[EleventhHour]

Thanks for the link, Evenstar:

"It's hazardous, your vocabulary and mental quickness increases, but school seems increasingly boring and droll. Your grades drop. The more time you spend in your fantasy world, the more you want to walk away from the burdensome decisions of life."

This is from Steve Russo's site, some guy talking about his Dungeons and Dragons experience. My older brother got involved in that, and then into Magic, the Gathering.

Actually, it reminds me of me. I tend to avoid responsiblity, and my life is unreal to me. I think it's because we both want to escape from real life--LOTS of abuse in childhood.

Actually, I think for some people these things can be an escape, but for some a way to get lost. But some people could be 'found' I guess, if they were straigtened out. I definitely think some are more vulnerable than others to this sort of thing.

At the Charmed board where I post, I tend to find people who think Christianity "stems" from Paganism. I find sometimes there are common ideas, sort of, but Christianity stems from Christ (and his teachings).

Here's another set of avs I submitted at Avatarity:



I haven't submitted them all by any means yet. I put them in the 'private' category, meaning they won't be submitted to the public for use unless I put them in the public category. I feel nervous about just giving these away to someone I don't know, but at least they will get used.

[EleventhHour]

I was thinking of this bit of lyric from Gordon Lightfoot:

...and the house you live in will never fall down, if you pity the stranger who stands at your gate.

Sounds like a good quote for a banner.


I saw someone asking about the Didache in--I guess Theology here--and I wondered what it was. I did a search and found lots of sites. Here's a quote:

Didache 11:4
Let every apostle, when he cometh to you, be received as the Lord;

Didache 11:5
but he shall not abide more than a single day, or if there be need, a second likewise; but if he abide three days, he is a false prophet.

Didache 11:6
And when he departeth let the apostle receive nothing save bread, until he findeth shelter; but if he ask money, he is a false prophet.

Didache 11:7
And any prophet speaking in the Spirit ye shall not try neither discern; for every sin shall be forgiven, but this sin shall not be forgiven.

Didache 11:8
Yet not every one that speaketh in the Spirit is a prophet, but only if he have the ways of the Lord. From his ways therefore the false prophet and the prophet shall be recognized.

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Here'a an av that I used once at my LOTR board

[EleventhHour]

I was very upset last night when the alarm went off, I sure didn't remember what to do, if it was explained accurately. It probably was.

I was VERY upset. I was angry, cursing, depressed, and wanted to die.

I had gone out for something other than to walk the dog for the first time in more than a week. It was pleasant, other than the usual background static in my head.

Then I came home and the alarm went off--false alarm, but it's more than a smoke detector. I had not charged the cell phone correctly--it's not mine and cell phones are completely new to me. The alarm interfered with the phone lines, so I couldn't get on the computer and talk to anyone. I didn't know who to call, but of course left a messg. for my bro., but I don't know how they could have called with both the phone connections not working.

I got mad in front of the pets, I got frustrated and faithless. I am still mad, though I don't know about the alarm, just about life and being so scared and upset.

When I went out, the weather was lovely, but I was so shabby. Really needed a shower but didn't, because--I felt--I had to take care of the dogs.

I knew there was something wrong with that, and that I should take a shower, and that I should look in the instructions to make sure I knew how to charge the cell phone, but I didn't have a lot of courage about it. I always crap on myself, and don't know how to change.

I found some books at curbside, picked out a few from the strange esoterica, some Christian ones this time.

[EleventhHour]

Here is what is in my sig now, other than the odd clock button:





The top one is a button to The One, the LotR board where I post. I guess I could link the second to my 'musings' here.

[Evenstar]

Originally Posted by EleventhHour

Thanks for the link, Evenstar:

This is from Steve Russo's site, some guy talking about his Dungeons and Dragons experience. My older brother got involved in that, and then into Magic, the Gathering.

Actually, it reminds me of me. I tend to avoid responsiblity, and my life is unreal to me. I think it's because we both want to escape from real life--LOTS of abuse in childhood.

Actually, I think for some people these things can be an escape, but for some a way to get lost. But some people could be 'found' I guess, if they were straigtened out. I definitely think some are more vulnerable than others to this sort of thing.

At the Charmed board where I post, I tend to find people who think Christianity "stems" from Paganism. I find sometimes there are common ideas, sort of, but Christianity stems from Christ (and his teachings).

Here's another set of avs I submitted at Avatarity:



I haven't submitted them all by any means yet. I put them in the 'private' category, meaning they won't be submitted to the public for use unless I put them in the public category. I feel nervous about just giving these away to someone I don't know, but at least they will get used.

No prob!

Yeah, i can understand that. Not that ive ever been 'sucked up into' all that, but ive had my liddle obsesions.

You seem to have this real sad life. Im sorry EleventhHour.....youre in my prayers friend!

yes, i used to get this magazine called Brio, and Steve Russo would occasionally have something about Wicca. once this person(a Wiccan) said that praying(of Christians) was like THEIR form of "prayer"...(i dont remember what its called though.) and Mr. Russo explained how it WASNT. and some other cool things.

WOW!! AWESOME avatars!! if they work, could i use them?.....(not for avatars, however, but just to see if they pop up in my sig?) I like the 2nd and 3rd ones hihi.

[EleventhHour]

You are absolutely welcome to use any of the avs or banners, Evenstar. Only the 'The One' banner is not mine, and the board only wants it used to connect to their site.

I posted 2 pics in your blog thread, I think, but if I didn't, here they are again:



The way to get an image's URL, by the way, is to do a right-click on the image, then left-click Properties when the menu pops up. The URL always begins with "http://www...".

Someone at the Charmed board where I post started a thread called "Why Do People Think Spells Work?" and some people are saying that the spells are a form of prayer. Since their god/gods/goddess are not really god, I don't see how it is prayer I guess. I'm not quite sure how to say that to them, though, and I doubt they are much interested in hearing it, many surely having heard the word of Christ.

Thanks for the prayer, Evanstar, I appreciate it. I just know there are things from my past I'm not able to deal with yet, but they crop up when they get the opportunity, and I get miserable. Ugh.

[Consumingfire]

Hey liz! Well i dunno if anyone has truely welcomed you to the boards. So WELCOME TO THE BOARDS! Well im gonna try and drop by your little blog/journel more often.. cause no-one should blog/journel alone on CGR!
Gabe

[EleventhHour]

Thanks, Gabe. Evanstar welcomed me too, so I haven't been all alone, but it's nice to say hello to someone else too.

Uh, like your mole rat.

[Consumingfire]

Ahh, cool.. Well then, what's been going on lately?!

[EleventhHour]

I've been house-sitting for my brother--he has 2 maltese dogs and a cat. It's not difficult, but things haven't been great in my life lately, and I have to go back to my life of unemployment and .... bleah, bleah, bleah.

I was homeless for a few months last year, but managed to find shelter in an abandoned building on my family's property. It was pretty awful, but I wasn't out on the street or in a publicly funded place, which I assume would be worse. Some friends from Alanon took me in, I got a job, then lost it when I got hit by a car. The guy wouldn't pay up, and his insurance co. has apparently flown the coup. I'm habitually unemployed, and need to recover my ID after my wallet was stolen a month or so after the accident. Life stinks. I did start therapy when I was forced into it under threat of homelessness.

So little things go wrong and I get upset when they do. That's because the big things aren't going that great. I do like my Alanon group, many of whom are more or less Christian (Catholic usually). But I don't have a church or Bible study group, and my life's experience with any religious (so-called) people I knew were pretty awful. Jesus is still Lord, but life is slow to improve.

Sorry to dump it all out, but that's my blog, that's the way things are.

How are things with you?

[EleventhHour]

It's cold here.

I had a PM from Gene and one about 2 weeks old from Jordan that I have to answer. I feel pretty jerky about the older one. I can't believe it.

I should have started an RPG a long time ago for my forum. I see now, I guess, that I have to look at some other RPGs that work to see how they are done.

the dogs are really sleepy today, napping a lot. I napped for quite a while too. I don't know why, but assume it's the weather. Getting cold and rainy.

edit: now I remember, I had a nasty caffeine withdrawal headache this a.m. and afternoon. I took some ibuprofen and tried to nap it off. I didn't feel like drinking coffee. Sometimes I feel like it bothers me a lot and also makes me feel hungrier than I really am. I guess it causes more digestive juices to form.

I raked some leaves and did a fair amount of dishes, had been worried about the dishes all week. I sometimes wonder why I worry so much about them. I'm glad I'm not worrried now.

I realized today that at least part of the reason I am not successful, is that I am trying to please people who have dumped on me and who I do not respect.

[Evenstar]

More prayers my dear friend!!!

As for church and Bible study group, your city must be SO deprived of a good church...... if you lived near me, I'd invite you to mine. Its very very good and I love it VERY much. I dont know your age (or do I?) so I wouldnt say for sure if youd be in my Bible Study....im in senior high(whoa....) and we meet every week. Its cool, and my college leader is encouraging. In fact, last weeks study was on the PURPOSE of Bible studies and meeting regularly; to enoucrage each other. We kept having to say "enourage" alot. (part of the plan hihi). Anyway, if you want to, I dunno, start an online Bible study, pm me or email me or something...Im always open to try something new....

God bless you sister in Christ!!

Hope

[EleventhHour]

Actually, it's a big city, so there are probably lots of decents Bible study classes. I just have had bad experiences at home and in church. My parents were religious to the extent that it served their purposes, but now it's been a long time since my father went to church other than for a baptism or wedding. My mother still goes also when it serves to make her look good. At least that's the way I see it. I'm kind of tired of making excuses for them and I really doubt either of them will ever show any sincere interest in serving God. My mom says when asked that she does not know whether there is a God. She once taught a group called "Teen Encounters Christ" to teens, of course. I don't know that she ever encountered Christ. I don't know that I have either, but I know Jesus is Lord.

My last real involvement with any church was when I chaperoned some teen dances and found out the 'elder' who headed up the group was almost certainly having it off with a male prostitute. Not to mention that he was lukewarm at best in his spirituality. I'm sure that others must know about this, but nothing has been done, and this man has fooled a lot of foolish people.

I couldn't stand to be around people like this. Our church is an old established church,and we don't actually call our elders "Elders". I just don't know how safe it is to say anything about my suspicions.

Argh. Anyway, my Bible study tends to be radio study, but it's hard to stick to it where I live. I feel like the homeowners I live with wouldn't like it. I really like Jack Hayfords' Living Way Ministries. In the city where I live there are usually some more interesting programs, too. He's online too, in fact, I should listen to him today, come to think of it.

Thanks for your offer, Evanstar. I will have more limited time online when I get back home this week, but I'd like to take you up on it. I'm 44, though, if it makes a diffference. Some parts of me are fairly immature, I think.

Well, I do thank you for your encouragement. I really like that, and Consumingfire, too. I haven't visited his blog yet, took a quick look, though.

I mentioned I put some of my avatars in at a site that provides avatars, and some were accepted. It's me just giving my time and whatever skill I have away, but it's kind of fun.

I've made a few weapon icons for RPGs at my LotR site, and they might use them. I hope so, it makes me feel good.

I was just outside, chasing a stray dog who was messing up the yard. I didn't really chase him, he just got intimidated when I showed up at the fence. He didn't seem to have the owner around, which was annoying, but I felt sorry for the dog being allowed to run loose like that. A mutt but a pretty dog.

I do blog on.

[Evenstar]

Hi!!

Wow...that elder guy sure doesnt sound good.... *sigh* The world we now live in.....

Yeah. Some small groups arent so good, others are EXCELLENT. Dont mean to brag, and its rather early(having only been happening for 3 weeks almost 4) but i think mine ROCKS!

Ok, so that would be pretty cool!! Being 44 doesnt matter AT ALL!!! I actually made a BIG BRAVE somewhat-out-of-character attempt to get me and a buncha my friends discussing the Bible, by sending out an email to lots of them about doing an online study. They have pretty much all responded, and one friend suggested I email one of HER friends(a sweet girl I happen to know pretty well also). And then ANOTHER of her friends emailed me about it as well.

So I dont think youd be alone..... (of course we'd probly do something a bit different perhaps.)

Sometimes I wonder and kinda dream about what it'd be like teaching/leading a small group....

Well, anyway,

God bless!!
Hope

[EleventhHour]

Whew. Some guy posted a thread at the LotR board called something like: Monotheism, is it an offence? He thinks all monotheists, including Christians, Jews and Muslims all believe that if you don't believe in 'their god' and live as their god tells you to, you are an infidel, cursed and will go to hell. I and some others were saying that in Christianity it is not just believing that there is only Yahweh as God, but that Christians have trust that is Jesus is both God and man, that he shows us the way to heaven, that continued life without trust in God is hell.

This guy kept twisting things around and putting words in people's mouth if they disagreed with him. He had all kinds of brass. I don't know if I 'won' the argument since he didn't see it that way. he wasn't so orderly a debator. Another guy jumped in who I never thought would say what he said, jeering that not one person has been CONVERTED by this thread. No one was trying to convert anyone in the thread, and where he came up with that notion, I don't know.

I got most of the leaves in the back yard raked and into the compost pile today. It's kind of a big deal for me, since my mom used to always nag me in the middle of a job like that and say I wasn't going to finish it. No one could live with that amount of nagging. In fact one of the Bible passages that has the most meaning to me was 'It is better to live in the attic of a poor man, than to live in the house of a contentious woman."

I'm sort of in the house of a contentious woman now, she just has a temper problem she takes out on her husband, but some of it spills over onto me. I don't really think she likes him very much, but she keeps living with him. I think she thinks she can't make it on her own. Well it's hard to live alone. But they are not particularly Godly, she just says she didn't used to believe in God, but now she does.

Evanstar, are you going to use an already established course or kind of use your own? I'll PM you my email address, in case it's not in my profile. I can't remember whether I put the option there or not.

Whew, worn out from arguing.