[Brian-Alexander]

good morining beanbag wake up if your not already im kinda bored here so yeah im glad you did your work thats always a good thing and have a great day

[beanbag]

hmmm...seeing as it was only 5 am here when you wrote that post, Brian, I was definitely not up. I slept in till 10.

oh yeah...I *LOVE* it so much when my dad makes me do stuff I don't want to...*grrs*. I really appreciate his friends wanting to help me and all, but they're Iraqi, and I've heard Iraqi Arabic is the hardest dialect to learn. they speak differently! like...they just speak so differently. it would be way different if I were already proficient in proper Arabic (which is what I'm learning right now) and was moving on to learn the different dialects. but I'm just starting out! I barely speak the language and I'm going to get so confused and messed up. I'll look like this within a month! --> ...or worse...

lol so it's not quite that bad...but I talked to my dad and said that I can't take it right at the moment. his ever-wise response was "talk to your Arabic teacher. tell her there are a lot of people here from Iraq who were educated there, some who graduated from college there. tell her you can get a lot of help from them, but the dialect is different. if she tells you no, you need to stick to the book, that's fine and you can tell them that. but she may say you should get help from them." I, of course, already know what she'll say. she'll be concered because of the dialectual (is that a word?) differences, and she'll be worried about my getting confused. I know the lady, my dad doesn't! I know exactly what she's gonna say! oh well...I'll ask her all the same, so I can tell him I already knew what she was going to say muaha.

anyways...enough ranting for now. I actually did stuff today! *claps* first, I went to guitar class...it was quite uneventful. we have our midterm on halloween. goodness knows what those people are gonna come dressed up as (because he said they can dress up). I wonder if I can forego the fancy dress attire and wear my normal clothes, and then say I'm going as myself. or...I ran this idea past my brother...I could wear my brother's clothes and say I was going as him haha. and he could wear mine if he really wanted to. otherise, I have to wear a long (really, really long) black skirt and a white shirt. ugh. that's what I wear everyday! besides the days I wear jean skirts and tshirts lol. but still. and I'd have to find a pretty long black skirt so I don't "make a bunch of teenage boys sitting in the front row very happy", as my teacher likes to remind us ladies to scare us out of wearing indecently short skirts. not that I would...*shudders*. oh and ew...I have to play in the "quartet" on wednesday. my teacher wasn't pleased by the fact that I haven't "volunteered" to play for the past week...he made me agree to do it wednesday before he let me out 7 minutes early.

after that, I went to speech class *yay fun*. I was really scared I'd get in trouble cuz I didn't have all my research done, and we were supposed to have finished today. thank goodness I was so not alone lol. there were like...two people who finished their research. some people hadn't even started! so I have to hang out in the library at school tomorrow and find some more good stuff. oh...but God is so cool. I was stressing because I have 2 main points in my speech, and I have to have a minimum of four sources, if not more. I thought I only had 2 sources, and I was going to use myself as another source. so here I am, one primary, one secondary, and one tertiary. I was like, this is not cool. but then I went up after class to talk to her, and I realized I had *dum dum dum!* another primary source. needless to say, I was quite pleased with God. and my teacher was pleased with me!

after that, I went and hung out with mis amigas from highschool, and I got in trouble for "distracting" them by the new junior teacher. I couldn't tell if he was serious or joking *shrugs*. but hey, my former teacher (and she's his supervisor) said I could come chill with them on mondays (cuz that's the only day they're on campus when I am) so who cares! and the girl I was talking to didn't pay him any attention...she said he likes to pretend they care lol. he was kind of...ehhish...he used to be my brother's principal. I dunno...he's new at his job. I'll educate him in the ways of the junior core class teacher by the time this school year's out. he'll be as cool as my teacher was/is when I'm through with him.

ummm...after speech I had aerobics...wee! we were totally inside today so I got kind of nauseated by the smell of the pe room/mats...but yes...it was quite a workout. he keeps trying to motivate us by telling us we'll gain 6-10 pounds over the holiday season, but we can cancel those out and lose weight by coming to aerobics lol. he's especially reminding us halloween is coming up. so...if I don't celebrate halloween and eat a bunch of candy, and I'm at aerobics all the sessions...will I lose an additional 6-10 pounds? I hope so!

anyways, this has rambled on for ages, and I keep getting distracted by my brother IMing me. I can hear him laughing in his room at our insanity...it's quite fun. before I had an internet connection in my room, when he had two computers in his room (formerly the office), we would sit side by side and chat via aim...my mom never understood it. she would always say "you guys are sitting right next to each other, why don't you just talk?!?" but...it's more fun that way.

illa illeikoh...

[Brian-Alexander]

Originally Posted by beanbag

hmmm...seeing as it was only 5 am here when you wrote that post, Brian, I was definitely not up. I slept in till 10.

oh yeah...I *LOVE* it so much when my dad makes me do stuff I don't want to...*grrs*. I really appreciate his friends wanting to help me and all, but they're Iraqi, and I've heard Iraqi Arabic is the hardest dialect to learn. they speak differently! like...they just speak so differently. it would be way different if I were already proficient in proper Arabic (which is what I'm learning right now) and was moving on to learn the different dialects. but I'm just starting out! I barely speak the language and I'm going to get so confused and messed up. I'll look like this within a month! --> ...or worse...

lol so it's not quite that bad...but I talked to my dad and said that I can't take it right at the moment. his ever-wise response was "talk to your Arabic teacher. tell her there are a lot of people here from Iraq who were educated there, some who graduated from college there. tell her you can get a lot of help from them, but the dialect is different. if she tells you no, you need to stick to the book, that's fine and you can tell them that. but she may say you should get help from them." I, of course, already know what she'll say. she'll be concered because of the dialectual (is that a word?) differences, and she'll be worried about my getting confused. I know the lady, my dad doesn't! I know exactly what she's gonna say! oh well...I'll ask her all the same, so I can tell him I already knew what she was going to say muaha.

anyways...enough ranting for now. I actually did stuff today! *claps* first, I went to guitar class...it was quite uneventful. we have our midterm on halloween. goodness knows what those people are gonna come dressed up as (because he said they can dress up). I wonder if I can forego the fancy dress attire and wear my normal clothes, and then say I'm going as myself. or...I ran this idea past my brother...I could wear my brother's clothes and say I was going as him haha. and he could wear mine if he really wanted to. otherise, I have to wear a long (really, really long) black skirt and a white shirt. ugh. that's what I wear everyday! besides the days I wear jean skirts and tshirts lol. but still. and I'd have to find a pretty long black skirt so I don't "make a bunch of teenage boys sitting in the front row very happy", as my teacher likes to remind us ladies to scare us out of wearing indecently short skirts. not that I would...*shudders*. oh and ew...I have to play in the "quartet" on wednesday. my teacher wasn't pleased by the fact that I haven't "volunteered" to play for the past week...he made me agree to do it wednesday before he let me out 7 minutes early.

after that, I went to speech class *yay fun*. I was really scared I'd get in trouble cuz I didn't have all my research done, and we were supposed to have finished today. thank goodness I was so not alone lol. there were like...two people who finished their research. some people hadn't even started! so I have to hang out in the library at school tomorrow and find some more good stuff. oh...but God is so cool. I was stressing because I have 2 main points in my speech, and I have to have a minimum of four sources, if not more. I thought I only had 2 sources, and I was going to use myself as another source. so here I am, one primary, one secondary, and one tertiary. I was like, this is not cool. but then I went up after class to talk to her, and I realized I had *dum dum dum!* another primary source. needless to say, I was quite pleased with God. and my teacher was pleased with me!

after that, I went and hung out with mis amigas from highschool, and I got in trouble for "distracting" them by the new junior teacher. I couldn't tell if he was serious or joking *shrugs*. but hey, my former teacher (and she's his supervisor) said I could come chill with them on mondays (cuz that's the only day they're on campus when I am) so who cares! and the girl I was talking to didn't pay him any attention...she said he likes to pretend they care lol. he was kind of...ehhish...he used to be my brother's principal. I dunno...he's new at his job. I'll educate him in the ways of the junior core class teacher by the time this school year's out. he'll be as cool as my teacher was/is when I'm through with him.

ummm...after speech I had aerobics...wee! we were totally inside today so I got kind of nauseated by the smell of the pe room/mats...but yes...it was quite a workout. he keeps trying to motivate us by telling us we'll gain 6-10 pounds over the holiday season, but we can cancel those out and lose weight by coming to aerobics lol. he's especially reminding us halloween is coming up. so...if I don't celebrate halloween and eat a bunch of candy, and I'm at aerobics all the sessions...will I lose an additional 6-10 pounds? I hope so!

anyways, this has rambled on for ages, and I keep getting distracted by my brother IMing me. I can hear him laughing in his room at our insanity...it's quite fun. before I had an internet connection in my room, when he had two computers in his room (formerly the office), we would sit side by side and chat via aim...my mom never understood it. she would always say "you guys are sitting right next to each other, why don't you just talk?!?" but...it's more fun that way.

illa illeikoh...

Very intersting stuff

[beanbag]

okiedokie children...time for me to tell you about my oh-so-lovely day before I fall asleep.

so I got up at that dreaded, unholy hour (6:30 am) and went to class. let's see...we covered sad, dad, ta, za, ayn, and gayn...for those of you who know what I'm talking about...no, we aren't going in order. so arabic was nice and...nice...today lol. quite ordinary.

after that, I had to go sit in the library all day! I got to school at 8 am and I was there till a quarter after 4! *screams* I absolutely hate being at school more than I have to. I should have walked home. but on a nicer note...I stayed all day because I knew if I came home I wouldn't do my work...so I sat there and finished all my homework!! I know Brian is so proud of me.

I got home and almost immediately I had to get ready for my night class. it's a highschool gov't class. I can already hear the questions from the few of you who read this lol. "why is Sabrina taking highschool gov't...she has a diploma, right? or did she LIE!" well...the answer is yes, I don't need to take the class. but my 8th grade brother is in it and I thought it would be fun to do. I need to associate with some of the people I went to school with sometimes!

oh and then an amazing first...I drove in town with my mother! she's kind of paranoid about that lol. I've been restricted to back roads till now. but yeah, she's like "you drive to class"...so I'm like uhh...okay...too bad the roads downtown are AWFUL. they're all at weird angles and they're impossible to see until you get to them. so yeah, I was supposed to turn *after* the presbyterian church...my mom stressed the after and kept repeating herself. so I'm driving along, trying not to fall asleep and crash into people, and this genius man in an ancient blue truck stops in front of me. okay, when you're turning, please use your turn signal! I didn't notice him until I was quite near, but I applied my brake very smoothly (cuz I'm cool like that. ) and stopped, waiting for him. THEN, I got confused and thought I was supposed to turn at the next turn, when it was really the one after! so I had to pull into the church parking lot and stop. my mom was lecturing me and I was tired and so she was like, "get out and I'll drive." I put the brake on (and the parking brake) and got out, but my mom had distracted me so much I forgot to shift into park. so, the van starts rolling along...thankfully I hadn't completely gotten out (my foot was resting on the floor of the van) so I slammed on the brake and switched into park. needless to say, it was not cool at all. but then on the way home she totally surprised me by letting me drive home (in the dark! I've only done that once!) and I did a super-cool job, so I'm quite proud of myself.

umm...I think that's it. it's 11 and I've been up since 6:30 and goodness only knows when I have to get up tomorrow, so I shall take my leave. take care and have a great night/day!

ma salama!

oh btw...welcome to the super-cool handofpromise.

[beanbag]

umm. yes. I just realized my last sentence kind of made no sense. what I *meant* was...

welcome to handofpromise who also happens to be super-cool.

my day: I got up. showered. irritated my mother. went to school. came home. ate dinner. got online. yay!

lol um...I had a pretty good day today; nothing to complain about. my speech teacher is oh-so-patient and oh-so-cool. she's always helping me and giving me ideas and stuff...she's a great lady. and my guitar teacher gave me a very encouraging and appreciated comment on my guitar playing, but he didn't say it so the rest of the class could hear which made it all the nicer. and then I stopped by my old classroom and hung out with my friend and sat in on my teacher's gov't class...I took her quiz lol. she was like, "hey Sabrina, wanna take a government quiz?" so I said okay. I was surprised to see I didn't know one of the terms (although I took gov't freshman year, I can't be expected to remember them all!). and oh..I saw my friend's newest flame lol (she's been trying to get me to meet him for a couple weeks now, but he's never there lol). he's a nice-looking guy. apparently he's nice, too.

oh! my friend (the same one from above) entered this contest...you record yourself singing this Jaci Velasquez song and send it in to this panel. they pick 5 finalists and then notify them (which will be tomorrow!!) and then on friday they'll be playing them on this Sacramento radio station (the Fish...105.5...you can access it online) and the listeners call in and vote for who they think should be the winner. SO...if she is a finalist, I will so tell you guys...and then you can listen in and vote for her. I'm so proud of her for entering though...and then the winner gets to sing with Jaci in concert, so that would be really awesome if my friend wins. she wants to be a professional musician, and this could really help her out.

anyways...I should end this now. I have arabic tomorrow morning, so I have to be up bright and early. *grumbles*.

until tomorrow...

[beanbag]

marhaban! (hello, hi, greetings)

woopdedoo...it's the time of night where I talk about my day...*waits for the excited cheers and applause*...

arabic class was fun today...we listened to a mix of music the first half hour and played "name that tune". it was pretty cool because there are three assyrians, one egyptian, and one dating-a-palestinian, so between the 5 of us, and our teacher, we pretty much knew what the songs were. the two all-americans and one mexican got a kick out of the music though. it was a burned cd and my oustatha hadn't heard it, so she didn't know what was on it. there was some alabina/gypsy kings, amr diab (mine and my auntie's "friend" lol), some random stuff they play at all the parties, some old stuff, an islamic religious song (it was really pretty though), and *rofl* arabic rap! you have not lived until you have heard arabic rap. it is so hilarious! and then there was this song that was apparently bitten off jennifer lopez/j.lo/jennywhatevershe'scallingherselfthesedays with the words changed. all in all it was pretty great. and then *gasp* I got to drive home from school. my mommy was brave. and I get to drive all the way to my aunt's house tomorrow...it takes about 20-30 minutes lol...my mom has never ridden with me that long.

I also got to spend some quality time with my auntie, gramma, great-aunt, and my auntie's mom-in-law today. they were all cooking a bunch of stuff all at once and they were all in the kitchen, so I went down there and helped and got in their way lol. and as a reward I got turkish coffee. my favorite.

the last part of my day today involves Bible study. we had a really awesome worship time together, I think. we did three songs, as usual, and they were mainly just random stuff. the first one we did was "waves of mercy", and I guess a lot of people didn't know it, because my friend asked me to slow down a little bit in the middle, and I got confused and missed my chords, so I just stopped and we sang (and laughed) the chorus a cappella. but the good part of that was that I had told them to wave their hands during the "waves of mercy, waves of grace" part, and they didn't quite get it, so I just did it with them, and then when we got to the nanana part, I started playing again. same speed. but then I told them we could do it again next week and they could learn it (I didn't know they didn't know it).
a good suggestion given to me by one of the leaders was that I bring in a worship cd everytime I want to introduce a song, that way they can hear it first and then I play it. I'll have to consider it. right now my worship cds are really really limited. I have like...2. after that we did "in the secret", which they know, and then "all in all". it was really...just...awesome. I could totally feel God's spirit with us. like, with the first song we just laughed at our (especially my) mistakes and had fun with the song, and then with the other two, I think God was really moving among us. the songs really speak to me, personally, and I think they do to a lot of the others as well. also contributing to the general awesome worship atmosphere is that I'm not a one-girl team anymore. my friend has joined the ranks (officially...she's helped me since I started) and so she's really really good at just encouraging people to share blessings between songs, and just helping things run smoothly. it's really comforting to be able to share the responsibility (and fun!) of leading worship, and as we're both really busy with school, it's nice to know there's two of us and we're in it together.
tonight we had a great lesson about respecting God; it really made everyone think, I know. it mainly focused on taking the Lord's name in vain, and how we can be witnesses by asking people with love to please not do that and then explaining to them why they shouldn't. and it's an accountability thing for us as well. the leader teaching tonight wrote up a dozen or so phrases on the board and then asked us which ones we hear at school, and a lot of us realized we say them ourselves, too. we talked about possible habit-breakers after the lesson, and here was my contribution: I used to have a problem with swearing, (very un-ladylike, I know) and a counselor at a camp a few years ago had told me one way to break the habit was to wear a hairband or rubberband around my wrist, and every time I swore, to pull it. I might have a blister by the end of the day (or the two weeks they say it takes to break a habit) but at least I'd start holding myself accountable. it worked.

anyways, this is the time of night where I sign off and go read my Bible and write. oh...that's what I wanted to write here...for those of you who do happen to stumble across this, here's an idea I picked up from a friend of mine a couple of years ago. every night (or just about. there are times when I don't write for a couple of days, and there are times when I haven't written for months. I noticed that those times correspond with the times I've fallen very very far from God) I write a letter to my future husband in a journal. now, keep in mind I'm not dating anyone, nor do I know any guys who I think God may want me to be marrying, nor am I looking for one. however, it's a really good way to keep me accountable and content with my "singleness", because I'm writing a collection of letters that the man I marry will read some day. and if I don't get married, I'll have stayed pure and avoided temptation because I would have written them thinking someone might read them and hold me accountable. it's a really good way to ward off the whiny I-want-a-boy-why-must-I-be-single-all-the-other-girls-have-boyfriends feelings I tend to get when I write in my personal journal. and as funny as it may sound, I feel like I'm actually talking to whoever he may be when I'm writing these letters. I know I already said this, but I think I'll repeat it for emphasis, because it's so true...it's a really really really good way to stay content with the situation I'm in. so if there are any of you out there reading this, I encourage you to try it. and I think it'll be so awesome to present this to my husband the day after we marry (I'm avoiding any befores) so he can have a taste of what I was like at 14, 15, 16, and on.

anyways, I meant to keep this short but I had so much to talk about...I just talk talk talk all the time. oh well.

ma salama...

[Brian-Alexander]

ahh your blog makes my head hurt! lol well im sry but i dont like reading all that stuff

[bingsWRX]

hey there! i'm pretty new at this. so i don't really know what i'm doing. i found this place cause i've been lookin up songs to do for worship thursday nights. we have a college group sunday nights, and i'm tryin to play the drums for worship, but no such luck yet. i just moved here...to lovely omaha, nebraska, and the only good thing about this place is that i found an AWESOME church. oh yeah, but i'm looking for worship music, and then i get side tracked by reading numerous journals. so i decided to go ahead and reply to your latest. well, mainly, i just wanted to say that yours is enjoyable to read. you are actually quite consistent in writing daily. much props to you. i'll be lookin forward to readin more in the future

dave

[beanbag]

hmm here I am being commended on writing daily when I haven't written in nearly a week lol. ah well, twasn't my fault...cgr wouldn't load for me...I think it was a sign I needed to do my homework.

anyways...I'm keeping this entry really short because it's 11:30 and I have to get up at 6:30 tomorrow for class. blech. and then! (this is where I whine and complain) and then! (no and then!) I have to take the bus *ugh ugh* to get to school (no, arabic class is not at my school)...it takes an hour! an hour to go 20 minutes! and I have to be there all day long. doing absolutely NOTHING. what FUN. maybe I'll go sleep in the nurses' office or something. but ugh I'm so angry. if I had only gotten my permit when I was supposed to *mutters* I'd have a license RIGHT NOW and I could drive myself to school quite easily. but noooo, I have to take the bus with all the people who stare. I'm sorry, am I really that interesting? it weirds me out!

okay, the complaining section is finished...

I had an interesting day today. my brother ditched class, I did my speech assignment wrong, and I had buttery pretzels. let me tell you...buttery pretzels are the weirdest things ever. but they're so addictive! I didn't know they were buttery until I started eating them and they tasted funny. so I checked the bag and it said...*surprise surprise*...buttery pretzels! but that's okay...my friend grabbed them for me, and the bag was only a dollar, versus .75 for 1/6 the amount in the cafeteria. I was shocked that the bookstore actually had something cheap. what is the world coming to?

oh yeah...another interesting thing...my guitar teacher had been pretty "tolerant" about my skirt wearing habits (meaning lack of use of my footstool habits) but then today he asked to see me after class, and he requested that I use my footstool, too. he told me that he noticed I wear my skirts long enough to be able to do so...I told him I'd try. otherwise, I get docked points.

anyways. that's that. I'm going to sleep.

ma salama...

[bingsWRX]

hey there! me again. just living my life through other peoples journals once again...kidding. anyways, it gives me a break while i'm at work. today i looked up more worship music online. i really wish that i took guitar lessons just like you. maybe i would be a lot better! i also wish that i could sing...but i doubt that will happen. i dunno...i must be doing something right. the person who leads our thursday night small groups wants me to take over worship ministries for the thursday night group. so i'm pretty stoked about that. other than that...not a whole lot goin on in omaha...middle america. friday should be fun. a bunch of us are goin on a hay ride. i haven't done that in years. not since high school. i think i finally found a church that i can connect with, so i'm pretty stoked about that. while i was in japan, i could find a church that i could call home. can you imagine not being able to call a church home for three years. i went to ch8urch on a regular basis, but it wasn't the same. well, i better go for now before i get in trouble being on line while at work. later

[beanbag]

that's pretty cool about you leading worship. I personally was kind of nervous about the idea when approached, but I was counselled by a teacher whose judgement I totally trust, and he told me to try it for a short period of time and see where God was directing me after that time period was up. the designated time period has passed, and things are going so well. in fact, a lot of the youth (lol, I sound as if they're all so much younger than me) have come forward and expressed interest in leading worship sometimes, so my friend and I are going to start doing stuff with that.

I definitely can imagine not being able to call a church home for 3 years. that's about the same period of time it took me to find my place after leaving my old church. I have discovered I cannot survive in large churches. I grew up in a small church where everyone was like (or really was) family. after I moved, the church my family was attending was super humongous. like..3 or 4 thousand people...maybe more now. people hardly knew each other outside of their little cliques (yes, I'm so serious. they would stand around in huddles after the service. I even caught some dirty looks coming my way a few times!) and talk about random people and things. it got to a point where I hadn't been to the service in a couple of months, and I went one day and this lady I had never ever seen before approached me and said, "welcome to *name of church*. this is your first time?" I was so surprised and a little frustrated by that. I wanted to say, "lady, my family has been attending this church for 10 years!" but of course, I didn't. I shook my head and smiled sweetly and said I had been going there for a long time. I didn't ever go back to the service after that. but now, I can definitely call my current church my home. there's probly not more than 150 people who attend, and even though I don't know them all yet, it's nice to see our pastor outside and to talk to him and he actually know me and what's going on with my life currently. of course, it helps that his wife is my dad's relative, but still lol.

anyways...I didn't write anything about yesterday. the most interesting thing was...I saw these guys getting arrested! well, in the process of being arrested. it was kind of scary. I was with my mom and she was heading out towards the highway, and we saw a bunch of police cars with their lights flashing in the driveway of a gas station...another police car was pulling up as we passed...and there were cops on both sides of this car with their guns pointed at these guys! and another guy was out on the sidewalk getting handcuffed! I have no idea what was going on lol. it was kind of cool though...the first time I've seen something like that other than on tv.

ummm...today I don't think I did anything *that* interesting. my guitar class got cancelled cuz today was ethnic heritage day and my instructor decided we could all go hang out in front of the student center instead of doing class. I ended up staying in the classroom anyways lol. I didn't particularly want to watch things like a group of girls trying to perform some "hiphop" business that just consisted of dancing around in a not-so-great fashion...they were so uncoordinated! plus it was a little hot outside and I always would rather be inside playing my guitar or reading.

okay I think I'm going to end this. I have to finish my book, come up with another song for worship tomorrow, and sleep so I can go to arabic like a good girl tomorrow.

ma salama!

[beanbag]

umm...not much to say for today. I skipped arabic this morning and I'm sick again. such fun.

I wonder if I can pull something out of nowhere and make this seem more interesting than it really is. I've seen a lot of people post surveys in their journals/blogs/whateveryouwannacallthem so maybe I'll go dig up one from my vast archives lol.

*gasp* I actually found one. it's taken me 45 minutes lol. and I'm going to end up deleting half the questions because it's one thing when you're sending it to your friends who know you don't mean a thing you say...it's another thing when it's being posted on the internet. so without further ado...here tis...

Have you ever...

Fallen for your best friend? seeing that my best friend is a girl...no lol.
Been rejected? like how?
Been in love? no.
Been in lust? no.
Used someone? no way.
Been used? maybe, but I hope not.
Cheated on someone? nope.
Been cheated on? nope.
Been kissed? by my parents lol. and various relatives/friends. it's a middle eastern custom to greet each other with a kiss. but not the kind the question means lol.
Done something you regret? who hasn't?

Who was the last person...

You touched? my brother. I was playing with his hair. it's so fun!
You talked to? again, my brother.
You hugged? my dad.
You instant messaged? um...my friend lol.
You kissed? no one.
You yelled at? my brother lol.
You laughed with? my brother. (are we seeing a pattern here?)
You had a crush on? um. that's confidential. I'm pleading the 5th.
Who broke your heart? no one lol.
Color your hair? this question kind of makes no sense. but I have brown hair.
Have tattoos? nu uh. I have this abnormal fear of needles.
Piercings? a hole in each ear. gonna make it two each after I move out.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? both? lol neither.
Floss daily? do I really have to answer that? I hope my dentist doesn't see this!
Own a webcam? nu uh.
Ever get off the computer? occasionally. there's this thing called school.
Sprechen sie deutsche? nein.
Habla espanol? si, un poco.

have you/do you/do you have/are you...

Considered a life of crime? not seriously. it's the kind of joking around that went on in jr. high/early highschool.
What would you be doing? you mean what should I be doing? sleeping.
What are you listening to? myself sniffling.
Can you do anything freakish with your body? uh...no.
Chicken or fish? depends. sometimes I like them, sometimes they gross me out.
Do you have a favourite animal, no matter how lame it may be? I dunno...I like pretty much all animals. they're so fun lol.
Current Clothes: um...a button-down shirt and a denim skirt.
Current Mood: sleepy and sniffley and slightly bored
Current Taste: in what?
Current Hair: well, right now it's just up. but it's still brown, it hasn't changed from the beginning of this survey.
Current Annoyance: runny noses. especially the allergy-itchyness that makes my eyes water.
Current Smell: I can't smell anything.
Current thing I ought to be doing: brushing my teeth, sleeping.
Current Desktop Picture: umm...whatever my brother put on here.
Current Favorite Group: favorite? I like them all.
Current Favorite Book: I just read the Count of Monte Cristo. it was really good.
Current DVD In Player: I have no idea. I was watching an Arnold mini-marathon or something on tv. I guess they're showing all his movies now that he's governor. I dunno. first was Running Man, then Total Recall, then Conan the Destroyer.
Current Worry: that my dad is gonna hear me typing and get mad at me. it's 2 am lol.
Current Favorite Celebrity: what makes you think I have one? actually, it's Brian from relient k at the moment. I heard about something funny that happened that would only make sense if you all already knew what had happened before, but it's a long story so I won't tell it lol.

ARE YOU...

Understanding: I try to be.
Open-minded: usually.
Arrogant: I hope not.
Insecure: yeah.
Interesting: I suppose.
Hungry: nope. for some reason I seem to have lost my appetite these past few days. not that I'm complaining!
Friendly: I try to be.
Smart: I dunno. depends on the definition of smart.
Moody: lol quite.
Childish: sometimes.
Independent: yeah.
Hard working: when I put my mind to it, yes.
Organized: hahaha. me, organized? that is such a joke.
Healthy: lol no. that's why I'm taking aerobics.
Emotionally Stable: I dunno, what is considered emotionally stable?
Shy: not online. but offline...quite.
Difficult: my parents probly think so.
Attractive: I'm very attractive to mosquitos, unfortunately. and to drunk men wanting to share their political views. and to certain women *shudders*. I attract all the wrong kinds of people.
Bored Easily: nope.
Thirsty: a little, actually.
Responsible: my best friend's dad always said I am.
Sad: not really.
Happy: not really.
Trusting: no. I don't trust easily.
Talkative: depends on who I'm talking to.
Original: so I've been told.
Different: lol yeah, I'd say so.
Unique: isn't that the same thing as original?
Lonely: nope.

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...

Kill: such violence! no one lol. surprisingly.
Slap: again, no one.
Look Like: I dunno. a better version of myself? otherwise I wouldn't be me.
Be Like: Jesus. it's pretty hard to achieve, though. or even come slightly close to.
Talk To Offline: I dunno. anyone. except not at 2:10 am.

On Dating...

Long or short hair? depends on the guy.
Dark or blond hair? either.
Tall or short? taller than me! when I was in jr. high I always thought I'd have to marry the jolly green giant lol.
6 pack or muscular arms? both?
Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? not supersensitive. that would drive me crazy. but perceptive. and funny. he'd have to be funny and have a sense of humor to put up with me.
Dark or light eyes? all colors are nice. but I usually fall for dark eyed guys.
Hat or no hat? hats remind me too much of my brother!
Pierced or no? lip piercings are nice on certain guys. but I couldn't bring him home with any jewellry in...my parents would kick him out and lock me up lol.
Freckles or none? doesn't matter.
Stubble or neatly shaved? ummm...depends on the guy.
Rugged outdoorsy type or sporty type? either. but he has to like reading, otherwise he'll get pretty bored hanging out with me.
Accent or American? ummm...accents are fun. but so are plain old american voices.

cookies for you if you actually got through all this!

ma salama.

[beanbag]

I'm going to attempt to keep this short today. (yeah right.) I pretty much sat around in my pjs all day feeling sorry for myself cuz I'm sick (AGAIN) and cuz I don't have school on fridays muaha. I mean...I wasn't feeling sorry for the lack of school...I sat around in my pjs cuz I didn't have to change.

I actually did get out of the house though...I went with my mom to my aunt's house and we hung out there for a few hours. we were only gonna stay "a few minutes" but my uncle was there and since we hardly ever see him anymore, we stayed.

okay wow, I'm super tired, so I will end this here.

outla saida!

[beanbag]

why is it I always seem to procrastinate when it comes to homework? I always make these resolutions to do my homework the day it's assigned...yeah right. so I just have a few mins before I go do my speech homework to write a little bit. I dunno if anyone reads this, but it's good practise for disciplining myself to write every day.

so I found something interesting...I hit the link in the names section to that page where you "analyze" your name...it's always interesting to see what will come up. I don't believe in that kind of stuff, really, but it's funny to see where they're right on about me and where they're absolutely wrong. here's my analysis...

Brief Analysis

The name of Sabrina creates a friendly, sociable, charming nature, but causes you to be too easily influenced by others. While you find it easy to meet and mix, and can appear agreeable and compromising in conversation, you can become dogmatic and forceful if pressed too far. Others learn that you cannot be told what to do and you seldom change your mind once it is made up. You prefer situations that allow a degree of independence, but are reluctant to take on a demanding work-load or responsibility. In a position dealing with the public, you could do well because of your friendly personality, interest in people, and desire to please. When asked, you are able to give others good advice that you would probably not follow yourself, but must guard against being too opinionated in controversial matters.

the stuff I bolded is stuff that actually is true about me...I'm not so sure about the other stuff, because I don't know how I'm perceived by others. except the negative perceptions of me, of course, because I always hear about those ones.

another interesting thing is the "health" analysis...they analyzed my health through my name haha. but interestingly enough, I do get headaches quite often.

anyways...

the time has come, the walrus said, to talk of many things...of ships, and shoes, and sealing wax, and cabbages and kings...and why the sea is boiling hot and whether pigs have wings...and why on earth Sabrina has to do homework on a saturday night (of all things!).

later!

[beanbag]

um yeah. so I ended up not doing my speech homework after all. but I did all my arabic homework! okay so I can't fool myself...I need need need to do my speech homework.

oh, and I need need need to wash my pe clothes too cuz tomorrow's monday. woopdedoo. I just have to scrape up the courage to walk downstairs with my laundry while there are people over who could potentially jump on me and order me to bring my arabic book down so they can help me...

okay I'm gone.