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Donnie, that was the most adorable thing I've seen all day. Make more little people. They come out so cute.

[DKelly]

Donnie, my favorite Geezer person! What's going on?


That was an great picture. Cute kid.

[Ring of a bell]

Your kids are incedible. And why is there snow?

[walkwjc]

Originally Posted by Ring of a bell

Your kids are incedible. And why is there snow?

That was last Christmas. I had 6 inches of snow from Christmas Eve to Christmas Morning. It was awesome. Corpus has never had a white christmas and it was the first time in 100 years that we had any measurable snow, period. I'll shrink some more pictures of that down and post them later. The incredible thing is the amount we got...6 inches. Not just a dusting, but 6 whole inches. Some got up to a foot!

[Ring of a bell]

I want snow.

That's it, you made me make up my mind, I am going to buy a ski seasons pass.

[walkwjc]

A week or so ago we had some disruption from a couple of the regular posters, and I posted a response in which I 'cussed' using the word hell. I don't really consider that a 'bad' word, but it can be. I shouldn't have used it. That really didn't bother me that much, it was a mistake and I have never claimed to be without fault. What troubled me was the very next comment.

A person I know and interact with said:

Damn, Jesse. You made the godly man curse.

Donnie, that's ****ing inappropriate language.

So I felt kinda bad for cussing, and provoking this person to cuss also. But what got me was "godly man". I never claimed that title. I don't even pretend to be 'godly'. And it certainly stings when it is used as a tool to point out my faults.

So this provoked some inward pondering. I know that the person used this as a sarcastic jab, and that they were for the most part joking, but it didn't take long for me to really hurt over this. Because if this is how people see me, I am not sure if they see the real me. The one that makes mistakes and sins and is not perfect. I have my struggles, and I speak of them openly. So was this nothing more than just playful banter, or was there true meaning behind those words? And if there was, is that a good thing? I know I have spoken of being a mentor and leader here before, but this seems different to me. Is it? I am not looking for praise here, just reassurance that I am fullfilling my obligations as a Christian.

So as I dug into myself, I found lyrics to a song. A song about my struggles. A song about where I am at, and what I face. This was written while at the rig, so my desire to leave this place, and move on to a more fullfilling duty bleeds through. It also includes some allegorical references to one of my greatest struggles, while here at work. It really is just a song that reflects that I am not perfect, in any aspect. I struggle with my faith, with my destiny, with the work God sent me here to do. With my job, and the evil that surrounds me.

These Four Walls

I don't know what to do with myself
I've got time on my hands,
I sit here lost in my mind
hours roll by like each grain of sand,
Evil lies at my finger tips
Sin that I don't wish to have,
Endlessly channeled from the cold and the dark
leading me down a different path

These four walls, close in around me
Pressing out confidence, so surrounding
Uncertain thought, wages war with insanity
Alone in a world, I was never meant to be

That's not Him Knocking on my door
I ask Faith to answer for me,
Around every turn there's a different obsession
I need more time on my knees,
The distractions I use, make me no different
Though the substance is generally pure,
Time spent with God is eternal addiction
Time to lay down these burdens once more

These four walls, close in around me
Pressing out confidence, so surrounding
Uncertain thought, wages war with insanity
Alone in a world, I was never meant to be

I feel so lost at times,
All this is running through my mind,
I can't wait to be free,
when is He coming back for me

These four walls, close in around me
Pressing out confidence, so surrounding
Uncertain thought, wages war with insanity
Alone in a world, I was never meant to be

(c) [10-01-2005] [Donald A. Lawson], All rights reserved.
The chords are G2 D Am C through out the whole song and the bridge is
Am D Am D
RC it please. Let me know what I can change to make it better.


I know Christ is always there for me. I know my plans are insignificant to His.


Here is a really rough recording of it. I am coming off a cold, and my voice is pretty weak, but I wanted you to get a feel for how it went. My recording rig isn't very good either. A labtech computer mic about two feet away from me. Audacity is pretty good, but the mic distorts out if I get too loud. Suggestions are welcome.

[Ring of a bell]

I wish I could hear the song, but I am at the school labs.

Song was very good as far as lyrics go. I especially liked this line:

Time spent with God is eternal addiction

Good work.

[Becky]

I think it's great Donnie, yea it could use some work, and some of the words could probably be reworded to be a bit less aquard, but it's a great first draft

[Andrew]

Tony, I have found that a great way to listen to stuff in the computer lab is to bring some headphones. It makes life better. I listened to the launchcast 8 hours a week last semester, doing that.

[walkwjc]

Originally Posted by Becky

I think it's great Donnie, yea it could use some work, and some of the words could probably be reworded to be a bit less aquard, but it's a great first draft

So what would you reword? I really wanna know. I'd like to get the lyrics ironed out so I can begin working on a final recording.

[Leboman]

Originally Posted by walkwjc

Here is a really rough recording of it. I am coming off a cold, and my voice is pretty weak, but I wanted you to get a feel for how it went. My recording rig isn't very good either. A labtech computer mic about two feet away from me. Audacity is pretty good, but the mic distorts out if I get too loud. Suggestions are welcome.

Very nice bro.

[Mara]

Originally Posted by That one guy

That kid is ridiculously adorable. Hahaha.

Originally Posted by Becky

oh my gosh... that is sooo adorable!! it's more then adorable, it's mega adorable awww!!

Originally Posted by Kayla

Donnie, that was the most adorable thing I've seen all day. Make more little people. They come out so cute.

Originally Posted by DKelly who's name I don't know

That was an great picture. Cute kid.

EVERYONE BACK AWAY FROM MY FIANCE!!!


Okay, I'm fine now.

Thanks for the picture, Donnie

[Mara]

Oh, yes, and I liked your song very much, Donnie. I love your songs. I can play like, all of them It's awesome.

[walkwjc]

Originally Posted by Mara

Oh, yes, and I liked your song very much, Donnie. I love your songs. I can play like, all of them It's awesome.

Nice Avy Mara. I have to do a double take every time I see one of your posts. Mine. Haha.

So you can play all of my songs huh? So could I sign you to my band?

Hey, why did you close your journal, if you don't mind me asking?

Thanks for the compliment on my song. This is the only serious song I have posted a recording to. I actually put this one in the song writing forum this time. I'd really like some input.

So I guess this is it, another two weeks down, and I am headed home to see my family. Yahooo!

See you posers next week.

Love and peace,

-Donnie

[Mara]

Originally Posted by walkwjc

Nice Avy Mara. I have to do a double take every time I see one of your posts. Mine. Haha.

Heh. Mom was like "Who do you have in your avatar?" And it was funny explaining it.

So you can play all of my songs huh? So could I sign you to my band?

Yes. When do I start?

Hey, why did you close your journal, if you don't mind me asking?

Because right now I am trying not to let CGR take up such a majority of my time. If you want the more in-depth answer then you can PM me

Thanks for the compliment on my song. This is the only serious song I have posted a recording to. I actually put this one in the song writing forum this time. I'd really like some input.

I will go and find it.

So I guess this is it, another two weeks down, and I am headed home to see my family. Yahooo!

YAY FOR THE DONNIE FAMILY!!!

See you posers next week.

I resemble that remark.