[Ring of a bell]

Originally Posted by maux

Cool. The last few years that I was homeschooled, I taught myself too. And it looks like I'll be leading the homeschooled life again next semester... Great fun. Good times.

Indeed. Homskewl pwns1!@!!

[Ring of a bell]

Originally Posted by maux

Haha. Go you.

And visit my journal more often.

Indeed.


Here's one of the poems I wrote. I am pleased with it. But I dunno.

This selfish man

By Nathan


“Look at me!

See what I have done!”

You say to yourself, with glee,

As though you are the only one,

To follow through competently.

Sets of eyes look through loaded guns,

As trigger happy as could be.

Waiting, waiting, to pull you from,

Your own selfish reality.

>>

You saunter proudly through the streets,

With chest puffed out, and chin raised high.

You tell everyone you meet,

“My! I am one magnificent guy!”

You win, even if you must cheat.

You are better, amidst a lie.

All men do this fantastic feat.

“Set me above the other guy.”

Me, is the way everyone greets.

[maux]

Originally Posted by Ring of a bell

Indeed.

Here's one of the poems I wrote. I am pleased with it. But I dunno.

This selfish man
By Nathan

“Look at me!
See what I have done!”
You say to yourself, with glee,
As though you are the only one,
To follow through competently.
Sets of eyes look through loaded guns,
As trigger happy as could be.
Waiting, waiting, to pull you from,
Your own selfish reality.

You saunter proudly through the streets,
With chest puffed out, and chin raised high.
You tell everyone you meet,
“My! I am one magnificent guy!”
You win, even if you must cheat.
You are better, amidst a lie.
All men do this fantastic feat.
“Set me above the other guy.”
Me, is the way everyone greets.

I like it. Nice work.

[Carly.]

Did you know that I have *met* Nathan?? Uh huh... It's true.

[maux]

Originally Posted by avoiding

Did you know that I have *met* Nathan?? Uh huh... It's true.

Whoa. Yeah. Somehow I knew that... But I had completely forgotten until you just brought it up. That's super cool.

We still need to hang out someday, punk.

Heh. No pun intended...

[Carly.]

HAH! That was good. The thing about it is, is that was one of my nicknames amongt my friends. Hence the reason I chose it when I registered with CGR for the first time.

And yeah. We totally will. And we can be like... cool. And stuff. Ah! You can totally redress me as someone emo!! That would be SO FUN!

[maux]

Originally Posted by avoiding

HAH! That was good. The thing about it is, is that was one of my nicknames amongt my friends. Hence the reason I chose it when I registered with CGR for the first time.

I call a lot of people that. Usually when "kiddo" doesn't fit so well. I had been -avoiding- it, because it used to be your old CGR name, and it sounded kind of punny. Hehe.

And yeah. We totally will. And we can be like... cool. And stuff. Ah! You can totally redress me as someone emo!! That would be SO FUN!

That would be so much fun.

[Ring of a bell]

Originally Posted by avoiding

Did you know that I have *met* Nathan?? Uh huh... It's true.

Yay!

I wish I would've stayed a bit longer, but we never really talked on CGR so I felt there was a bit of animosity, but it was still cool meeting you.

Good morning everyone!

[Sarah_13]

Originally Posted by maux

I was supposed to go to a show tonight, but that didn't work out. I ended up going to Fort Macon with Chris and Myriah this afternoon. I had to pick Matt up at 6:30, drop him off at The Arena, and then pick up my cousin, Tanner, and then we went to see SAW again. It was fun. Fort Macon was awesome, and I got some grrrrrrrrrreat pictures of the sunset.

I'm kind of upset and depressed again. Myriah's thinking about going to highschool... And... Everything that makes me sad also turns me into a horrible person, somehow. It's uncomfortable. If I like a guy who ends up liking Myriah, and I get mildly upset about it, I'm the bad guy. If I feel lonely, I'm being silly because I'm not appreciating my three (Seriously. Three.) friends enough. I just hate this.

Chris, my only close, male friend, was lecturing me tonight about making Myriah feel bad about being liked more than me, and for controlling her life so much. I do not control her life. And I even asked her about the upsettedness thing. She said that she was upset when Matt liked her and not me and she couldn't do anything about it, but that she understands where I'm coming from, and does not get upset with me when I feel bad about being liked less than her. And she's not just saying that. We are completely honest with one another.

Man. Everyone encourages me to let my emotions out more, rather than bottling them up... But in the few instances where I do, the people who mean the most to me freak out. What is an emo kid to do?!

Did I mention that Chris just recently told Myriah that he likes her? Romantically? Yeah.

And... I hate feeling sorry for myself like this... Actually... It's comfortable for me, for some reason... But I hate showing my self-pity. So. I'm just going to end there.

Pictures soon. Maybe.

Washington this summer. Maybe.

Don't listen to Frank.
And hey there are all times when we need to let free and rant a little in self-pity.

So how is your day going so far?
Gotta get back to the Algebra. Later.

[myriah]

I was supposed to go to a show tonight, but that didn't work out. I ended up going to Fort Macon with Chris and Myriah this afternoon. I had to pick Matt up at 6:30, drop him off at The Arena, and then pick up my cousin, Tanner, and then we went to see SAW again. It was fun. Fort Macon was awesome, and I got some grrrrrrrrrreat pictures of the sunset.

no show, but next time... it's hardcore dancing all the way. and we're deffinately going back to fort macon to explore that hidden hatch into the unknown. very scary. adventure. ew. i love it.

I'm kind of upset and depressed again. Myriah's thinking about going to highschool... And... Everything that makes me sad also turns me into a horrible person, somehow. It's uncomfortable. If I like a guy who ends up liking Myriah, and I get mildly upset about it, I'm the bad guy. If I feel lonely, I'm being silly because I'm not appreciating my three (Seriously. Three.) friends enough. I just hate this.

highschool isnt going to happen. mom is freaking out about it. *sigh* it's a nice thought though. and you're not the "bad guy" at all. just because some people dont understand your frustration doesnt make you into a horrible person. i understand you. dont worry about it.

Chris, my only close, male friend, was lecturing me tonight about making Myriah feel bad about being liked more than me, and for controlling her life so much.

yeah, that's stupid. i love him to death and i know you do too... but you should have told him in the most kind and friendly way to shut-up.

Man. Everyone encourages me to let my emotions out more, rather than bottling them up... But in the few instances where I do, the people who mean the most to me freak out. What is an emo kid to do?!

i guess that some people just dont understand or dont try to understand. it's always hard to get people to see things from your point of view and not their own. if they saw where you were coming from they'd see the most awesome, strong, and sweet emo kid. ever.

Did I mention that Chris just recently told Myriah that he likes her? Romantically? Yeah.

"this too will pass". you know how it goes. cassies in love with him anyway. it just kills him that i'm one of the only girls who wont fall head over heals for him. sad but true.

well my morgan. i love you. i think that you have to work tonight... did you know this? dawn or someone called. so if you're at work when i get home i'll probably try and come see you. (how i'll do this i dont know, you have my car. grr.) but we should try and get to BAM or something if it's not too late.

much love,

your little sister who loves you and understands you even if no one else does. *hugs*

[maux]

I am having an awful day. I feel really icky. I wish I could fake my own death, and then move out of the country.

[Ring of a bell]

Originally Posted by maux

I am having an awful day. I feel really icky. I wish I could fake my own death, and then move out of the country.

Aww. Sorry to hear that morgan. I'll pray for you.

[Art]

Originally Posted by maux

Random fact: It seems like the eighth song (on most cds) tends to be my favorite song on that cd. Why? I don't know. It's interesting that 8 is also one of my favorite numbers...

My sports number is 8. I did not even realize it until the third consecutive time that my little league jersey was randomly #8. Then, Steve Young was #8. So, that sealed the deal.

And 8 is just good. it's not too big. not too small

[Micaela]

*gives Morgan a hug*

Always here if you need to talk. Love ya

[maux]

Thanks, you guys.

And 8 is definitely a slamming number, Art. It was my dad's sports number and mine also.

Tonight... I write.

I'm writing a story of sorts about an interview that I had with a man tonight. He was a drug addict for about twenty years. I had a wonderful time interviewing him. I thought it was going to be uncomfortable, but it wasn't at all. He cooperated perfectly, and it was all very interesting. The entire situation seemed like a therapy session of sorts, and I really enjoyed it. It confirmed my suspicions that I could be interested in being a psychologist/counselor someday.

Also, I have to write a synopsis of the movie The Gangs of New York. I'm not looking forward to that as much, but it shouldn't be difficult.

And... My day today was much less stressful than yesterday. For this, I am thankful.

Tomorrow will be hectic again. Hopefully I'll live through it.

Interestingly enough, if I don't make it through tomorrow, I've been promised that my ghost will get its [butt] kicked in the near future. I have to meet Brandon and show him my lovely drive to Fort Macon before I'm allowed to die.

I don't have much else to say. I do need to get those pictures up, though. Perhaps tonight, when I take another break from my writing.