[Becky]

It has been proven by doctors, that Jesus did not die from Crucifixion; He died because His heart exploded. He died, of a broken heart.
The symbolism of this is remarkable. You see, from the time God created man, God has desired a relationship with us. With any relationship there involves the risk that the other individual will wound you. In fact, the closer you get to that individual, the more wounded you may become. Yet God was willing to endure that, in order to have a relationship with you. Is that not remarkable?
To think that I can cause God immense pain; the very concept, I admit is hard to grasp. I have heard the idea before, but never believed it. I mean, God is so big, so out side of our dimensions, so self-sufficient. How could ANYTHING I do REALLY effect Him? Sure it hurts Him, but I’m just one itty-bitty person, out of so many others. So I’m having a bad day, and I snapped at my mom, it’s not the end of the world! Is it?
The third week here at Youth with a Mission Woodcrest, we joined another Discipleship Training School at the near by YWAM base, Twin Oaks. Their speaker, Kip Gains, was teaching several different topics, all pointing to having a closer walk with God.
Wednesday night, he gave a teaching titled “The Broken Heart of God.”
I remember being shocked when he described God’s feelings in Geneses 6:5-6. When you read it in the original, the mental image being painted is of the great God who created the universe, unable to breathe due to sorrow. The people before the flood hurt God’s heart so greatly, that He was out of breath! Can you imagine that???
But why did it break God’s heart? God desires a relationship with us, and He knows that sin leads to guilt, and guilt keeps us from spend time with Him.
By this time, Kip had us fold up our chairs, and find places in the room where we could feel by ourselves. All the corners were quickly taken, so I found a place in the middle of the floor. When we were all settled, Kip began to read to us a doctor’s observation on exactly what took place when Jesus was crucified. As we listened, I prayed that God would make it real to me; that I’d truly see the enormous sacrifice He made for me.
As I sat there on the floor, nothing happened. Sure, I cringed, as I did only days before while watching Brave Heart, but that isn’t the same. With the sound of crying ringing in my ear, I asked God to show me how He feels. My mind flashed back to a time this summer, my best friend told me we were no longer friends. I remember the pain I went through over that. I remember crying for two days strait, the agenizing pain of knowing there was nothing I could do to get him back. It was the worst feeling I have felt in my entire life. Then it hit me, if I took those two days of pain and put it into one moment, I could begin to feel how God feels when I reject Him.
That blew me away. I don’t want to EVER put ANYONE through that kind of torture. Would you?
This knowledge brings two desires in me. 1. To never reject God, and when I sin, to run strait to God begging His forgiveness. 2. To ask God what’s hurting him, just as I would ask any close friend. Then asking God to let me share His heart. Perhaps it’ll come in the form of praying for a person or nation. Or it might be crying for them. Either way, I want to be a vessel for the God who weeps for me.

[jjvacc]

great job, this allowed me to think about things i never have before....thanks

[nullifygurl]

wow.. i had the same experience too.. just reading this thread remind me how much i hurt him.. /once again..

[GMartin2R]

this isnt exdactly the same thing but i've often thought about how my current situation reflects the relationship between God and man. i think back to all the times when katie woudl make a move that i wasnt too fond of, yet even though i was dispointed and maybe even hurt by it to some degree i never loved her any less. i think it would have been a safe thing to say that pretty muc whatever she did, it would have been very hard if not impossible for me to stop loving her. i reflect on that and i think, is that how you see us when we screw thigns up God? is that what it's like for you even a little bit? dont know, but maybe. what a concept to say the least...

but the description of what the crucifixion was like physiologically, i've heard that before and actually posted a copy of that on my updated website. horrific stuff... adn to think that should have been me... wow...

[hockeydad]

Everyone who has been through a tough experience in a serious relationship (and that would be just about all of us), should have, in some way, a good understanding about how God must feel when we don't have time for him (let alone being outright disobedient)...when we are so busy watching TV or playing video games or whatever, to spend a few minutes talking with him daily.

And yet he loves us unconditionally. That in itself is some miracle.