A day in the life of Mylene and Jase

Praisey · 11-23-2002, 01:06 AM

it's 3:02pm here Saturday... i'm bored out of my mind staring at the comp and going through the forums here... i'm waiting for my honey cutie to get online...

i've read some very interesting forums here... particularly in Christian Advice... and i think this site is a great way to vent and just ask whatever whenever.

i've been a christian for 13 years... got saved when i was 15

so that gives you guys a clue as to how OLD i am hehehe

anyways, age is just in the mind

i've been involved with the youth ever since i got saved and now am in the Music Ministry for the last 4 years and by the grace of God has been a worship leader ever since.

i think it's really great that this site has a journal.... coz i do keep a journal... of thoughts and daily devotions.

so please feel free to comment.

in His grip,
Twix

GMartin2R · 11-24-2002, 03:00 AM

yeah cgr is a fun place to hang out...

i see you're new so let me be the first one to welcome you to CGR officially in your blog

*ahem clears throat*

Welcome to CGR

:klol:

:kgrin:

Praisey · 11-25-2002, 12:11 AM

How do i start this journal... hmmm... well... i've been a member of this church (home church) since i was 16 years old.. have been a leader in the youth ministry ever since... but have backslidden when i was 19 (college grrrr)... and at the age of 21 or 22 rededicated my life to the Lord... that's the time I decided to live my life for Jesus... to offer my life as a living sacrifice to Him... make Him be Lord of my life and not just the Savior... anyways...

Last 2 Sundays ago i think... i have been nominated as one of my church's deaconesses... it's election time this year... and 2 years ago i was nominated too in the same position... but i declined and they accepted.

This Sunday, I was the last one (purposely i think) to be interviewed by the Nominating Committee... they asked me point blank what i have decided... and i told them i'm declining... and they said again!!!!!

and these are my reasons:
1. I've worked non-stop for the last 4 years... everybody has taken a leave of absence except me (i'm a churchworker)
2. I want to concentrate on the Music Ministry and not add another burden if i'm going to be elected as a deaconess.
3. To be really honest, I want to rest for a while... to lay low for a bit... i've been in the "limelight" and "frontline" for a long time... I think every church worker needs to rest... they did... Elijah did.. Jesus did

what they said was.. even if i declined... they cannot guarantee me that i won't be presented as one of the nominees... meaning... it's the Nominating Committee's final decision... geesh...

I want to do what God wants me to do... and i've told the Lord i don't want to... but it's up to Him... i hope God allows me to lay low for a while... sigh

in His grip,
Twix

Praisey · 11-28-2002, 12:35 AM

have you ever had one of those days where you just can't help but cry? that every soft sounding mellow songs (especially Christian songs) make you cry buckets? well that's what's happening to me right now... i don't know...

last night i went to church (mid-week service) and oh man... when the worship leader read from Psalm 42 i knew i was going to cry... and so i did... and we sang good old fave praise and worship songs... As The Deer ... sigh...

it's true... that song... especially in my life... as the deer longs for water... so my soul longs for my Lord... everyday I long... i think we all do.. for those of us who really love the Lord... He alone is my heart's desire... my strength and my shield... my ever present help in trouble... my strong fortress... in the shadow of His wings i sing for joy... even though i'm crying

Lord, i love You... and i wanna love You more... with all that's in me... with all that my heart can contain... make me fall in love with You even more... more of You in my life.

\o/

GMartin2R · 11-28-2002, 02:32 AM

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Originally posted by Praisey
have you ever had one of those days where you just can't help but cry? that every soft sounding mellow songs (especially Christian songs) make you cry buckets? well that's what's happening to me right now... i don't know...

last night i went to church (mid-week service) and oh man... when the worship leader read from Psalm 42 i knew i was going to cry... and so i did... and we sang good old fave praise and worship songs... As The Deer ... sigh...

it's true... that song... especially in my life... as the deer longs for water... so my soul longs for my Lord... everyday I long... i think we all do.. for those of us who really love the Lord... He alone is my heart's desire... my strength and my shield... my ever present help in trouble... my strong fortress... in the shadow of His wings i sing for joy... even though i'm crying

Lord, i love You... and i wanna love You more... with all that's in me... with all that my heart can contain... make me fall in love with You even more... more of You in my life.

\o/

and all God's people said Amen...

how true.

Praisey · 11-28-2002, 04:01 AM

GMartin, thanks for taking time out to read my ramblings on this journal

God bless you!!

Praisey · 11-29-2002, 12:04 AM

ok... i'll post some pics of me and churchmates and friends... hmmm let's see if i know how to attach pics here...

ok... this pic is from 2001's Summer Bible Camp (mainly for the youth) but of course there are some oldies there hehehe... like our pastor and elders of the church

... so here it is..

Praisey · 11-29-2002, 12:07 AM

i'm the little one right smack in the middle... yep with the man who was trying to make a funny face (with his hands on his face)

Praisey · 11-29-2002, 12:09 AM

ok... this one is from my bestfriend's wedding... nope not the movie... hehehe... but the real thing... and nope... i didn't try to hit on the groom... LOL

i'm the third one from the left... sitting down...

Praisey · 12-05-2002, 01:19 AM

ok... just here to rant...

first..
a friend of mine from church... just one Sunday decided to ignore me... i said hi to her and she didn't even say hi... so i figured... she's in one of her moods again

... she's always like that... she has such mood swings i get dizzy with it... well... whenever that happens... i was always the one initiating to talk to her and asking her what's wrong... but this time... i don't know... maybe i got sick of it... maybe i grew tired of it... btw, she's younger... she's 21... and decided that hey if she's in one of her moods again... let her be the one to initiate the talk this time... coz as far as i know.. i didn't do anything to hurt her or offend her... the last time we talked... prior to her ignoring me.. we were great...

so it has been 4 Sundays after... and right now i'm busting my brains out trying to think if i did something wrong or not... she's acting like i don't exist... and if she does look me in the eye and mutter some word sounding like hi... it's pretty awkward...

right now i don't know if i should ONCE AGAIN be the first one to talk to her... i don't know if i'm being prideful, obstinate or stubborn... but i am getting sick and tired of it... and at the same time.. i wanna know what's bothering her... if it's about me and i did something wrong... i'll be the first one to apologize... and she knows that.. she knows i'm so easy to talk to... sigh

anyways... if any of you guys are actually reading my journal... please feel free to comment...

in His grip (hanging on for dear life),
Twix

GMartin2R · 12-05-2002, 01:39 AM

definitly a weird spot to be in huh...

i don't know, as odd as it may sound, if this is bugging you this much maybe you should start thigns up again. i mean i don't know what's going on but maybe she's too timid to approach you or somethig like that. how does she usually act when you initiate things?

Praisey · 12-05-2002, 11:59 PM

she acts snobbish when i initiate things... she doesn't look me in the eye and obviously wants to be anywhere else but there... that's how she acts... sheesh... i really don't know... maybe i should just let her be... i know i haven't done anything wrong... so sure of it... i don't deserve this treatment... and she's always like this...

GMartin2R · 12-06-2002, 12:30 AM

hm well yeah maybe you shoidl just leave it for a while.

hmm can't really think of anything right now...

other than a side note.
my aunt is from the phillipines. noticed your location just now and foudn that intersting

Praisey · 12-06-2002, 12:36 AM

yeah... i decided to let it be for a while...

hey that's cool! say hi to your aunt for me! where's she from here? I'm in Manila... one of the big cities here

well, God bless! thanks for looking in here

GMartin2R · 12-06-2002, 12:50 AM

you know i ahve no clue...

i probably should know but they life on the other side of the state from us. i would guess manila just cause it's a big city but i could be wrong. but my uncle is a pilot for northwest airlines i think. so i don't know, maybe? lol...