[ImOnFire]

Wow....he posted.
I thought you died! Lol.
Can't believe you are working on Christmas..that stinks.

[I have no brain]

My life is a ticking time bomb, sometimes I think I am just about to exploded. Life can be so unpredictable and I have no brain. The wisdom of the world is complete and utter foolishness. Why do we waste our days learning the useless garbage they teach at schools and then labor at work to gain things that do not last? I stress and toil over things that have no meaning. What does have meaning? Do all my fears and wants mean anything? Do the plans and desires of my heart have value? Is life a pointless mess? And then God tells me in the still and small voice, that I am valuable, that I am valued because I am His. There is nothing I can do. God made me, He loves me, and that is all I need. I am bought at a price, He would not have done so if I was worthless. I do not understand, I am far to foolish to understand His way. Yet, after He has seen my heart He still chooses to reach out to me. What amazing grace, to save a wretch like me. In life I was blind yet through His death I see. By Gods love and grace I live, yet I feel as though I have missed the mark, forgive me, teach me lead me, Lord how could you love me? and yet you do. May I live a life worthy of the sacrifice you made.

[I have no brain]

Originally Posted by ImOnFire

Wow....he posted.
I thought you died! Lol.
Can't believe you are working on Christmas..that stinks.

Well, maybe not dead, but i do tend to fall off the face of the earth for a while then reappear in the CGR forums

[I have no brain]

Lets see here…
-Its getting late
-I have a lot of homework this week
-life is a rollercoaster
Yep time for me to post on CGR,

I graduate in about 14 weeks, I am in the middle of applying at SPU, I think I want to go into computer science, but I have no idea. So I am just kinda running around in life, no clue to what is happening around me, I can't get focused at all, my thoughts are all incoherent jibber, everything is a mess, boy do I need God's grace, time is in fast forward, I keep putting things off, stress is setting in, I am always tired, opportunity is passing me by, I can't see ahead, I am totally lost, AHH!!!! I wish I had a brain

[I have no brain]

Update (well I guess, seeing as I am informing you all on stuff or just I am just currentising my journal, or am just continuing my mindless ramble that no one every reads which might actually be a good thing seeing how wired and random my thoughts are, wait what was I talking about? Oh yeah on to the update): Well now where to begin…

College: well I got accepted to Seattle Pacific University, a Free Methodist school, it is a really cool place, I also got like over 14 thousand dollars in scholarships and grants which is way awesome!! That was a total God thing there. I turned in my application on the last day possible and my financial aid packet was turned late and yet I still got almost the maximum amount of aid possible. I will hardly have to pay anything the first year.

So yeah I graduate this Friday, and next Wednesday, if that makes any sense? I am in running start, so I will actually be getting my associates degree before I even graduate from high school, kinda funny eh?

Life is still crazy, I have two final papers due and one final, I have a lot of stuff going on with graduation and I leave to go on a missions trip at the end of June, so I am pretty busy right now. Well I guess that’s all for tonight maybe I will post later……

[I have no brain]

Originally Posted by I have no brain

I graduate in about 14 weeks,

wow 14 weeks since my last post... its been a while

and some smilies just for fun,

[I have no brain]

Ok more craziness…
So last night my youth pastor and some friends all came over and hung out at my house till midnight then I stayed up till three finishing my final project for my computer class. Hopefully it wasn't too lousy. Anyways I graduate tomorrow and then again on Wednesday so yeah lost of good fun, I think I might quit my job, I am going on a missions trip in less then a week now there is about a billion things for me to do and I have know clue how I am going do them.

Oh coolness, just wanted to brag about the greatest paper ever. I get to write my final English paper on Monty Python and how the Holy Grail is a true Arthurian Legend. It is going be so awesome!!!!

[I have no brain]

Update on my life (not that anyone cares or reads about it, I just thought I would add some information just incase). Well I moved into SPU last week. Life has been crazy, classes are good, don’t like homework but that is ok. All the guys on my floor are freaking awesome! We have like 3 guitarist, 3 bass players, 2 trumpeters, and 2 pianists, we are thinking about starting our own band. So anyways, life has been good, the Christian atmosphere here is great. I guess I will post more later…

[I have no brain]

08-02-2004, 03:36 PM
That was the time of my very first post...
Yay to two years of CGR!

Hey it snowed here in Seattle!!! It is so awsome!
I got to skip school and everyone went sledding and snowball fighting.
Only a week left in fall quarter, school has gone by so fast..
I get a month off for Christmas break too, yay!
So yeah life is good, God is better and I am happy about snow!

[I have no brain]

Well the fact that I still stay up till 2am putting off homework hasn’t changed in the two in a half years since I last posted LOL. Man my screen name fits me well…

Update:
So I am still going to SPU. I started three years ago as a computer science major, found I couldn’t handle the work load (or maybe doing homework after midnight didn’t help) so I switched to a business major. I am now concentrating on administration and information technology management. I will probably be graduating soon, it seems odd looking back at post I made at the start of my college career. I feel I have matured quite a bit, although I have not grown out of the habit of playing to many video games and staying up late reading stuff on the interweb.

Going to a Christian college you would think I would grow a lot more in my faith then I have. Form the intellectual point I sure have, but my passion isn’t what it use to be sadly. I often skip church because I am lazy, although I have worked out some things in my relation with God, I still feel very distant as of late. When I attended the community college I really had my faith challenged for the first time. Intellectual perspective made me have to re evaluate why I believed the things I did. My sins have made me question my commitment and as I grow older I find things don’t seem to fit my “child like” faith. Even still I find that by evaluating my beliefs and rationalizing and stating what I believe I have found a more steady footing on my faith. But is not Christ our foundation? And so I find my self to be lacking in comparison but I do not worry as much, because I have had some time to see that God is faithful, I just hope I am smart enough to remain faithful myself.

CGR makes me smile, I have fond memories of late nights, like tonight, where I spend hours reading forms when I should be doing homework, but hey I have survived so far maybe I will make it out of college somehow despite the fact that… I have no brain

[JerRocks2day]

Great that you've developed great memories of CGR.

BTW, allow me to introduce myself. The name's Jer. Whazzup?