EleventhHour's musings...

Ayria · 10-22-2003, 02:01 PM

heyhey! just saw your blog and wanted to stop in and say hi. i'll be back later!!!!
~Karin

EleventhHour · 10-23-2003, 10:57 PM

Thanks Karinn, always nice to have someone drop in.

I more or less got some resolution in the argument on monotheism. One of the supermods posted that the discussion was too heated to really be saying anything, and that somehow had the effect of just making me feel like dropping the whole business. Some of the people who had been involved in the thread before came back and now the discussion is more civil.

I do think it helped that I have three places where I blog, and was sort of getting it off my chest at all three places.

Evenstar · 10-25-2003, 08:30 PM

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Originally Posted by EleventhHour

I more or less got some resolution in the argument on monotheism. One of the supermods posted that the discussion was too heated to really be saying anything, and that somehow had the effect of just making me feel like dropping the whole business. Some of the people who had been involved in the thread before came back and now the discussion is more civil.

Thats good. I hate it when things get too heated...never fun. *pooped*

Anywayz, about your question regarding Bible Study, i will do my own thing, just basically ask for any questions regarding the Bible and/or God, and try and answer them, together if possible even.

Or I have something kinda planned out. A Psalms study.

Blessings and prayer!!

Ayria · 10-26-2003, 09:13 PM

i'm back!!! so if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?
~Karin

EleventhHour · 10-29-2003, 05:14 PM

I was rushing around doing stuff and kept putting off giving you my email, Evanstar. This time I'll do it!

That guy is still a creep, I am just ignoring him. What bothers me is that I might have looked bad. I just think he's so rude. Other atheists, polytheists, etc. are at the board, but they don't get so nasty and they don't try to stir up trouble. Don't pay too much attention to me at this point, I'm in the process of getting it out of my system!

I am home from my working vacation, back to unemployment. I have enough money for now, so I guess I'm somewhat comfortable materially. I saw a sale yesterday on spices, so I bought basil, garlic powder and chile peppers. I need to start cooking more healthy, and garlic is good for the immune system, and spices are good in other ways and they make the food taste good. I got a fairly decent amount at 1$ per item. It's not the way I'd do it ideally, I'd get fresh basil and garlic, but I'm living at someone else's house in their good graces, and I can't or don't think I can, cook the odd way I did at home.

Three wishes, Angel_Princess, hmmm....

1. I'd like a better place to live, more beautiful, easy to take care of, my own rather than someone else's home, and if anyone else lived there or nearby, I'd want really good people, godly as opposed to just nice. Nice is what I have now, but their marriage is unhappy and making things difficult for me, I fee.

2. My own computer. Having access to a computer is so important to me for so many reasons. I enjoy it so much.

3. Transportation. I have never owned a car, and I don't know whether my eyesight is really good enough to drive, but I wish I had better transportation than just the bus.

EleventhHour · 11-01-2003, 12:07 PM

Kind of on edge at the moment, I was sort of accused of stopping up the toilet--it's been slow, and I had emptied out the cat litter. V asked if I had flushed it down the toilet. I keep getting this feeling that I should try to see things from her point of view, but I have emptied cat litter before and never but never put it in the toilet. Why would anyone? I've never heard of that. I really don't think she likes me, and I can't wait to get out of her house. I can, of course, but look forward to it eagerly. I won't miss them. I'll feel guilty for not liking them, but they are jerks, I'm realizing. He's Mr. Pornography, and she's kicked him out of the bedroom.

She acts like she's a man sometimes, though she doesn't cut her hair short.

Ugh, time up at the library, and I hate to be this bitter. I'll have to come back and try to end on a better note.

Ayria · 11-01-2003, 01:28 PM

hello there! awwww, sorry things aren't going well

my sister was at work and the toilet stopped up....she called home panicking, lol

EleventhHour · 11-01-2003, 02:18 PM

I had to live without my own toilet when I was homeless, so I know it's frustrating.

Ech, I was in a bad mood before. I feel better now. I went to my favorite church, it's here downtown, and sat for a few minutes. It's RC, and I don't go to Mass anymore because of bad experiences with people in authority, plus I had had some really bad luck after just going in to make a visit at church, got sick an hour later once, cut my hand doing something that was always harmless before, etc. I asked God to take away my bad luck with this and give me some good luck this time.

I went to a fast food place after that, and had small burger and a salad, went back to the library and listened to part of a lecture on Wilbur and Orville Wright, who of course more or less invented the modern airplane. The lecturer passed around lots of photos I'd never seen, of the brothers, their home, the wife of one--Catherine, who was an interesting lecturer herself.

The upshot of this all was that I went to the library gift store to get an anniversary card for my brother & sis-in-law, and got into a conversation with the volunteer behind the counter. She thought maybe I worked there, but I said, no unemployed and spend lots of time here. She suggested I apply here, and I said I had once & but didn't get hired. She said, oh you have to keep applying. I thought I should have known that somehow. But I'm glad I had the conversation...oops back soon...

edit: okay, sorry this is so drawn out. I left on a somewhat upbeat note to go upstairs & get on computer. I came to this very one, realized I didn't have my backpack

--whew, remembered I left it behind their counter because of security. Went back, got it, and came back here and managed to get a bit of extra time because someone hadn't logged off on the computer. Well, some good luck and some funny luck, I guess.

Why am I going on and on? I seem to do that in the winter, more than the summer. Maybe it has to do with the change in light.

Sometimes I think it is because there is really something else I'm worried about, but am really afraid to talk about it.

EleventhHour · 11-01-2003, 02:43 PM

Angel_Princess, I also bought a little medallion with an angel on it in the library gift shop--my sister in law loves angels. I guess the idea is to put it in your pocket and it reminds you of the person who gave it to you.

EleventhHour · 11-04-2003, 06:32 PM

Ah, life. I feel very self-focussed sometimes.

What was I going to say? I do this sometimes, have a million things I want to talk about, then when I get some time, poof! Whatever is was is in limbo somewhere.

EleventhHour · 11-10-2003, 06:13 PM

There are people I keep meaning to post for prayer for, and I keep getting distracted. Must find a way.

EleventhHour · 11-12-2003, 04:22 PM

Okay, well, got that done.

I went to White Castle, since it was raining and I was hungry. I used to sometimes spend my last bit of money there, since I could sit and write. I regretted it later, when I ran out of money and couldn't eat healthy, but it had seemed so inevitable, why not? I never had enough money, and as happens every November, I seem to really run out. I do have some in the bank, and maybe a Christmas check from Dad coming (I hope, I never know. I always seem to doubt, but then it comes anyway. Good old dad, I guess. I feel bad for doubting, but I feel as though I don't really know him, so just can only hope and not be sure).

I am going to be in a skit for Al-anon this week, on Sat. but I need to find some of the right sized poster board. I tried to before it started raining, but they only had the large size which would be difficult to cut down, and difficult to get home from the store. I could go downtown, but don't know if they'll have what I want.

I forgot to go to the post office with my letter to get copies of my birth certificate. I went right near it, but forgot, and that is something I really need to do, but have had so much fear and panic about it that I put it off. I think the fear was that they wouldn't believe I am who I am at the out of state courthouse where I have to send the letter. I now feel that's a bit ridiculous, but by now other things have calmed me down. But they were things I had to wait for.

I was and still am afraid about a letter to apply for financial aid, to pay for the emergeny treatment I got after being hit by a car in April. I just didn't and don't have the money to pay for the care, and kept putting off the letter, which would have gotten me out of trouble. I'm sure my doubts and fears about this are just as ridiculous as those about the other letter and documents. I think I'm beginning to see that now, but it's such work and difficulty trying to get this seemingly simple thing done.

The pure truth is that it is not my willpower or effort that gets it done, but some moment of inspiration from someone else. Or some life situation or something. Things get done when they get done. I've had a hard time this year, and I was in no shape to live a normal life when all of the trouble started, so I have to give myself a really big break, and just take it as it comes.

EleventhHour · 11-14-2003, 09:49 PM

I thought I had something to post, what was it? Can't remember, gone with the wind.

I lost a pair of gloves yesterday, or misplaced them. This is getting seriously inconvenient, as I keep doing it.

EleventhHour · 11-14-2003, 10:02 PM

I know one thing I was worried about: when I was in my early 30s I think, I babysat for a kid who I now think may have been abused.

I now also think the family were Satanists, and I'm scared about the whole thing. I may be imagining things. I don't know what I would do if my suspicions turned out to be true. It might be impossible to prove.

Evenstar · 11-17-2003, 02:07 PM

Hello Eleventh Hour!! I am SOOOOOO sorry that my email has stopped working

if youve tried to email me!!

It has been broken for about 15 days now....

I dont understand what it wrong since the LAST time it broke like its broken now God fixed it only about 5 days after(it broke on a Sunday and fixed on the next Friday). Since this time it broke on a Sunday too, I just figured it might be the same case...guess not.

SO I apologize about the Bible Study thing...*sigh* Ive actually got some stuff written up, but...

Well, I sure hope things look up for you!!

God bless you!!