[Jonular]

Dang, man. I've missed way too much.

~Jon

[Beth]

Originally Posted by rainer123

Washington water is the best water out there. I go to another state, and their water seriously is gross compared to Seattle water. (no offense to non-washingtonians... )

he speaks the truth, Washington water's awesome... I don't know that other water is gross... but not as good anyway..

[guitarfan01]

Originally Posted by Jon

Dang, man. I've missed way too much.

That's okay, don't worry about the past, look to the future!

And thank you everyone, for the encouragement about the story.

Originally Posted by Beth

Verbs are pretty.

Words are pretty, elvish words are very pretty. Is Beth pretty? On the outside, I don't know; but on the inside, I think she's quite fetching. Maybe even something different from everyone else.

Now, about Sunday.

Sunday started off badly, got worse, got better, got worse again, then zoomed up to such heights of ecstacy I'm going to need a parachute. Woke up Sunday morning, too late for church. Then we watched Tomb Raider II: The Cradle of Life, which was so horrendously awful Well, maybe not as bad as all that, but it wasn't good at all. To be fair, I didn't watch the entire thing, but just because I couldn't stand any more. So I got on CGR, and that was good.

My best friend from elem/jr high, and first year of High School, Chris, is now in the Air Force, studying weather and how to predict it. He was leaving for Illinois Monday, and that was going to be the last time I had the chance to talk to him, so I went over to his house, and we really connected for the first time in years. We're going to try to keep in touch, using email and the like, and maybe he'll even be on here a bit in the future. I also got to listen to Payable on Death for the first time, and we also listened to Linkin Park's newest album (can't remember the name ) Anyway, so we talked until about 7:45, then I left to go to SNL (Sunday Night at the Lighthouse). Only thing is, SNL starts at 7:00. :Stare: And about halfway there, I remember that the guys playing that night are some good friends of mine, that I really wanted to hear; not to mention that Jonathan "Noj" Pettigrew was doing the speaking and I really like his testimony; he fell like 120 feet into a canyon and should be dead, really, but God spared his life, and not only that, but Noj has full use of his body now too. If you get Breakaway magazine, Noj's story was in an issue about two or three months ago.

So I pull up at about 8:05, really down, and angry at myself for forgetting about Noj and the band, and "wasting" all that time at Chris's house, and go inside right as Noj is finishing talking. So you all know how it is when you're in the self-pity mode, right? Unless something happens to snap you out of it, you just spiral... and spiral. But anyway, the band came back up, and started to sing "We will seek you first, Lord" (I can't remember the name, that's the first line) and it hit me that I wasn't seeking Him... but myself. But instead of just repenting and going on, I really started in with the self-loathing, now (see what a stupid human I am?). Anyway, so I then went up to the piano at the Lighthouse and started to write a song about how selfish and how I didn't want to be selfish anymore, and blah blah blah. It was just words, sure it was what I was feeling, but just words... nothing about how to fix it, just self-pity and self-loathing - which, I eventually came to realize, was selfish itself; focused on how bad I am, about me again, instead of how great He is. So guess what? Cycle starts again. But this time, God reminded me of what I had counseled to a friend: we all fall down, but we must just give it to Him and move on. So I prayed. I said "Father, I have sinned against You in my selfishness. Forgive me and fill me, O Lord." And do you know what? He did. He forgave me, and filled me, and I went from to

JJOOOYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

in about 5 seconds. All praise be to the Lamb, who was slain for my sins, and His Father, who forgives and sent His Son, and to the Holy Spirit, who reveals my sins and comforts me! \o/ \o/ \o/

So then, I went and talked to my buds and had a good time, and got an email addy that I'm going to use pretty soon. All in all a wonderful evening.

Galen

[+kt+]

illinois? awwwwwweeesome!!! where bouts?

[Cole02]

woah! haven't posted in here in a while! woohoo... sounds like fun times...

yeah i'm really bored.. so is my brother.. he's taking all the little ball tip thigns out of ball point pens... hmm...

[Ardent1]

Originally Posted by Galen

To be fair, I didn't watch the entire thing, but just because I couldn't stand any more.

Psh, the end was the best part. Good thing I waited for it...

But instead of just repenting and going on, I really started in with the self-loathing, now (see what a stupid human I am?).

We're all stupid humans.

Galen, somehow you remind me of Leo on That 70's Show. Cool.

[living for God]

Hi, it's been a while since i have been here to.

just saying a quick hello, i have to go help clean up stuff after a big storm last night.

have a good day

-keara

[Ayria]

hey galen! how are you? i've been praying for you lately.

[Ardent1]

Galen!! I know you were on. But where'd you go?

[guitarfan01]

Tonight has been a night of brokenness and, hopefully, change. I would ask anyone who sees this to pray for me.

Galen

[guitarfan01]

Who is Leo? I never saw "That 70s Show". And Sunday night, Kevin told me that I was "a movie waiting to happen." Beth repeated the comment last night. Is this a good thing or a bad thing? Or could it go either way (comedy, drama, tragedy...)?

Rant and Prayer Request Today

Mom came home today. We're trying to figure out what we (mom, dad, and I) should do with my CGR addiction... they think its unhealthy that I'm on here all day. I agree with them, and I'm working on it myself... but, being parents, its their responsibility to stick their noses in, and their right... I don't know if that's a good thing or not, I mean I know I can't cut down properly by myself, but I'm making strides and taking steps, and I'm praying for God to change me... because I can't change myself... It seems like everything my parents tell me I already know, and have already taken into account. I just don't know what to do, I need to do something, but all I know to do is what I'm doing... I guess know I need to give it to God, but I'm afraid what He might do with it... just like the rest of my life.

I think that one of the problems my parents have is something I think is completely unrelated to CGR, but they blame CGR and the internet for it. Namely, the problem is that I don't notice things that need to be done; like folding clothes, and washing them, and cleaning the windows, and dusting, and etc. If I'm told to do these things, I'll likely do them, but I don't notice them myself, and if I don't write them down, I'll forget all what I was supposed to do. I get sidetracked easily as well, and they figure that to remove CGR from the mix would be to remove the being sidetracked. A foolish thought, really, as I will get sidetracked just as easily by playing guitar.

Curran is ruining the Christmas Tree by putting ornaments on it. The thing looks wonderful without them, so when you meet him in Heaven, thump him on the head for me.

Complete interruption

I had an interesting experience tonight and I hope not only that. I might continue tomorrow, just all you be blessed.

Galen

[Ardent1]

Originally Posted by guitarfan01

Tonight has been a night of brokenness and, hopefully, change. I would ask anyone who sees this to pray for me.

Galen

Of course. I hope everything is all right...though it doesn't sound like it.

EDIT::

Originally Posted by Galen

Who is Leo? I never saw "That 70s Show".

That 70's Show is my favorite show, no matter how unfortunately vulgar it is. haha. Leo is a hippie on there, played by Tommy Chong.

I can relate to your situation with your parents. That's what my parents want me to do...do chores and such instead of being online.

Originally Posted by Galen

Curran is ruining the Christmas Tree by putting ornaments on it. The thing looks wonderful without them, so when you meet him in Heaven, thump him on the head for me.

Uh...that's okay...

[guitarfan01]

The parental units are correct. Its a failure of me, not them. I'm much better now, thanks.

Galen

[+kt+]

3 words
get a life ..then you wont hav eTIME for CGR... JUST joikjkg!
youlls get over it seriouslly.. .iu used to be the SAME way.. .ask ragedyandy7 or elijah77jc

[beanie]

When I went overseas, one of our team slogans was "giving up something good for something better". When I moved to Adelaide, away from my family, I made the choice to NOT download MSN and watever else there is because I spent so much time on the net when I was home. So, I just didn't do it. When God asks us to give up something, it's usually for something better (WOOT! My mum just let me have a whole handful of chocolate chips! High five for Jesus!)

I'm not saying that CGR is bad, but there needs to be limits and balance. There is a time for emailing and posting, but there's also time for doing jobs around the house, going for a run, hanging out with friends, building into relationships, reading the bible. (There shouldn't be a time for doing college/school work, but there is!)

It's always pretty daunting, putting your whole life into the hands of a massive fat God who can do whatever he likes. Just rest in the fact that he loves you. You're his own kid. He wants to bless his kids and his plans and promises for your life are always gonna be GOOD... Jeremiah 29:11-13, Romans 8:28, Phil 1:6.

Love and prayers... and a massive fat as HIGH FIVE FOR JESUS!!!!! Bon.

PS. Who ever looked out the window one time, around Christmas, and thought "Gee, I might cut down that tree and stick it up in my lounge room and then decorate it with tinsel and an angel on the top." I mean, who thinks of these things!