My Life as a Ticking Time Bomb

I have no brain · 01-03-2005, 01:13 AM

Hmmm, more abstract thoughts from the no brainer
Hey haven’t posted in a while, so what up… um to me I guess cause my journal is like a ghost town or somthin,
yay the theology forum is back! Good inspiring discussion about God is always great
School starts again in 9 hours how fun, I don’t even have my books yet, I am s-m-t-t!
Well I'll type some more boring dribble about myself later…

I have no brain · 01-03-2005, 02:00 AM

Oh wow!!!!!!
My journal freakin ROCKS!!!
totally random like a cat sniffing an old shoe

yeah staying up late and deciding to post really hasn't worked out for me
but i can't sleep, school starts tomorow so i am a lil nervous
hmmm, life well...
i lost my job

the business was doing poorly and had to lay some workers off; i totally wasted my winter break, i think i am going quit video games, i need to grow up and get a brain or a life and maybe a wife

WHAT?? sorry i am dumb

, girls are just trouble at my age anyway. i am kinda glad school is starting, i'll have somthin to do at least. i might go to China for a missions trip this summer and that would be dope.
anyway enough from the thinktank here

I have no brain · 01-03-2005, 04:22 PM

Right first day of school, fun
My teachers or “el instruct-e’-torez” are cool,
I go to EvCC if anyone would want to know
I am doing running e’l starta (college while in high school)
Um yeah sorry aboot the crazy e’ ez eh, I am in a ‘make fun of other countries’ mod today
anyway I am taking; history speech and geography, in the future I plan to do ‘stuff’

Yeah not mucho el activiteo going on right now, es ist ser windeg,
Tried and jobless, not to great but hey life still is good

Hmm what else eh, yeah maybe I’ll think of something else to put on later

i love these smily faces!

right sorry

I have no brain · 02-03-2005, 11:19 PM

Midterms tomorrow

And I am really really stupid
Why, cause I don’t think and I am missing a brain…
Anyway I have been sick and have procrastinated doing my homework
it is not fun, I am dumb
yeah anyway I hope that things calm down
so I continue to stumble on in my walk with Christ

ImOnFire · 02-04-2005, 07:37 AM

Weirdo

I have no brain · 02-04-2005, 05:50 PM

Things I like:
God (he is a really cool guy)
Me

Mountain Dew

Beef Stew
Strongbad

Trogdor da Burnanator!
Da Cheat
Batman (kick superman’s butt any day)
Sleep (really really like sleep)

Calculators (helps when you don’t have a brain)
Driving *fast*

Rubber duckys (their yellow goodness is untouchable)
Drawing
James Bond

Things I like not so much:
Tests
Homework
Schoolwork
School
Evil teachers
Waking up for school
Note-taking
Research and studying
Evil pens and pencils that don’t sharpen
Socialist/Liberalism
Politics
The Devil (he is a really bad person)
Country Music

=

Places I have Been:
Washington (Mt Rainer, Mt St. Helens, Cascade Trail ext.)
South Carolina ( Fort Sumnter, and other historical sites)
Canada (strangest place ever)
Montana (it was flat)

Ring of a bell · 02-06-2005, 01:04 AM

Your journal is much better than mine!
I wish mine was as awsum as your's is!

I have no brain · 02-12-2005, 02:07 AM

Quick thought before I go to bed.
God is love. He loves us and cares for us. Often we get caught up in life and works and all that other nonsense. We try to focus on God but we can’t. It is his LOVE we should search after. Salvation is a gift, theology is just part of wisdom, purity comes from obedience, obedience is a result of LOVE. Paul was right when he said that love is the greatest thing of all. We worry and argue about so many things yet how often do we forget God’s love? It is not about doing right, it is about receiving God’s love. If we could live in his love we would be much better off. Life is not about stuff, it is about love. I want to make it my goal to live a life of love like that of Christ. Jesus should the ultimate love. He did not hate, sin, become ruler or set up a worldly kingdom, the kingdom he set up was LOVE. He called us to love and to believe. As I see this everything else fades away. Love. May I love the way Jesus did! This is the principle of our faith, it is not based on theology, perfection or practice. It is founded solidly on the grounds of LOVE.

I have no brain · 02-28-2005, 01:13 AM

Only in brokenness can you be whole. When you try and hold your life together you lose it. When you hold your ground it is taken from you. Only in God can you remain strong, for it is not your strength but it is his. You can not be clean through your own power. nether can you stand by your own will. It is only through complete surrender that you can be free. The battle is not yours, don’t fight it. Rely on God so completely that every struggle is conquered by God, not by your self. You can never be truly successful except if you allow God into everything. When you hold back, God can not rescue you. You by your own work can not be pleasing to God, but through completely relying on his grace and putting all your self inline with Christ, then you will be presentable to God. God loves his children so much, obey him like you would a parent. Like a small child coming back to him, run to God. Only through child-like faith can you inherit the blessings of a generous father. Lift up your troubles/life and say “Daddy it is broken can you fix it?”

I have no brain · 02-28-2005, 01:25 AM

Hmm, life… what a mess. I think I have messed up at every point. I truly have no brain. School, um bla, I am dumb. I am just really stupid I guess. I know absolutely nothing. I wonder about the future and I see nothing. My decision making stinks. Aah! I wish I would think more often. Grrr, I need to pause life and read the owners manual or something. It is almost the end of the quarter so I really need to stop procrastinating. I need a job really badly. And I wish my calling was more clear. I am clueless. I don’t know what to do. My head is too full of trash. I don’t think. God please help!
Phewww…. breath, ok, yeah I am kinda at a crossroad in my life and I wish I saw things more clearly. Situation: mission trip this summer, college transfer and most likely career choice, and I can't decide what to do. I wish I better knew God’s will.

I have no brain · 04-05-2005, 02:25 AM

Hey its really late so why not post eh?
went to a weekend retreat, it was awsome
God really moved and changed my heart
renewed my calling, it was really cool
anyway I update ya all on my life
so here it is:

I have been playing bass for my youth group for the last month or so, not sure if i am the best at it but it sounds ok

God has been showing me a lot about forgiveness of sins and safety in him, God is so awsome no way to describe him or his endless grace

Mission trip to China, is coming up and I don't have a job yet, need prayer for that

did an inner city evangelism on sunday, handed out lunches to homeless in seattle, that was fun, was talking with some drunks

A big thing in my life is that God has been laying on my heart the call to serve him, but i don't know where, one thing that i keep thinking of is that i feel more like a teacher, maybe I might go out and help start churches in other countries, i don't know, but I know whatever happens God is there to lead me.

After I get my AA from community colllege, I plan to go out to a 5 month discipleship training school, that send kids on mission trips, after that i plan to get a degree in pastoral studies from a local bible college and then wait and see where God leads me, not sure where or how but I know God has a plan for me and so I will trust in Him

I have no brain · 05-24-2005, 02:14 AM

lol wow, the only time i ever post is when it is really late and i have homework due the next morning. well only two weeks left in school

to bad i have all my final prodjects due now

anyway, i have a job now (not that is a good thing) it is really hard going to school, then coming home and going start to work then having to come home late and do homework,

oh well, I have just about raised all the money for the missions trip. Life has been ok. I has really been strugling and just getting dragged around. I really need to lean on God more, i get so dumb some times. hopefully i can survive school and then keep alive till my missions trip. arrg, sometimes life just feels like crap.

God please save me from myself tonight, let me not stray from your ways but lead me on in your light, let your joy be my streangth and restore unto me the joy of your salvation, renew my mind, transform me, sanctify pureify refine me until i follow your ways. lord i can not do it on my own, i can not stand at all. It is Christ who has saved me and i give myself entirely to him, lord give me an undevided heart towards you, let me not fall into the desires of the flesh that i so easily chase after instead of your riches, forgive me, clean me, make me yours, I long to be with you, it is your spirit i desire, turn my eyes towards you, make my heart like yours, burn away the chaft, I am weak, let me rely on you

I have no brain · 06-18-2005, 01:54 PM

Hi ya’ll, hey just felt like updating my journal, anyway.. So I have been working for about two months now and have been racking up the cash, kind of, yeah so I leave for China in FOUR DAYS!!!! Like mad crazy! I can’t wait, I am going with a really cool group of Christians, it is going be awesome! Um so what else is new… well I finished my first year at Everett community college. I am a senior and a sophomore at the same time, running start is weird, yeah so anyway, um yay for summer!

I have no brain · 11-02-2005, 05:49 PM

I am not died….
Just wanted you all to know that….
Yeah, um right….
Well anyway, LESS THAN 100 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!! That’s so crazy, were will I go? Do I go on to continue college? What degree should I get? Do I take a year off? What will be my life’s occupation? Will I every find the right person to marry? Am I called to minister or business? Where will I live? How will I pay for gas? Who am I going ask to the prom? Do I want to super-size my quarter-pounder meal? Life is full of questions at the moment. Hmmm….

Oh cool thing, I start up playing the bass at youth group again in a couple of weeks! That will be fun. I don’t know were I want to go to college. I’m thinking maybe a bible college, but I am not sure where I am called to right now.

I have no brain · 12-21-2005, 07:41 PM

Hmm, so how’s life eh?

Well for starts I have been working at Delta Rehab for about six months now, its kinda lame I have to work on Christmas day, (how unchristian of me, eh) well school has been fine but now I need to apply to colleges but I have no idea for where I want to go. So I have like ten days till the scholarships start getting turned in and I have no clue on what major I want to go into let alone what schools I should apply to, yay for me.