Not today

**Becky** · 07-13-2004, 08:08 PM

I took a quiz about what kind of candi I am.. and they said I'm CHOCOLATE!!! I CAN'T believe they said I was soemthing as nasty as chocolate!!! I need to retake that quiz

http://images.quizilla.com/J/joneste...schocolate.jpg" border="0" alt="cho">
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

Lightknight · 07-14-2004, 06:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Becky

I took a quiz about what kind of candi I am.. and they said I'm CHOCOLATE!!! I CAN'T believe they said I was soemthing as nasty as chocolate!!! I need to retake that quiz

http://images.quizilla.com/J/joneste...schocolate.jpg" border="0" alt="cho">
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

No no, it fits perfectly, you don't like chocolate but everyone else loves it. k?

Lightknight · 07-14-2004, 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Becky

hah! your the second person to remind me of that today

your right there, *Sigh* I miss him. He's gone for a while, AGAIN.

I noticed today that i've been getting so angry and frustrated by things lately. I get angry about these dumb little things, and it's like.. they suddenly mean everything to me, and I get angry, and frustrated, or I start crying. I don't know why I'm emotional like that, I hate it.

*hugs* hey hey! I'm back

. My parents enjoy making me go on long tiring trips that involve me doing a lot of work. As a result, I'm still sick! I just Im'd you on Yahoo but someone else answered. I really missed you. I was up to my eyeballs in babies (the children of my cousins) and kids (the older children of my cousins). You know, it's true what they say about relatives, they're like fish... they stink after a few days. But it was somewhat fun and I helped them enjoy their vacation. I also picked up my card tricks again and am much better. Man, so much to tell, but I don't want to clutter up your blog so I'll wait for the next time we speak.

Lightknight · 07-14-2004, 06:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Becky

thanks

*hugs*

I figure by this time, most people think talking about it isn't important, it's like.. old news to people. to me it's just as easy to pick up that stick today as it was 23 weeks ago. Sure, I don't feel as compelled to do it, but it still wouldn't take much work to do it.

I found this pic, have to resize it so I can use it as my avatar on another site.

*hugs* It is never old news to me. It will NEVER be old news to me. I am still just as afraid of it today as I was 24 weeks ago.

I'm sorry to say that I only fasted breakfast for about half a year for that very reason. Perhaps I should start back up. My mother finally realized that I wasn't eating breakfast (took her long enough) and made me eat one.

As for the picture, I'm glad that you took the words out of it. If you want to make yourself out to be an outcast angel, just remember, you're my angel.

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**Becky** · 07-15-2004, 12:43 PM

GAVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAVIN GAVIN GAVIN GAVIN!!!!!! *HUGS*

*HUGS*

HE'S HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY :d :d :d

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Originally Posted by Lightknight

*hugs* It is never old news to me. It will NEVER be old news to me. I am still just as afraid of it today as I was 24 weeks ago.

I'm sorry to say that I only fasted breakfast for about half a year for that very reason. Perhaps I should start back up. My mother finally realized that I wasn't eating breakfast (took her long enough) and made me eat one.

*hugs* I love you Gavin *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* You are amazing to me! *hugs* thanks for your words there... I needed to hear you say that *hus*

you dont' need to fast for me though, but yea, I wont argue with you, cause that never convinces you of anything

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As for the picture, I'm glad that you took the words out of it. If you want to make yourself out to be an outcast angel, just remember, you're my angel.

*hugs* and I feel safe when I think of that

danalyn · 07-16-2004, 02:31 AM

I'm not sure how to say this without sounding totally inappropriate or just embarassing someone... The last couple posts brought tears to my eyes... I'm sure you both realize, but I wanted to point out that you have an amazing relationship. You're both very blessed.

I'm not sure what else to say to express what I was thinking... so I'll just leave it there...

Lightknight · 07-16-2004, 03:23 AM

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Originally Posted by Becky

GAVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAVIN GAVIN GAVIN GAVIN!!!!!! *HUGS*

*HUGS*

HE'S HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY :d :d :d

*hugs* I love you Gavin *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* You are amazing to me! *hugs* thanks for your words there... I needed to hear you say that *hus*

you dont' need to fast for me though, but yea, I wont argue with you, cause that never convinces you of anything

*hugs* and I feel safe when I think of that

Wow

what an incredible welcome

. *hugs* I love you too Becky. You are the amazing one. Haha, you made me laugh and smile.

Lightknight · 07-16-2004, 03:24 AM

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Originally Posted by danalyn

I'm not sure how to say this without sounding totally inappropriate or just embarassing someone... The last couple posts brought tears to my eyes... I'm sure you both realize, but I wanted to point out that you have an amazing relationship. You're both very blessed.

I'm not sure what else to say to express what I was thinking... so I'll just leave it there...

You expressed that pretty well. Thankyou for your words

.

Lightknight · 07-17-2004, 12:18 AM

J MPWF ZPV!!! *IVHT*

**Becky** · 07-17-2004, 12:37 AM

J MPWF ZPV UPP!! *IVHT*

Lightknight · 07-18-2004, 02:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Becky

J MPWF ZPV UPP!! *IVHT*

I keep waking up at odd hours. This is getting annoying

. But hey, J MPWF ZPV. *IVHT* I'm going back to sleep.

danalyn · 07-18-2004, 02:17 AM

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Originally Posted by Lightknight

I keep waking up at odd hours. This is getting annoying

hey! I do that. except when you're me, anywhere between 1 & 3 in the afternoon is an odd hour.

**Becky** · 07-18-2004, 06:11 PM

My love has gone
left for a while
but he'll be back someday

My love has gone
but I'm okay
I know it's not forever

To my memories
I hold on tight
and old letters I reread

My love has gone
but every day
I wait for his return

My love has gone
But He'll be back
someday
today
I pray

**Becky** · 07-18-2004, 06:15 PM

I woke up thismorning
I dressed and I ate
I grabbed up my cell phone
then kneeld down to pray

Will he call today God?
will he be online?
Will I have the chance
to talk to him this time?

Working round the house
Working on my school
working all to pass the time
While I wait for him

Will he call today?
will he be online?
Will I have the chance
to catch him on this time?

It's time to brush and flause
I stime to get in bed
It's time to pray and maybe
just maybe,
tomorrow willb e the day.

**Becky** · 07-18-2004, 11:41 PM

I should be in bed, but I hurt. I miss Gavin, I don't want this to be happening!!!!

why does this stuff happen to me?!? is God punishing me?? trying to keep us apart?? why is he taking all the good things from me

everything that keeps me doing ok

keeps me safe, he's taking it all from me