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Originally Posted by Art

They are few and far between. I managed to find one, though. Actually, it found me.

yeah. i wish a good job would find me...

Wow... THAT is quite odd.

yes, yes it is. quite odd and quite annoying.

It's just... that sound they make. The almost howling sound... like laughing... so creepy.

yeah. it is kind of creepy. i guess i just got used to it after so many years...

Ohhh, thunderstorm... That would be lovely. Actually, not for today. For some time later in the future.

it barely rained, but you could hear the thunder. so, it was cool. it was very short and small... i live right near camp lejeune, which is, i think, one of the largest marine bases on the east coast... and they do practice bombing over on a nearby island. when they bomb, it echoes all the way over here, and it sounds just like thunder. they also use machine guns over there, and you can hear those too. it's not really loud or obnoxious... it's just like really far away thunder.

I hope you are having a very plesant day. Keep rocking.

i am having a fairly pleasant day. i hope you get well soon. later.

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Originally Posted by cataplum!rocker

Who are the pple in ur sig?

the smashing pumpkins.

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was just reading this. it's good stuff. i think i might use the topic for my bible study on thursday... ?

[Micaela]

Hi Morgan!! *waves* love ya! oh oh oh! You got AIM? YAY!!
*grin*
~Rach

[Cataplum!]

Originally Posted by clean

was just reading this. it's good stuff. i think i might use the topic for my bible study on thursday... ?

Hey, i likes dat. its a pretty good article.

[Art]

Hey hey mo. It is nearly 3:30 AM out there in Carolina. Yikes.

You know, living in North Carolina, you really should be a basketball fan. You have the greatest conference of them all, the ACC. A lot of great teams play in that conference. Heck, Michael Jordan went to UNC.

Anyhow, here's that ugly banner I made:



Terrible, eh? I would like to make a beter one, but I am having trouble with other stuff. Maybe eventually.

Oh man, my head is just swimming right now. Very uncomforable.

Anyhow, did you happen to read the massive survey in my blog? I filled out the entire thing I was very proud of myself. i have not done a survey that long in years.

Man... I really feel like typing something massive out right now... but my head is not allowing it. I am going to bed. Good night, morgan. You are already gone, though, so Good morning.

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this is very annoying.

Originally Posted by rach

Hi Morgan!! *waves* love ya! oh oh oh! You got AIM? YAY!!
*grin*
~Rach

hey rach. how are you? yeah. i got aim, but i'm still not all that familiar with it. love you too.

Originally Posted by matt

Hey, i likes dat. its a pretty good article.

yes. it is. my youthleader teaches strongly against compromise. so, i thought that was a cool lesson.

Originally Posted by art

Hey hey mo. It is nearly 3:30 AM out there in Carolina. Yikes.

yeah. 3:30 right on the dot.

You know, living in North Carolina, you really should be a basketball fan. You have the greatest conference of them all, the ACC. A lot of great teams play in that conference. Heck, Michael Jordan went to UNC.

yeah. and being a fairly tall girl, i should play basketball too. haha. and i used to live in illinois. so, then i was over there with the bulls. yes, i really should give it more of a chance than i already have...

Anyhow, here's that ugly banner I made. Terrible, eh? I would like to make a beter one, but I am having trouble with other stuff. Maybe eventually.

no. not terrible. not perfect, but not terrible.

Oh man, my head is just swimming right now. Very uncomforable.

aw. i'm sorry.

Anyhow, did you happen to read the massive survey in my blog? I filled out the entire thing I was very proud of myself. i have not done a survey that long in years.

yes. i saw that. quite cool. haha. i think it's probably one of the longest ones i've done ever.

Man... I really feel like typing something massive out right now... but my head is not allowing it. I am going to bed. Good night, morgan. You are already gone, though, so Good morning.

well, i really hope you're feeling better now... when you're reading this... i typed up a lot last night on that old laptop. so, i guess i'm going to be posting that next. i hope you have a lovely day.

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monday, march 15th, 2004 10:30pm

i am currently sitting out on my porch with this dinky little laptop. it's about 10:30pm, and it's still fairly warm. warm enough that after being in the hot tub, i grabbed the laptop and my cd player, and am sitting out here in my swimsuit and a towel. it's nice to be able to type my thoughts out on this out here instead of just keeping them to myself or having to type them inside. however, unlike art, i am not all that great with this smaller keyboard yet. i'm getting there, though.

a strange thing just happened... i'm listening to my cd player, and it was on track number 1... all of a sudden, it started skipping, and so i pushed it to the next song... it moved it to track 6. weird.

as beautiful as it is out here, and as much as i hate to admit it, it's a bit creepy by myself. it's a screened in porch, and i don't like having the lights on in here because then you can see in, but i can't see out. that and it's just nicer at night in the dark. but it's nice being alone.

i'm going to get a shirt and some pants.

oh my goodness. i was just walking inside to get said shirt and pants, when all of a sudden there arose such a commotion somewhere off in the dark nothingness and trees of my backyard... i don't know what it was, but it sounded like something big stomping around on lots of large, hollow, metal objects... not with a very ringing metalic sound... more of a deep, round, banging sound. and it went on for a few seconds, and then stopped, and then started again and went on for a few more seconds. i have only a few guesses as to what in the world it could be...

1. we have an aluminum canoe and a small, metal john boat down by the creek. it could've had something to do with that.

2. my dad's barn is a quanson hut. it's like an upside down metal halfpipe. or an airplane hangar. anyway, it's full of stuff. there could've been something down there that knocked some stuff over or something.

3. the land that i live on now used to be a farm of sorts. they raised animals on it. when we moved here, the trees had grown up all over the place, and it was quite a mess. we had to remove all of the trees and underbrush ourselves. in the process, we found several piles of old, rusted metal... kind of like the stuff they use on people's roofs. anyway, there is a bit of land in the direction of where the noise came from, and there is some of that metal over there that we haven't gotten rid of yet. it's off in some of the trees and vines and bushes and stuff that we haven't cleared yet. perhaps it had something to do with that.

all of those things are in the basic direction of where the racket came from, and are quite good explanations of location and utensil. number three is probably the most likely. however, i still don't know what could've done it. it could've been an animal or a person. it wasn't the wind, that's for sure.

anyway, directly after that, i packed up camp and moved on inside. back to my nice, safe, little room. i'm just glad i wasn't in the hot tub when i heard that. i'd have had to get out and put the cover back on and completely freak out in the process...

oy. so, that was the end of my peace on the porch for the night.

wow. i had a lot more to say, but that just kind of wiped it all out of my head temporarily. and i'm suddenly tired.

i've been trying to get some things figured out lately, and it's been a bit difficult on my brain. for one thing, i'd really like to have some sort of plan for what i'd like to do with the rest of my life. actually, not what i'd like to do, but what God wants me to do... that'd be great. i need something that i can work towards. something that i know will pay off. at this point, i'm not sure college is what i'm needing to do. i know i could get started on some general education classes, but i don't want to do that until i know for sure that i'm going to need more college classes later on.

also, i'm considering moving over to my grandma's house for a bit. my mom's mentioned it a couple times, and i've started to seriously debate whether or not i want to do that. i think it'd be beneficial for me. i know my life would be a lot easier. except, i'm worried about how my mom would handle it. she's been telling me to, but i think that if i finally do... she's not going to like it. i don't know what would happen to the little bit of a good relationship that we have... plus, no cable internet connection and an old computer that barely works. my room would be smaller, and, of course, i'd be living with my grandmother. however, i wouldn't have to call every time i wanted to do anything. i wouldn't have to watch my every move to be sure that i didn't offend someone. i wouldn't have to live in my bedroom so that i didn't get yelled at everytime i stepped into one of the main living areas of the house.

_{EDIT: today's going better than yesterday. so, i'm not moving yet.}

my mom really doesn't support me all that much anyway... well, let's see... she does pay for my car insurance and pays for some food. and i'd say that's about it. hopefully i'll find a decent job soon, then i won't have to worry about even that.

so, you see, i'm a fairly lost person at the moment. yes, i've got God, and that's why i'm sane and able to type right now. and in spite of all of this other confusion and the current lack of happiness, He's given me joy.

i just left for a moment to speak with my sister. she and my brother were sitting in her room talking. she said not to think too much. i think i'm going to try out her idea.

i recently remembered that my grandpa gave me a copy of rising sun sometime last year. i found it. now i think i'm going to read it. again.

well, by the time i post this, it's going to be tomorrow. perhaps i will have found out what that racket was all about. perhaps not. perhaps i'll be dead. or perhaps not. i don't know. anyway, goodnight for now.

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working on my sig again.

[Sarah_13]

woah..that would have freaked everyone out if that huge noise had happened at your party while we were playing manhunt or something. ..whew.

I'm praying for you dear and all this...confusion...and descision-making.

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Originally Posted by Sarah_13

woah..that would have freaked everyone out if that huge noise had happened at your party while we were playing manhunt or something. ..whew.

I'm praying for you dear and all this...confusion...and descision-making.

yeah. i know. i still haven't gone over there to see if i could figure out what it was. but it was so freaky. geez. and it was just after i had been thinking about the creepiness of it all anyway.

thanks a lot. i could definitely use the prayer.

i posted in your blog.

[Cataplum!]

Whoa. it sounds like the beginning of a horror flick. Stay safe Morgan, and dont do what they do in those movies that gets them killed or something.

[Art]

You mess with your signature more than anyone I know. It is just amazing. I like it, though. Variety is the spice of life.

I wish we had a good deck that I could sit on at night in the summer to write. I would probably write a lot more if I did.

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Originally Posted by cataplum!rocker

Whoa. it sounds like the beginning of a horror flick. Stay safe Morgan, and dont do what they do in those movies that gets them killed or something.

yeah. it was like that. haha. yeah. *enters a dark, dark room* "billy? [chchch, shshsh, hahaha] billy, are you in there? [chchch, shshsh, hahaha] i'm going to get naked and take a shower..."

You mess with your signature more than anyone I know. It is just amazing. I like it, though. Variety is the spice of life.

I wish we had a good deck that I could sit on at night in the summer to write. I would probably write a lot more if I did.

yes. i do. i have you keep you guys on your toes. and that's a nice phrase. i like it.

our deck is awesome. especially in the evenings when the trees are all green, and there's a slight breeze blowing... and it's screened in, so no bugs. and it faces the sunset... and the sun sets right over the creek... it's beautiful. simply beautiful. when you come out to visit me, you'll get to see it.

[Micaela]

Originally Posted by clean

however, i wouldn't have to call every time i wanted to do anything. i wouldn't have to watch my every move to be sure that i didn't offend someone. i wouldn't have to live in my bedroom so that i didn't get yelled at everytime i stepped into one of the main living areas of the house.

_{EDIT: today's going better than yesterday. so, i'm not moving yet.}

my mom really doesn't support me all that much anyway... well, let's see... she does pay for my car insurance and pays for some food. and i'd say that's about it. hopefully i'll find a decent job soon, then i won't have to worry about even that.

so, you see, i'm a fairly lost person at the moment. yes, i've got God, and that's why i'm sane and able to type right now. and in spite of all of this other confusion and the current lack of happiness, He's given me joy.

i just left for a moment to speak with my sister. she and my brother were sitting in her room talking. she said not to think too much. i think i'm going to try out her idea.

haha, my older brother told me the same thing, and I can so relate. I was talking to him one night, and he was like, you know what ur problem is Rachel? You think to much! and I was like, I can't help it! just felt like sharing that, lol. Thx for talking tonight, Mo,
love ya
~Rach