

After writing that, I got into God's word. You wouldn't believe what I read!!
Psalms 3:3 But thou, O LORD, art a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head

So, I don't need to be able to protect myself... cause God is protecting me. What shocked me most about that versis is the imagry of a shield... hmm, same image I used? :kyep:

So I wrote this...

Oh the joy to know
I don't walk this rode alone
My master walks beside me
He leads me, and He guids me
When others turn against me
And friends walk away
Surly God will shield me
Protect my soul from harm

I was up late friday night decorating a cake for someones graduation party. I love cake decorating, and even my cousent (aunts son.. how in the world do you spell that!?!) said it was lovely.

well, I have inherited a phisical condition from my mom. It seams that having sweets within a couple hours before bed, causes inumerable problems. I end up looking like I'm having convulstions! Basicly trying to shake off the extra energy. So, I guess I'll have to be more carful about what I eat when.

**Becky** · 09-14-2002, 12:48 AM

Some of you might notice I changed the name of this thread. Why? Because, the new name fits better with my new look on life :kgrin:

Every day I'm learning how to fall on the grace of Jesus for suport. I used to think life wasn't worth anything. Might as well die. But now I know that life IS worth living... not because of this world, but becuase of Jesus! Jesus has made life worth living.

Wednesday I met a fellow CGRer!!!! I'm so excited! He is such a great guy! I can't wait to see him agian

**Becky** · 09-15-2002, 02:54 PM

Yesterday my 4-H club and I were giving a puppet show at the Big E. I was so sure it would go terrible. So the night before, I started brainstorming to try and come up with special effects. Well, I came up with a disco ball, strobe light, and a little back growned music. (the special effects are for the time matcheene'. The performance turned out so incredibly awesome!!!!
And all because I chose to take the extra time to find the right equiptment

Then durring the performance, we had little advertisements, in order to give me and the other main puppeteer a break. After doing everything we knew... my partneres arm was killing her.. we needed one more... and we had NOTHING prepared!!!... well, I noticed a puppet in her box and pulled it out. It was a big bird, with TONES of fethers. So I had an idea. The puppet came up and started advertising a harless club. Well... fetherless club :ktongue:
Then he (the bird puppet) said to call the number on the screen "oh wait, were's the screen?? (looks down at curten, serching for screen) oh um ok, just call the number"

lol! everyone loved it!! lol!

GMartin2R · 09-15-2002, 08:56 PM

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Then he (the bird puppet) said to call the number on the screen "oh wait, were's the screen?? (looks down at curten, serching for screen) oh um ok, just call the number"

:klol:

i know i would have loved that. hehe

**Becky** · 09-18-2002, 08:59 PM

Well, today was an interesting day,

I spent most of it making grape butter. By the end of the day, my left hand was blue!!! And no... it was neither sad, nor cold :kshock: just graped.

Tonight, I visited a friends youth group... actually, it was another CGR'ers!!!! He's a great guy,

and he'd been wanting me to visit... so I did

Unfortunatly, this was my first time in a youth group for an intire year (maybe close to 2...). Usually, when I'm with a crowed of people, I find a nice nook an crany to hide in. Some corner were I can watch every thing, but still be away from it all. This was not posible tonight. My friend is popular... and had a ton of people around him. These people talked on and on and on... my head was spinning the entire time... I'm glad my sister taught me the first lession of social skills.... "just smile and nod" :kyep:
People kept saying 'hi' to me, I didn't knwo which derection to turn. My mouth was so dry. I tryed to talk... tryed to be polite.... in truth, all I wanted to do was to slink into a corner and cry. It was all too much for one night.

Now I feel so anti social, and pittiful

I tryed... and failed...

perhaps anothing day,