[Brandon]

i think i'm losing my touch...

[GRibbit]

I think you're hot.

[Micaela]

One more day passes
and I sit
in wonder
my tears fall
anew
but all I can do
is wonder
I pace
and I pray
at a loss
I can't help myself
what makes me think
I can help you?

[Brandon]

Originally Posted by GRibbit

I think you're hot.

umm...thanks for the random kindness!

[Brandon]

Originally Posted by Micaela

One more day passes
and I sit
in wonder
my tears fall
anew
but all I can do
is wonder
I pace
and I pray
at a loss
I can't help myself
what makes me think
I can help you?

Set on the bed,
Or couch, rest.
Lay your weary head
I know I'm not the best,
At returning old calls
Letters, and such
YOu know my falls
And my hurting...

I'm sorry I do this
To you, (and you and you)
I'm sorry you think
I'm worth someting...
Just sit down tonite
Rest a little
Maybe give a call
At midnight...if you're able


Rachel. You help more than you ever know...trust me
Heather...I'm gonna try and call tonite...answer this time?

[Brandon]

Streaming down my dirt-streaked face
Tears flow from my eyes
I'm sorry I put you in this place
I'm sorry for the lies
YOu don't deserve to be drug through this
You don't deserve my tears..

[Brandon]

Silencing the screaming voices
Distancing myself from destiny
Why can I not ever find you
Why are you always where I cannot see?

They say that when the storms of life
Flood my dreams, you carry me
But now that I'm facing trials
Where are you? I'm on my knees

Cascading into my nightmares
Dreaming dreams of darkened fear
Give me glimmers of hope out there
Give me a sign, show me you're near

I want to let it all go
Go away and show you all
Then again I wonder what I know
Of anything--the hurt I'd bring
I cannot let my life go

Second chances don't come often
To the screaming downtrodden
But when it comes
Let it set you free

Set us all free


*cries*

[Ayria]

set us all free
yes that is the truth
but first maybe we need to
let ourselves go...

[Brandon]

Thunder echoes across
The black and violent sky
He knows that he
Shouldn't be here tonite
This is kind of like the weather
That killed his longest friend
This is the rain
That brought her to an end
"Damn the voices,
and Damn this bloody blade.
Why do all these choices
Seem to end like this of late?"
He screams to the empty walls
And not an answer is heard
He's waiting for maybe a phone call
But at this time of night? how absurd
He thinks he heres a tear drop
Somewhere not so close
Perhaps it was...a blood drop
Forshadowing his own...

He dials the numbers
Quick, to her own phone
He prays to himself silently
That she is there at home
He needs someone to talk to
But he can't call elsewhere
Cause last times he did
It's too late for them...there...

He picks the steel
His favorite one
The one he's used
more times than one
He puts it to his skin
but remembers the promise he made
and returns it to it's sheath
but that does not stop the blade
he knows he can't hold on tonite
but nobody's there
and he decides to do it anyway
besides..."nobody cares"

Darkness fades his visions
And blood touches the keys
He leans back against the wall
And lets the laptop fall from his knees

...he fades...
away...
...

[Ayria]

you say nobody cares-
but just because you can't call late
doesn't mean we aren't here.

if nobody cares,
why have we given everything to you?

[Brandon]

I'm sorry...so sorry...

I can't come up with one for that....

[Brandon]

so you say she won't
that's great and swell
but that's not the point
i'm making.
you wouldn't want her to
hide all her secrets
and not let you help her
would you?
if she really loves you,
she won't be hurt.

some things are better said.

If she were, I'd like to know
But, it's a little different
I don't know if I can explain
this feeling.
I don't want her to feel this fear
I'm feeling.
She doesn't need to hear
what I'm doing

I can't describe
How it's not the
same, but she is
Small, and I don't
want to break her.

I could never hurt her
It would hurt her...

Somethings, can never be said

[Brandon]

you say nobody cares-
but just because you can't call late
doesn't mean we aren't here.

if nobody cares,
why have we given everything to you?

The frustration of
a stormy night.
The temptation
Of a serated knife
It's just all these feelings
Stacked onto one
Oppressive moment.

I'm sorry.
You aren't to blame

I am

[Ayria]

i never said anyone was to blame
i was merely stating a fact.
you spoke of ones not there-
when really we're there for you-
praying, staying all the while.
stop blaming yourself
i've told you before
all that does is make life worse.

about the girl
you call her small
say you don't want to break her.
people said the same to me-
us small ones aren't as fragile
as we look.
i think it would hurt her more if
she found out she couldn't be there for you.
isn't that the point of a best friend
to tell them all your fears?
to comfort you?
to stay up with you at night and -
read to you?
let her try..
and then if she breaks-
maybe she's fragile.
give her a chance-
you'll never know unless you try.
see how weak she really is.

[Brandon]

I can't make her cry
It would kill me inside
I just can't
it won't work...
Last time she cried
I almost died...
With every tear that fell
-they put me through hell
I can't cause her pain
It would hurt me more
than...anything