[joylovesskillet]

Originally Posted by marvinranch

Saturday, June 26, 2004 I came back from a week at Awana Camp (with Bobthecockroach, InsaneDrummer, and Joylovesskillet)
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Woohoo! I was mentioned in a blog I've never been to! That makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

[marvinranch]

Originally Posted by joylovesskillet

Woohoo! I was mentioned in a blog I've never been to! That makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

you've never posted in my blog? I couldda swore you had...

[joylovesskillet]

Tis possible, but if I don't remember it doesn't count.

[marvinranch]

as in this blog - http://www.christianguitar.org/forum...17#post1396917 - they're getting married after 3 months. I was just noticing how what would've been 3 months for Matt and I was approaching (the 16th). I'm sure I did the right thing, but sometimes I don't feel that way.

[marvinranch]

I'm moving out to go to college in just over 3 weeks!!! Let's see, it's um 23 days from today. In some ways, I can't believe it. In some ways, I can't wait. In some ways, I'm scared. Mostly though, I can't wait, but also I want to stay here with my friends. I want to eat my cake and have it too. Oh well, I guess I'll just hafta adjust.

I went with Matt to see Bourne Supremacy today. Went early and got the early bird special. It was good, I'd recomend it. And I haven't even seen the first one. The fire alarm went off at the end though coz some stupid uh @****** somewhere started smoking in the movie :-P so we all had to go outside. They said it was the first time the alarm had 'really' gone off.
Matt and I are still like best friends, we do a lot of the same stuff we used to, but it's different from going out coz there is no 'expectations' . . . you know what I mean?

[marvinranch]

I took Matt to T-Top(youth church) tonight, Amber too. They had a rather infamous business meeting in church, so we went to Sonic instead, then hung out in the parking lot. It lasted from 6:30 till almost 8:30 instead of 7:00o-7:30. Then we went to pool tour. Amber is sick, so she didn't swim. Matt and I swam, the water felt good. I dunked him a couple of times, shoved him in once and almost jumped on him once. Unlike JD, and Like Daniel, he didn't do anything back to me.

I felt a little flirty, I wanted to be close to him, like we used to be. I like him, maybe too much. Oh life....

[marvinranch]

Went to the lake today. Amber is at cheerleading camp, so I invited Matt to come with us. It was fun!
I'm not sure what he thinks of me . . .
there was a horsefly buzzing around us, and he kept waving his arms to make it go away, I told him to hold still, waited for it to land (on his head), whacked it and killed it. he said "I was expecting that" but then he saw the dead fly in the water and said "wow, you actually killed it, I thought you might've just hit me for the heck of it"
. . . I am sometimes brutal and viscous, but not usually THAT mean, and when I do randomly hit my friends - I don't warn them! LOL it was just so funny

[marvinranch]

after that, we went and saw "The Village" movie. Twas a lot like the Frank Peretti book "The Oath" which I had to read twice before I understood it, and read a third time for good measure. I think having that background really helped me understand the movie. I had to explain it to Matt a little bit.

ahhh, Matt.
oh, I still like him. More now that I did. I miss his touch, and him expressing love. Now I actually know that I like him, and want to love him, but I can't. Special touch is forbidden between 'just friends' Oh we both still like each other, we can't be together because of what I did. Surely I wasn't mistaken, the reasons are still there, but it seems like I want him more than I ever did before. I feel like I broke up with him only to fall in love with him.

Such is life . . .

[Shakespeare]

Hey April!

I havn't posted in here forever so I decided to drop in.

What's new?
Have you seen all the other M.Night whatever's movies? Unbreakable, Sixth sense, ect.?
Did you like them?
Are you ready for College?
What are you majoring in? I forgot
Anyways, have a nice day!

[marvinranch]

Originally Posted by Shakespeare

What's new?

I bought a .22 today

Have you seen all the other M.Night whatever's movies? Unbreakable, Sixth sense, ect.?

Nope, i should though...

Did you like them?

N/a

Are you ready for College?

I hope so, I pretty much HAVE to be...

What are you majoring in? I forgot

Business, Management

[marvinranch]

Friday, August 6, 2004
After work Matt and I went catfishing. Didn't catch a thing. Meh. I'm really starting to think that there's not any fish left in Michael's pond. Oh well, it's nice to sit outside under the stars anyway.
Matt and I have been talking about going Trout fishing at Blanchard Springs. It's a LONG drive for a day trip, so I was seriously not thinking about actually going just for a day trip. Since Alicia has to go to camp on Monday, my family can't go with us and I don't know anyone else who can either, so staying overnight is pretty much out of the picture. But I could tell He really wanted to go. He says he's never gone trout fishing and he wants to. I can tell when he really wants something. We're going on Monday.

Saturday, August 7, 2004
I worked 2-10, and Matt came to lunch with me. I left my wallet at home, so I drove home on the interstate. Once you're on the interstate you hafta be doing something PRETTY bad to get pulled over, whereas they have "roadblocks" on hwy 5 on random Friday and Saturday nights.

Sunday, August 8, 2004
Mom wasn't cooking thisafternoon because her Sunday School class was having a potluck. I went to church with Matt then came home and ate at his house. We watched Hellboy and then went to his land to shoot my new.22. He shoots his with a scope, and he still isn't hardly better than me and my open sights. His .22 is heavier than mine, I really like mine. We didn't see any living creatures save the butterflies and baby fish. That's really rare on this land. On the way home we stopped at the snack bar place and got frency fries, cheese sticks and chocolate malts. It was good especially the chocolate malt. THEN we stopped by his uncle's house. We jumped on their trampoline some and just chilled. They asked us if we wanted to eat and we said no, but as we were about to leave they handed us a plate of ribs anyway. Good ribs, but I wasn't really that hungry. I haven't been all day, probably PMS-related. At Matt's house, his mom was ordering senior pictures. I got home, and mom was a little fussy about how "lunch" lasted till 22:00, but not mad.

Monday, August 9, 2004
Alicia went to her first camp! I left right before they did for Matt's house. He had to go to his school to get his schedule and order the senior pictures. Then we went to WalMart to buy hooks, bolognia, Trout stamps and gasoline. Then, we were on our way! It's a long drive. I'm not "extremely" familiar with I-40, we got off at an exit too early. Need to fix those directions a little bit. But that's ok, we got right back on and got where we needed to be. Obviously I drove . . . I know the way. Other than that little jog, my directions were flawless. After we pass Wolly Holly S.P. I'm running purely on my Blanchard Springs memory. I have the way to WHSP memorized becuase we've been going there for forever. It's at least an hour to there, and it takes almost 3 to get to Blanchard Springs. We stopped at the WalMart (SuperCenter) in Clinton, AR to walk around and make a pit stop. They have 11 registers - must be a big store (we have 27 at my store, and 32 at Benton). and hey, they have an actual "redline" in front of them. I promised Matt I'd show him a store with one, guess I did. I say that becuase the WalMart (non-supercenter) in Mountain View (where we are going) has only 6 registers! SIX! Oh well. We got there. It was pretty hot, so we went swimming first. Matt was SO worried about the water being cold. Jejeje! I'm the one that can't stand cold water, and I got wetter than he did coz I'm so short. He didn't even get his head wet. My hair got wet because it's long, but I didn't go all the way under. THEN, we went Trout fishing. I caught the first fish, a small one that we threw back. He caught the first keeper. It was a nice dark colored one, but he killed it trying to get the hook out of it. Well, we were keeping it to eat anyway. But since it was dead, the minnows ate it's skin off. Even when we had 2 other live fish on the stringer with it. *shrugs* Matt didn't catch anymore for a while. I think he has the really short rod problem that Alicia had. I caught the limit by the end of the day. He was running over to help me with my fish once, and I hear this SPLASH behind me! He dropped his foot off the edge and fell halfway in! I laughed SO much, I couldn't quit! He caught another one on artificial bait, but it got away at bank, before I even touched it. So at least he did catch 2 keeper fish. I'm glad he didn't blame me for losing it. He was disappointed but I could tell he didn't blame me. I can usually read him like a book, it's awesome. I caught one more, smaller one "for" him, so we did come home with 5 fish that would've been 6 if we'd been able to keep that one that got away. You've got to have the "one that got away" story anyway I figured an experienced fisherman like him would have a clue when it came to gutting fish . . . guess I shouldn't've assumed anything. Considering that I've only done it once before. Jejeje I guess we did good enough anyway, though it was a little slopppy.
The trip home was mostly uneventful. Except when I had to slam on the brakes at a stoplight. It turned yellow but I realized I was in the wrong lane so I couldn't just floor it. We had to turn left at the NEXT light (about half a block down ) On 430, Matt slept some, I could tell he was getting tired because he was talking less. He slept till Amber called when we were in Otter Creek. I had my hand on the phone to call home anyway. Took him home, unloaded his stuff, watched his dad finish cleaning up the fish and then I went home and went to bed.

[marvinranch]

Home for Christmas.
I finished the semester with a 3.6 gpa, 3 A's and 2 B's -

Home, isn't home exactly. I don't have a room anymore. I figured I'd adjust, and I don't mind sleeping in Amber's room. She minds me sleeping there, since she doesn't go to bed till very late, and I go to bed at a "reasonable hour" (such as 22:00). She also doesnt' like my "junk" (clothes, books, etc) in her room. I don't have anywhere to put it, so I put it in my truck. I've been living out of my truck. I don't have a home, or it's at school and I'm away from home. I can't live at Matt's either, coz mom doesn't like it.
I stayed at mom's house for a week or so, then went hunting so I stayed at Matt's house for a few days. I also managed to fix my computer!!!!! yay! He was sick one day, but so far I haven't gotten my usual week-before-Christmas-sickness. My nose is bleeding often from the cold weather.
Not only was it in the 20's a lot recently, Wednesday it snowed several inches, and it hasn't gotten even TO freezing untill today. It was about 12º the other morning when I got up, and 18º this morning. I can't stand the cold.
I was at work at WalMart when it started snowing, dad came and got me with tire chains on his van. My truck got left in the WalMart parking lot. My "home" or what I have of it, I'm not there anymore! *Sigh* Not only that, I'm stuck at mom's house, with no where to go, no one to see, nothing to do. I'm used to having papers to write, or at least work to do, I don't even have a TV at school. I'm not used to sitting around staring at a TV or computer screen all the time!!!!! Dad's going stir crazy too.
gimme a root beer with a shot of rum. Wait, the root beer is in the back of my truck - frozen I'm sure. And, I'm out of rum flavoring, and WalMart is closed even if I walked there...
oh well, it's Christmas! I'm actually feeling better thismorning than I was last night. This has definately been the weirdest Christmas of my life, possibly the worst. I'm just not used to these changes, and the snow didn't help matters any. I don't know how to adjust, I just want it to be over so I can go home. I still want to be with Matt, and he's not at my home(school), but he's not here either. meh. Life.

[marvinranch]

Wow it's been a long time.

Well, I got a new computer, or another computer. it's very old in most people's opinion. It is featured on my website (link in sig) if ya wanna know about it. In fact, I keep my blog on my site more updated . . .
Matt broke up with me, that's the biggest news I guess. Yeah.
School is tough this semester . . .
I secretly aspire to be a trucker because I like to drive so much and I love livin on the raod. I have too much stuff sittin around, I'd hafta sell it. And even though I love the solitary life, I do get lonely sometimes, if I was always solitary driving a truck I would probably never find a hubby . . .
OH well, I'd get out of school first, and you hafta be 21 to be an OTR driver anyway

[marvinranch]

I'm bored.

Actually, last night when I was getting off the internet, this guy named Whitt emailed me up and said that he thought I was cool. Now, this is the same guy that all the girls were drooling over last semester, and I didn't care, so now he's talking to me! You could've knocked me over with a feather! And I sure didn't know what to say!

[marvinranch]

on Sunday I got my clit hood pierced. If you dunno what that is, google it.
Here's how it went:
I went with Jami, and her friend BJ came a long (he waited in the 'lobby' for the actual piercing)
It did hurt, but not terribly.
We got there, and Bones does genital piercings last, at close so that the store is empty. So we waited for him to finish up a couple of other people. I drank a Pepsi for a little sugar and tried not to be nervous. I wasn't too concerned about the pain, but I was nervous! I figure that I'm gonna do more damage if I slip up with a razor though, so a needle is relatively harmless compared.
I did all the paperwork while I was waiting, then he took my money - all $109! and then we got started. He had already set everything up. He put on new gloves, and there was "hospital paper" on everything I would touch, he got jewelry out of the little pouch, cleaned me off a little bit, got a new needle out of it's package and then pretty much got to it. He pierced from the bottom UP, most experiences that I have read about they were pierced from the top down with a "receiving tube" underneath to keep from poking everything else. I think it's good this way, I liked it better myself. It did hurt, but not a whole lot. I do have a pretty high pain tolerance though. I did flinch, but it wasn't like I was gonna jump up or kick him or anything. Jaime was there (she knew Bones, that's howcome I went to him) with me but I didn't hold her hand or anything. It hurt when he pierced, and it pinched a little when he put the jewelry through, then it just stung. It stung for a little while afterwards. We went out to eat and by the time we got done eating it didn't bother me anymore. I went to the bathroom after that and it had bled a little bit, but just a few drops. So far, so good. If you want to do it, and you're worried about the pain I would encourage you that it's not that terrible!

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