Lately I've been missing feeling bad/depressed.

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[Dice]

I've learned that sometimes when you miss feeling bad, you probably transitioned from feeling bad to feeling good/excited. And being excited can be tiring, and you aren't so much missing the depression as you are the rest of it. So rather than wanting to feel bad depressed again, your true desire/longing is rest.

So rather than falling back into your old ways, you should seek to learn new ways of peace and contentment. And they are basically the same thing, except with feeling bad/depressed you are resting in/have your mind on your fallen and deprived human state, while with peace and contentment you are resting in/have your mind on the blessings and goodness of God in your spiritual state.

Now the blessings may end up getting you excited, but that doesn't last forever no matter how much you try. But if you persevere in meditating upon the Lord with all prayer and thanksgiving, you'll eventually learn this new way of resting with a peaceful joy and contentment, rather than responding to Him only with gleeful happiness and excitement.

However, even with all this, I would say that there is still a part of you that really does want to sulk in depression again. The flesh longs for destruction and rejects God. So a sinful side of you may be wanting to push God away and sulk in it's fallen humanity. They key to overcoming this isn't so much to sulk in your humanity, but to embrace it right along with Christ's work of redemption of it in you.

Hope this helps.

[ChrisHarbison]

I've not heard this one before. Do you just enjoy the attention that you get when you're depressed? I can't think of any other rational reason why you'd miss feeling bad.

[Eddo]

I would certianly blame the thoughts on the devil. He did come to kill and destroy so getting you depressed again would be an excellent way to get you away from God and others.

I believe as Christians we so often let our feelings take the drivers seat instead of God. The devil preys on this, since its a weak spot in probably anyone. It can be hard, but you need change your thinking. Every time you feel like being depressed again start thanking God for all the wonderful things he has given you and done for you and don't believe the lies of the devil.

[LyssaJane]

My take on the situation is that you were depressed for so long, it became normal to you, not only that, it defined you. And now, not feeling depressed is foreign and therefore uncomfortable and you are also stripped of something that you used to define yourself. Now you're not really sure who you are. Depression became so much a part of you that now that it is gone, it's left a type of emptiness. My advice would simply be to try spending more time with God every day. You need to fill that emptiness with Christ. You need to discover how HE defines you. Look in the scriptures to find verses that tell you how God views you. Start really easy, things like, you are a child of God, you are created in His image, you are precious to Him. I went through a similar situation where I forced to see myself the way God sees me. I am a much better person for it. I will be praying for you.

[Thespia]

Depression is often a comfort zone, for many of us. Not strange at all. Sometimes we actually equate feeling bad with being more holy/righteous (because we are feeling bad about our sin and our state as a human). I've dealt with this...you have to listen to God and believe who HE wants you to be. That person he wants you to be is a forgiven, loved, joyful, content person. Its hard to do sometimes, but you need to.

[Tony]

I have to fight that sometimes, too. Some personality types lean that way, others get accustomed to it, like LyssaJane described. No matter how dysfunctional it is, we get used to it, and get out of sorts when not in that mode.

Thespia is right on, too. As odd as it sounds, some of us simply have to learn to enjoy joy.

[Tup]

heck, you can have mine...

[SilverNitrate]

I don't think I understand this emotion. How can you not be happy that you're.... well.... happy? I'm not trying to be a smart @$$, I'm seriously asking... I really don't get this at all.

[BillSPrestonEsq]

Silver Nitrate, I do.

You learn to live in your familliar surroundings right?

What is strange is somewhat terrifying.

What is familliar is somewhat comforting.

[SilverNitrate]

But isn't this contradicting itself?

Originally Posted by sihulreh

Lately I've been missing feeling bad/depressed.

I mean, Isn't missing something, feeling bad? I mean, isn't this statment the same thing as the above quoted: "I've been feeling bad because I have not been feeling bad."?

[BillSPrestonEsq]

emotions are not always logical.