A day in the life of Mylene and Jase

Praisey · 01-25-2003, 09:47 AM

gosh... it's 11:37pm here... and i find myself on the internet and checking CGR... actually just to type away here in my blog

i keep realizing i'm a softheart... earlier before i logged off on the net... i emailed jase (my boyfriend) trying to tell him what i felt and thought when we were 'arguing'... he doesn't like to call it that... he says it's 'discussing'

but i said some things that he might misinterpret... like... me breaking up with him... and NOPE!!!! i can't have that... lol... so... i went online again... yep... late at night here... went to HIS email... and deleted MY email from HIS inbox

sometimes... i hate being a girl... and i am such a girl!

i wish i can turn on and off my emotions like men are capable of doing (according to Galatia-Chris) hehe and i agree with him.

man, i am so blessed with the 2 ppl who actually talks to me here in CGR... (just two!!!

)

so if you are reading this Gman and Galatia... thank you guys for making me feel a lot better and for just "listening"

tomorrow i'm gonna lead worship... and oh man the songs are hard... Lord... please make my voice beautiful and help me to remember the tune of that last song "In Your Presence"

i love You Lord... You are my hiding place... the One i come to with my aches and pains... with my joys and accomplishments... sigh Lord... how i long to be with You... when will You come back...

in the meantime Lord... as I wait on You... i will keep on singing... for You and You alone... i love YOU!!!!!!! mwah :*

Ryan Akers · 01-25-2003, 10:33 AM

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Originally posted by Praisey
i keep realizing i'm a softheart... earlier before i logged off on the net... i emailed jase (my boyfriend) trying to tell him what i felt and thought when we were 'arguing'... he doesn't like to call it that... he says it's 'discussing' but i said some things that he might misinterpret... like... me breaking up with him... and NOPE!!!! i can't have that... lol... so... i went online again... yep... late at night here... went to HIS email... and deleted MY email from HIS inbox

lol - gotta love knowing your "significant other's" email password. I've done that before. Afraid that some of the things that I said are borderline between good and bad. I've never argued with my girlfriend. There have been moments when things have gotten rocky, but it's never her fault - seriously. But, me and her have promised that we would always be willing to work everything out, and if possible, never go to bed being mad at each other. And we're just boyfriend/girlfriend. But isn't it great just having someone every now and then?

Praisey · 01-26-2003, 12:12 AM

yep... it is great to have someone with you... especially when you're both in the same level in terms of spirituality... it's just awful that sometimes sheesh lol... your individual differences get in the way...

anyways, God bless

Ryan Akers · 01-26-2003, 09:54 PM

Yeah, well be careful about the whole knowing his password thing! That backfired on me yesterday - long story, bad story, sad, but it's ok.

Praisey · 01-26-2003, 11:53 PM

why?? what happened??

i don't think that's gonna happen... coz i don't check his email and he was the one who gave his password to me... it's a trust thing i think

Ryan Akers · 01-27-2003, 12:15 AM

Well, long story - so bear w/ me and I'll try to make it short. I got in there, just to read some emails that I sent her a long time ago, because I do that when I get bored. Well, there was an email from a guy from her school that I knew liked her and I checked it because it'd already been read, and I'd heard her just say stuff about him and so I was suspicious...titled "Hey sweety" (Illiterate moron

) So I read it and it says "I wish that the walk to the door could have lasted longer last night....blah blah blah......What are you goin to do about Ryan....more blah blah...." So I called her and questioned her about it, and she said no, nothin happened, he took her home, walked her to the door and she said that she had a b/f. Well, I came back downstairs after getting off the phone, was getting back in her email just to read the stuff I never read, and I couldn't get in. The password had been changed. I called back and said "Did you change your password?" Well, she had because she said I had invaded her privacy. Well, of course I did and I felt bad. I don't feel so bad now because I know that something happened. Stupid illiterate moron kissed my g/f on the lips, just a small peck, but she didn't wanna tell me because she thought it would hurt me. She felt terrible because she feels as though she cheated on me, but she didn't kiss the guy back or anything. He pecked her. Still, the kid deserves a nice little call from me or something... So she lied to me, but she told me late last night. She wasn't mad I got in her email, and while she still thinks I was kind of wrong for it, she says she's not mad, I wasn't completely wrong, and I had a right to be suspicious. She was crying on the phone last night because lately she's just messed up a bit. Although she didn't do anything wrong w/ this guy, she still could have kept the situation from happening. Anyways, so we talked, I lectured as bad as that is, but she's my girl, not some illiterate little punks girl. She emailed the guy and just said, "I don't like you and I love my boyfriend" He was sad...I still wanna meet the kid

So, long story, but we've worked through it. I wasn't trying to be nosey, but I was, and it backfired on me at first, but then on my gf. Sorry to bore you

I know her password again though...

Praisey · 01-27-2003, 12:31 AM

sheesh!!! that guy is a jerk!!!

yeah... when two ppl are really in love and works on the relationship equally stuff always works out in the end... so once again.. God's word is true... love never fails... uh oh... i'm getting mushy again... i better stop

Praisey · 01-29-2003, 12:19 AM

it was a really good day yesterday... i spent the morning with the Lord... my usual quiet time... and the passage i meditated on is Hebrews 12:15 "See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many"

and that struck me... coz i didn't know before that bitterness may cause one to miss the grace of God... and so i opened my heart to the Lord and asked Him to reveal to me if there's any hint of bitterness or anger in my heart...

i closed my eyes and words started pouring in... i found myself confessing a lot of things i have hidden in my heart... maybe even to myself... a lot of pent up anger and it resulted in a lot of bitterness... way deep down in my heart... and God just let it surfaced so I can take it to Him and take it away... and i asked Him to replace it with love and joy and peace...

and then!! just after lunch time... my bestfriend came to visit me with her baby!!! he's such a cutie!!! maybe tomorrow i'll post some pics of him in here... his name is Zion Ben... yep... after that character in the Left Behind series hehe...

it was a really really great day... even though i missed my honey cutie... i didn't get to talk to him yesterday... but all in all... it was a really great, full of blessing day from the Lord

Praisey · 02-01-2003, 01:46 AM

ok... me is back... and hmmmm... what should i type away here...

lately i've been having awesome, marvelous times with the Lord in the mornings... hehe yep... my quiet time is in the morning... but not early morning... ok... enough of that

it's amazing how the Lord continues to reaffirm and confirm His words to me... and once more... whenever He does that... i cry buckets... well not literal buckets... that wouldn't fit in my eyes.. hehe oh geesh.. you know what i mean :kspin: @me

i am just soooo humbled and in awe of how great God's love is for me... ME!!! makes me want to sing that song "How Great the Father's Love for Us"... but i know i wouldn't be able to finish that song without crying... phew i am such a cry baby... one of these days i will sing that... **looking determined**

and lately... i find myself browsing through the many blogs in here... and it's such a blessing how the Lord blesses each one of us in different ways huh

i love love love love testimonies hehehe

anyways... i'll type later

Praisey · 02-05-2003, 01:50 AM

gosh... a lot has been happening... i haven't been able to post in here...

there's something that me and the rest of leaders in youth had to deal with lately... and last night was a big thing... a big talk... there were some delicate issues that was brought out in the open and i don't know what to do with it... how to handle it God's way...

well, here it is... just in case someone comes in here and read my blog..

one of the leaders (a girl) almost went overboard (physically) with her boyfriend... the boyfriend wanted to have intercourse... but she didn't give in... and she decided to break up with him.. which i think is best... and now... she feels like she should confess publicly... and i don't know how to handle this... since i'm one of the advisers... i know all about accountability and stuff... i advised her to stop all communication with him... and to let the guy go to a different church in the meantime... i don't know about the public confession.. she has already confessed to us... and she repented... seems to be strong in her resolve not to reconcile with him...

so what do you guys think?? i appreciate all feedback

GMartin2R · 02-06-2003, 01:39 AM

hmm well, i'm not sure if this is the best advice out there but if something comes up, she should address it honestly but i dont know if she would necessarily have to volunteer any information. but it might not be a bad idea to alert the other leaders so that they aren't caught off guard and can stop any rumors that may get started because they know what really happened. my point being i'm not suer that everyone needs to know. i dont know, just some speculations from my mind...

Praisey · 02-08-2003, 01:31 AM

ok... there are no distractions on the net right at this moment... so yeah i'm going to update this blog... hehe

yesterday, i had a great convo with my honey cutie... i really am thankful to the Lord for blessing my relationship with him... i am grateful that we get along so great together and that we love each other and that we minister to one another and we build each other up even more in the faith... never in my whole life have i had this awesome relationship

and after talking to him i went to my joyce's place, to visit her... after waiting for her to take a bath

we went to this chinese place and ordered pancit (a stir fried noodle thing) and oh boy it was a huuuuuuge serving!! but!! hehe i finished it all... oh my :keek: it's good to know i have good metabolism hehehe and not gonna turn into a blimp :klol:

and then i went home and rode a PUJ (public utility jeepney)... oh btw, that's the common ride for common ppl that don't have cars

and there's this creepy, drunk man beside me who was trying to get near me!!! :kmad: and i keep scooting away from him and he keeps scooting towards me!! grrrrrr!!!! :kmad: i thought to myself... one false move and he's dead :kshifty: but thank God somebody moved from across me and i quickly moved to that place and aaaaway from the creepy looking guy!... sheesh...

then i got home, watched a bit of cable and then went upstairs to my room, prayed and went to bed (had a great sleep

)

woke up, had coffee, had political convo (early in the morning

) with my niece and brother... about the US and Iraq sitch... then went upstairs again and had my quiet time with God... had to get away from my dad a bit that's why... he and i dont' get along so well...

anyways, i won't talk about that in here... the irony of my life...

i'm the youngest and the only girl in the family... oh not the only girl coz the eldest daughter died when my mom was giving birth to me and she's my dad's favorite

so when i was born and she died... i guess he thought it was my fault :kconf:

maybe i'll talk about that later... hehe... don't want to ruin my mood

GMartin2R · 02-08-2003, 01:44 AM

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Originally posted by Praisey
ok... there are no distractions on the net right at this moment... so yeah i'm going to update this blog... hehe

oh now that's always good...

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yesterday, i had a great convo with my honey cutie... i really am thankful to the Lord for blessing my relationship with him... i am grateful that we get along so great together and that we love each other and that we minister to one another and we build each other up even more in the faith... never in my whole life have i had this awesome relationship

and after talking to him i went to my joyce's place, to visit her... after waiting for her to take a bath

we went to this chinese place and ordered pancit (a stir fried noodle thing) and oh boy it was a huuuuuuge serving!! but!! hehe i finished it all... oh my :keek: it's good to know i have good metabolism hehehe and not gonna turn into a blimp :klol:

haha yeah gotta love good metabolisms lol... we have this korean restaurant here semi locally that i've eaten at twice and boy they aren't sparing on the servings... sheesh, very good stuff though. actually the first time i was there i finally got to try kimshi for the first time... good stuff, just not totally by itself... lol

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and then i went home and rode a PUJ (public utility jeepney)... oh btw, that's the common ride for common ppl that don't have cars

and there's this creepy, drunk man beside me who was trying to get near me!!! :kmad: and i keep scooting away from him and he keeps scooting towards me!! grrrrrr!!!! :kmad: i thought to myself... one false move and he's dead :kshifty: but thank God somebody moved from across me and i quickly moved to that place and aaaaway from the creepy looking guy!... sheesh...

then i got home, watched a bit of cable and then went upstairs to my room, prayed and went to bed (had a great sleep

)

woke up, had coffee, had political convo (early in the morning

) with my niece and brother... about the US and Iraq sitch... then went upstairs again and had my quiet time with God... had to get away from my dad a bit that's why... he and i dont' get along so well...

anyways, i won't talk about that in here... the irony of my life...

i'm the youngest and the only girl in the family... oh not the only girl coz the eldest daughter died when my mom was giving birth to me and she's my dad's favorite

so when i was born and she died... i guess he thought it was my fault :kconf:

maybe i'll talk about that later... hehe... don't want to ruin my mood

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hmm sounds like an interesting ride :Kroll:

i guess that's one good thing about having to drive so far for everything, i dont have to think about using public trans cause i'm always going to have a car somewhere anyway... lol...
lol but sleep is very good... got close to 2 hours this evening when i got home from playing ball... definitely needed...

Praisey · 02-08-2003, 01:50 AM

yep... it happens all the time... so a girl has to be careful when commuting

i don't have a car .. because... i don't drive hehe and i dont have the money for it

oh and be careful about playing ball... don't trip over yourself hehehe (just like i did in one of the relay games at church fair)

GMartin2R · 02-08-2003, 02:13 AM

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Originally posted by Praisey
yep... it happens all the time... so a girl has to be careful when commuting

i don't have a car .. because... i don't drive hehe and i dont have the money for it

oh and be careful about playing ball... don't trip over yourself hehehe (just like i did in one of the relay games at church fair)

well one advantage of being a guy... :ktongue:

j\k

anyhow yeah driving is kind of a must for me cause of how far i am from spokane. even averaging what i think is somewhere close to 100km\h (60mph or so) it still takes me an hour lol...

oh not good... you're not suppose to trip over yourself. someone else is suppose to plow into you... lol... i've had that happen but havent hit the floor cause of it yet. that's one problem wiht setting a screen when you're under 120 lbs. anyone can knock me over when i set a screen, lol...
so what was the relay game you tripped over yourself in?