[Erika]

Kia Ora Dragon Lily Welcome to my blog. I hereby order you to post in my blog more often. Like some others here, I like to be cool by association, so please, rest here and make my blog be cool. Please. *begs*

Okay. Adam says I have to post more about me. I'm kinda worried about that because I don't really like talking about me. I'm not that interesting. Most of my life and my thoughts seem to center around knowledge -- knowledge of God, knowledge of ancient writings and stuff, and big words. The problem with that being that I get extremely serious and people get rather *ahem* annoyed with me. It's just that I can't help it...but I feel a little insecure because I get laughed at. Just please, please don't call me the professor. I am so sick of being called that, I could...cry.

The big word for the day is: FACTOID

""Factoid" is one of those rare words that were undeniably invented by an identifiable individual, in this case Norman Mailer, in his book "Marilyn," published in 1973. The Oxford Dictionary of New Words defines "factoid" thus: "A spurious or questionable fact; especially something that is supposed to be true because it has been reported (and often repeated) in the media, but is actually based on speculation or even fabrication." Norman Mailer himself defined "factoids" as "facts which have no existence before appearing in a magazine or newspaper, creations which are not so much lies as a product to manipulate emotion in the Silent Majority."

Mailer invented the word by combining "fact" with "oid," a scientific suffix meaning "resembling or having the form of, but not identical to." Needless to say, "factoids" in Mailer's sense are the antithesis of serious reporting, and to accuse a journalist of trafficking in "factoids" was a grave insult, at least until CNN came along.

Unfortunately, the repetition of "factoid" in this "trivial fact" sense has taken its toll, and almost no one remembers the original meaning. Hence the secondary "trivia" definition found in most current dictionaries almost certainly will, at some point in the near future, become the primary one.

Mailer's original negative definition of "factoid" was a valuable contribution to the language on a par with George Orwell's "Newspeak," and, in this age of spin doctors, "factoid" still fills a conspicuous need. Perhaps we should petition CNN to give us our word back."

Okay. I'm sorry if big words are a bother, or unusual ones, but I LOVE them! And you'll probably see some Latin ones in here too. Because I love the way they look...tempus (time) ipso facto (by that very fact) fugit (flying/flies) etcetera. You will see more coming up.

Tempus fugit...for all you or I know, today may beour last tomorrow, so cherish the seeds that have been sown...sorry. Random bursting into songs and poems is part of my character.

AND I just wanted to say. My vote for CGR Idol will go to Phats, because he has a good voice, and cool lyrics and images in his songs

Today I went to Cambridge (horse racing capital of NZ for the unknowing) and Mum had a crown replaced on her front tooth. I went christmas shopping. I HATE christmas shopping. I always ask God to help with it, and try to get it done early, because I always see stuff I want to get for people...but never "THE gift" that would be perfect. I think I've done well this year though...I got my sister a True Love Waits ring.

[merryweather]

Yeah I'm sooo gonna make it cool here ( I allways do heheh jpc) haha yeah cool beans, don't worry I Hope someday I will beat me sisters record for 72 pages in her blog (I only have like 7 hmm *confused*) anyways fun times.
Bethany

[Fuzz]

Erika,

I promised i'd reply to your blog if you posted! Though to the best of my knowledge you still havn't written me...*hasn't checked his email*
I didn't know you were all into big words, that's pretty cool...Isn't it cool that on a christian website that the smilie is on there and he's saying "Damnit"? lol...it just cracks me up. Anyway..
What's so funny 'bout peace, love and understanding?,
Adam

[Erika]

Peace. When you have peace you can laugh and feel it in your stomach (I mean really laugh) and be truly happy...because peace gives you the freedom to be you. So if peace is funny in any way whatsoever, that would be why. Anton Chekhov in 1897 stated, "We shall find peace. We shall hear the angels, we shall see the sky sparkling with diamonds." I don't think peace is funny...and I believe Anton Chekhov was right. What an amazing poet...yet another random one form my huge database. Thomas A. Kempis in 1420 stated "First keep the peace within yourself, then you can also bring peace to others." And he was right. Malcolm X in 1965 stated, "You can't separate peace from freedom because no one can be at peace unless he has his freedom." See, there is a thread of a pattern emerging here, peace brings freedom, freedom comes from peace. Perhaps peace and freedom are so entertwined that you cannot have one without the other? "The peace of heaven is theirs that lift their swords, in such a just and charitable war." So spake Shakespeare, and that I think is truth. (That is why I admire George Bush, though I'm so getting shot down for saying it). Maybe I am a Texan at heart...GO GEORGE DUBYA!! Now seriously, peace is not a funny concept. How can you call something funny, when the most influential beings in the world, side by side with the poorest, saddest, and least influential beings, search eternally for peace? That won't be forgotten in hell...there will be no peace there. But heaven will be a haven of peace one day. That isn't funny, but it sure makes me smile.

Love...how is love funny? I think love is fun, being loved is fun, most of the time loving someone is fun...until they betray you (sometimes) and I love being cared about. Love is again, not a funny thing. Odd, sometimes, perhaps, but not funny.
"The timeless theme
Earth and heaven will pass away
It's not a dream
God will make all things new that day
Gone is the curse
From which I stumbled and fell
Evil is banished to eternal hell

No more night
No more pain
No more tears
Never cryin' agaain
And praises to the great I Am
We will live in the light of the risen Lamb"

Now THAT'S love. And that is confidence in the Love that bought and redeemed us. (By the way, that was the first verse and chorus of No More Tears by Glen Campbell). The poet Andrew Marvell wrote;

"MY Love is of a birth as rare
As 'tis for object strange and high:
It was begotten by despair
Upon Impossibility.

Magnanimous Despair alone
Could show me so divine a thing,
Where feeble Hope could ne'r have flown
But vainly flapt its Tinsel Wing.

And yet I quickly might arrive
Where my extended Soul is fixt,
But Fate does Iron wedges drive,
And alwaies crouds it self betwixt.

For Fate with jealous Eye does see
Two perfect Loves; nor lets them close:
Their union would her ruine be,
And her Tyrannick pow'r depose.

And therefore her Decrees of Steel
Us as the distant Poles have plac'd,
(Though Loves whole World on us doth wheel)
Not by themselves to be embrac'd.

Unless the giddy Heaven fall,
And Earth some new Convulsion tear;
And, us to joyn, the World should all
Be cramp'd into a Planisphere.

As Lines so Loves oblique may well
Themselves in every Angle greet:
But ours so truly Paralel,
Though infinite can never meet.

Therefore the Love which us doth bind,
But Fate so enviously debarrs,
Is the Conjunction of the Mind,
And Opposition of the Stars."

It seems to me that if you were to laugh at love, you would be mocking it. Love relates on a higher level.

Understanding brings peace to those around you. If you can, why not

Had enough of philosophical stuff now?
I had a good day I guess. Moving is stressful. The tv bunked out last night. Stuffed up for good. One month over the warranty. But they MIGHT still consider it under guarantee. Did you ever wonder if the companies who sell gadgets programme them to break down just after the warranty runs out? I think so j/k. But oh well.
I went to work today. Surprisingly, it was quite hard to say goodbye to some of the people there. I'll miss Helen. She kept me crazy. She's the one who is responsible for any of my insane quotes.

But you know who I'll really be sad to leave? Napht. My dear old Napht. She's really the only one of all my friends who I can be totally silly with, totally me with. Except that serious conversations seem to go nowhere, which leaves me feeling a little lacking. But I like being able to be silly. I like being able to just be totally ridiculous and act my shoe size not my age without feeling self-conscious about the people I'm with. For example, when we went and had a cup of "tea" in town last holidays, we were sitting outside the cafe...if you can call it a cafe...and she just looked at me and said "The next guy who walks in the cafe is your husband." And we cracked up and wouldn't you know it, the next guy who walked in was old and ugly (no offense, but it's true.) and when we had finished laughing...and we laughed til our stomachs hurt...I said to her the next fella that walked in was her husband, and wouldn't ya know it, he was tall, handsome, and sure looked rich. And so on races the silliness express. But you know, none of my other friends would say anything like that...it's so un-pc. Oh well. To each their own, and their own influence. Too much Napht would drive me nuts, but without her, I'd probly be nuts!! (As in, there would be a reason to call me the professor )

So. Here is a poem I wrote yesterday. R.C. away my dears

Maybe I'm done
With flowers and other romantic turns of speech
Tired of phrases
And wishes and places
That mean something special to me

And I'd rather shoot for the stars
Cause beyond them lives someone who loves oh yes loves me
And the light of glory shines through those holes in the dark
And yes I know oh yes I know that Jesus He does love me

Found a hope
To hang on to and that's not something that comes often
Ever holding to
Someone who loves me through
And means more than something special to me

And I'll shoot for the lovely stars
Cause beyond their light lives someone who loves oh yes loves me
And they are windows of the glory that shines through these holes in the dark
And I know yes now oh yes I know that Jesus, He does love me
Oh Jesus, He does love me...

Will that do for a lengthy entry? Adam, you owe me a rep now

[Fuzz]

Yo jo, mojo,

Dude :|That's awesome, how long did that take to write? You like George Bush...ha <-you :P "bring 'em on." <-George's catch-all phrase....nah, he is a good president, and is really capable. I would just wish for a president who looked like he was more capable, cause looks do me an alot nowadays...
Anyway, all of your phillosophical ramblings are really cool, you should never be ashamed of it!(you made it sound like you can sometimes be ashamed of it in your entry before this one) Have you ever read the Divine Comedy(i forgot the authors name..lol)?? I want to read it and I was curious as to if it's good or not....-Adam

[merryweather]

Hey, wow long post but I read every word of it, and it was really rather good, I liked it alot, and I pretty much agreed with you. but yeah how's your day going? well I hvae to go do stuff so have a great day!
Bethany

[Erika]

people. If you view my journal, POST!!!

[merryweather]

Originally Posted by *Erika* or Unknown Dreamer

people. If you view my journal, POST!!!

what doess it look like Im doing? hahaha how's your day going? haha
Bethany

[Erika]

Hi Bethany!
I'm just writing you another loooooong entry to enjoy. Not as long as yesterday's...but long-ish. Go R.c. my poems girl...http://www.christianguitar.org/forum...ost1041749...I want you to
how are you today? what's the weather like?

[Erika]

Today was sad...my last day at work. I had no idea at all that people liked me so much! But everyone seems really sad. I've been offered four jobs in the last week, from part time to full time, from supermarkets and being a supervisor there to working in a little cafe to wokring in a factory to secretary-ing. But I figure that if I don't know the proper word for secretary-ing, I probly shouldn't take the job

*Sigh* I was told yesterday that someone I used to be really good friends with (or I counted her as a friend), has gotten into a lesbian relationship. again. I'm really gutted to be honest, because I've prayed so hard for her and hoped so much that God would sort her out. I'm angry, too! I'm trying not to be angry. Anger is not a good thing. But I'm so disappointed in her...she is unbelievably talented, and has so much potential! But she's throwing it away! I'm so mad! Stop me...I need a hug.

Anyways. Starboard Wake, also known as Jeffrey Bryan Shoup, of the Alpha Tauri collection, has made my day. For the first time, someone on these boards has really enjoyed the poetry I've posted here, and has actually made an intelligent comment! And R.C.'d it in a way that I can actually make improvements on it! WOOOOOW! Haha. He got rep for it. And anyone who copies him, will also get repped. So, go, r.c.

Anyways, I'm now chatting with someone who I consider to be one of my favorite people in the unverse, so I'm gonna go. Shoutouts to Napht, and anyone who reads this...

[merryweather]

Originally Posted by *Erika* or Unknown Dreamer

Today was sad...my last day at work. I had no idea at all that people liked me so much! But everyone seems really sad. I've been offered four jobs in the last week, from part time to full time, from supermarkets and being a supervisor there to working in a little cafe to wokring in a factory to secretary-ing. But I figure that if I don't know the proper word for secretary-ing, I probly shouldn't take the job

haha poor you, my best friends older sis has a secretary job, and she loves it, haha but yeah it weird not know what job to get, but I'de be happy to take one of those jobs off your hands hahaha. I need a job lol.

Originally Posted by *Erika* or Unknown Dreamer

*Sigh* I was told yesterday that someone I used to be really good friends with (or I counted her as a friend), has gotten into a lesbian relationship. again. I'm really gutted to be honest, because I've prayed so hard for her and hoped so much that God would sort her out. I'm angry, too! I'm trying not to be angry. Anger is not a good thing. But I'm so disappointed in her...she is unbelievably talented, and has so much potential! But she's throwing it away! I'm so mad! Stop me...I need a hug.

aww I totaly understand, it's like my sister, she's not a lesbian, but like she totaly is not doing the right things, and she had a great futer but she's just thorwing it away, but the thing that gets me mad is that some people start to judge her and think sh'e really bad or she's on drugs or how she's just a moron, or somthing (i won't metion names haha)and that really really gets me sad because they dno't know the half of it they can't go saying tht stuff about her because I really do lover her, and even though it is true, I hate to here it because that use to never be what it really was. So here a big internet hug to your {{{{{{{{{{{ERIKA}}}}}}}}}} thats a internet hug


Well have a great day!!!
Bethany

[FTS]

hey erika!
What is up?!?!?!
Hope everything is well with you!
Will catch you up later!
Just thought I should let you know that I'll be making this a regular stop on my cgr rounds... so keep us updated! =]

[Fuzz]

Sorry about your friend erika, that's sad....Hey i was looking at colleges in Wellington today, i was looking at Victoria and it looked promising -Adam

[merryweather]

Hey gurl arent ya even gonna post in your own blog? haha yeah it's been fun kinda latly maybe haha anyways yeah so how was your weekend? you get a fresh new start on mondays (thats what I allways say, and I have found out that I really do hate mondays hahaha) anyways. yeah well haev a great week haha and post more in your blog haha.
Bethany

[Fuzz]

Yes'um. -Adam

p.s. I'll prolly write in it sometime in the next week