Not today

**Becky** · 10-27-2002, 06:37 PM

Wow, what a day! I spent the morning organizing some of my things. Wouldn't do to not be able to find something when needed!!!

Well, during church, I was actually asked by my dad to play guitar!!!! I only know one song decently enough to play for church... but still! I finally know one enough!!! I'm so siked!!

lol!! and you wouldn't believe what we had for our love feast! pizza!!! we had PIZZA for a love feast!!! lol.

Anyway, durring the love feast, my mom shared with us her wishes. You see, my family is planning to vacation in florda for a couple weeks. So, my mom wants us to use our vacation time to minister in Florda. I DON'T want to minister with JUST my family!!! I know that probably sounds bad. And really, I don't mind doing ministry with my family... it's just that... my familly is so imposible to work with when dealing with ministry. besides, things are always more fun when at least one other person is along.

So, what of the woman living with us?? SHE IS SO ANOYING!!!! sorry... I just had to get that out. She has litterally made herself at home. It's like, what's hers is hers, but what's ares is hers! She has her own food, but snacks on ours, (the kitchen is my moms domain... NO ONE touches the food without her permission, just how we are). When we go places, I feel like I'm baby sitting her.

But, no mind, I'm injoying living in the basment. it's cool

**Becky** · 10-30-2002, 10:24 AM

Well, all of yesterday is gone :kshock: You wont be able to hear about my experiance at the movies watching Veggietails, You wont know about the dear old 4-H person who died yesterday morning. You'll never know what happened at my first day of drama class, or about Tuesday's grand adventure teaching puppets to a group of kids, and how much they loved me (I mean my puppet, lol). you'll never know about my family's first NEW (not used) car that's sitting in our drive way this very second... BUT I will not let you forget about this...

November 1st is a special day.

pss, I was thinking.... (everyone please read!!)

**Becky** · 11-01-2002, 12:39 AM

Went to youth group last night. For the first time I found myself needing to choose which group to hang with rather then which corner to hide in.

I got to ride in our new car. It's so cool

Saw Veggie tails in the theaters for the second time

this time I went with freinds

I saved the show, cause this one part we thought was boring last time... I started dancing in my seat to, and so everyone joined in, and it was all cool

We dressed up in weird cloths to see it too

I wor my hand made hippie looking cloths.. (have to show you a pic some time). When the movie was over, the credits were roling, and a family got up to leave (there were only 3 groups there.. emty place). I turned to them and without even thinking said "your leaving? but your going to miss the best part! it's at the end of the credits" AND THEY ACTUALLY STAYED!!! it was so cool

Consumingfire · 11-06-2002, 04:53 PM

Hey becky, cool journel..

Keep your chin up..
Gabe

**Becky** · 11-11-2002, 12:49 PM

Well, last couple day's have been mostly uneventful... but a couple cool things happend. Well, on Monday, my mom got a call from my drama instructer. I guess things didn't turn out the way she intended. Almost everyone in my class was 12 and under. So the teacher offered to alow me to go into the other class. Both classes are on the same day, one is an hour later then the other one. Problem? I have a 12 year old sister in the first class... and if I go to the second one... that will be 2 hours we'll have to stay there. And my mom is driving us there.... my mom gave me the choice... but I just don't know what to do. I don't want to inconvenence my mom... but I feel so aoquard going to the first group... I feel stupid if I don't do that great, cause I'm 17, and there 12.. yeah know? And if I'm in the older class... I can just hide. I like hiding... I don't know what to do. One moment i'm wishing with everything in me to be with the older kids... now that I've got the chance... I'm not sure I should take it.

On Friday Frog and I when to a friends birthday party. It was just for family, but she wanted us there (she had a family member comming who would make it aoquard). Besides, she considers us family

People have thought we were sisters for years!

well, that's all i have time to say for now.. I'll come back with more of my week, later on.

**Becky** · 11-16-2002, 01:09 PM

So, another week has passed.

Sunday: My family headed out for church. WHAT??? :kshock: That's right :kyep: we had to leave our cosey house, and drive a half an hour to go to church. You see, at the house church conference, my family met a man who lived more then an hour away, but had no one around to house church with. Then, some friends of ours said that there reletive wanted to open up her house for us to use to meet in. It seamed really weird for us... but, this house was half way between us and the man from the confrence. So, last sunday, for the first time, we actually had a rather full house for house church!!! You have no idea how good it felt to be with a group of christians. I mean, more then just 2 familys worth. It was such a blessing, and, if all goes well, we'll be continuing to meet like this till we are built up enough, and have grown enough (numbers, and maturity wise) to be able to healthily split into to house churches. It was also exciting cause there was a 16 year old girl there! So, now there is someone close to my age at church. This is definatly a God send. At church, we spent most of the time explaining to those there about house church. Because I had previously been trying to explain it to those in the theology forum, I was able to explain, scripturally (I've memorized the place in scripture it's found too

), what is in the house church, that you can't get else ware (wether from a church, or a group of friends or what not).

**Becky** · 11-16-2002, 02:04 PM

IT'S SNOWING!!!!

**Becky** · 11-19-2002, 04:00 AM

it's almost 5 am. I've been up since 4. Don't think I wanted it this way! no. Tonight, God is putting on a light show. And my sister and dad are eager to see it. I told them not to wake me up. I said I wanted to stay aleep, I TOLD THEM NOT TO WAKE ME UP!!! I think I was half awake when my sister came into my room and asked if I wanted to see them. How do you think I looked at her?

Telling her no, I layed myself down.
I wanted to sleep.
Sleep didn't want me
I am awake, you are alseep,
Rather than rest, I type away
Rather than be, in the world of my dream,
I'm stuck here with you.... :kmad:

But Wait.....

Is that a bad thing?

It won't be long now,
The stars soon will fall
And I will be here
Hot chocolate to hand
to strange little girls
and white bearded men

**Becky** · 11-19-2002, 08:19 AM

At around 5:30, I got a cup of hot chocolate, and went outside with my dad (who's beard isn't COMPLETLEY white btw... just mostly

) and little sis. It was really cool watching the shooting stars, which my dad told me were really only the size of dust!! :kshock: It was a great experiance.... I guess I'm glad I was up while you slept

Oh, and the sun rise!!! It was beautiful!!!

Our God is an awesome constructer

GRibbit · 11-19-2002, 09:00 AM

Amen to that! (btw I wasn't asleep either b/c of closing doors and barking dogs)

**Becky** · 11-19-2002, 11:34 AM

So, what do you think? how old do I look? (actual age in Pic was 16) this was from last year... I made the dress myself

**Becky** · 11-21-2002, 11:19 AM

Yesterday was a busy day. Started out by going to see my sister perform on the piano at her school. A family friend went with us. Frog did great :-D

After we left Frog's school, we stoped at a HUGE mall... (well, fine,

it's tini if you're from TX... but it's the bigest one around here). Shopped around there, I found some great yarn for crocheting at the Christmas tree shop. :kyep: Great price!

When we all arived back at home, we watched some of World War II. Hitlar was SO not cool :kmad:

The family friend... Amanda... practicly a member of the family... a 17 year old.

Me and Amanda started working on puppet scripts... we are so excited! We came up with two incredible ideas. And the best part is it's going to be so much better, cause were doing it for tv, so NO STAGE!!! thinking out of the box... adding backgrownds afterward... oy! this is going to be SOOO much fun!! I'll tell you about the show later on though

I was trying all day to get ahold of someone from youth group, I really wanted to ask him something before youth group.. so I was frustrated. but it all turned out fine anyway... he sat across from me durring youth group, so I pased him notes in order to ask...

I know... I know... that's supose to be bad

I'm a very bad girl.... but it was good anyway

I went to youth group last night. I was nervous the entire time!

So, now for today. it's barrly started... I actually figured out something in math!!! it's a mirical!

I'm sad right now though. The person who offered her home to us for church, kicked us out. That's not a bad thing in itself... cause she is against what we are trying to do, so yeah... but I've been crying cause now we can't meet with that other family. It was soo good to be able to meet with other people. Now were back to the sick, delapidated church group. Sorry, I probably should call them that... but that's what it seams like. They just don't know how to be a family... my family is the only one of the 3 groups who show up who know anything about being a real family, the others come from broken homes... so it's understandable that there imature and such.... but.... it would just be nice if my family wasn't alone with these people. Just to have ONE other family... it was such a blessing... now it's gone. Cource, the other guy is going to do just fine. He's actually got several other familys who want to start house churching with him!!! great for him guess I should be happy for the guy.... just wish it was that easy for us.... but for some reason... it's just not happening. :ksad:

**Becky** · 11-21-2002, 11:26 AM

poetry... it's a beautiful thing. I started writing this in prose.... but ended up writing it in some what poetic form :kwhoa:

I want someone to hold me
and never let me go
Wrap his arms around me
Tell me I am loved
I want to know I'm safe
Even when in pain
Please let no one hurt me
Protect me with your arm
Tell me I will be alright
and hold me as I cry
Please draw me in your arms
and close to your heart

Not the best poem... but I guess it's ok... deffinatly say's how I felt last night though...

GRibbit · 11-21-2002, 11:37 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Becky
poetry... it's a beautiful thing. I started writing this in prose.... but ended up writing it in some what poetic form :kwhoa:

I want someone to hold me
and never let me go
Wrap his arms around me
Tell me I am loved
I want to know I'm safe
Even when in pain
Please let no one hurt me
Protect me with your arm
Tell me I will be alright
and hold me as I cry
Please draw me in your arms
and close to your heart

Not the best poem... but I guess it's ok... deffinatly say's how I felt last night though...

Hey girl! Wow that is SO how I feel right now!

**Becky** · 11-22-2002, 11:31 PM

Well, another day is done. My family made a family disicion tonight... we are planning on kicking our house gust out. She's away right now... we might just call her up and ship her stuff to her cause she isn't welcome back into our home. This may seam harsh, but this woman professes to be a christian, yet has been treating my family, espeically frog, like dirt! It's as if we owe her, so she isn't one bit greatful for the roof we've provided her with. And something I've learned recently is... God's not nice.. He's loving. The nice thing to do would be to let her stay, and just ignore her rudeness, and such.... but how is pampering her going to teach her anything??

We went to an awards banquate for 4-H, that was cool. Ate too fast though, too fast and too much :ksad: so I don't feel too great :knope:

4-H is cool... I've been in it for 11 years now.... and yes, it's great. this was it's 100th aniversary... :kcool: