I am the rain queen

Amanda · 08-20-2002, 04:16 PM

Anyway, yeah, I guess this'll be my CGR journal.

Today was my second day of class, and we had speech today--I guess here's the point to say that I'm on block scheduling, it's cool b/c I only have 4 classes a day--and laughed the entire time. My class is just so random and funny, it's easy to have a lot of fun. We can be deep at the same time, though (it doesn't have to make sense, it just happens). Wow.......I don't know what to write about now. So I guess I'll end this.

perhaps · 08-20-2002, 05:40 PM

*wonders if Manders

will post a picture of herself

*
*wonders what "a pretty how town" means*

Amanda · 08-20-2002, 07:27 PM

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Originally posted by perhaps
*wonders if Manders will post a picture of herself *
*wonders what "a pretty how town" means*

1) NEVER! (Maybe in like a year or so...my parents are kinda paranoid about me posting stuff like that b/c of all the crazy stalkers). And thanx, manders.

2) "a pretty how town" is taken from an e.e. cummings poem called "anyone lived in" (you guessed it) "a pretty how town." awesome poem. I suggest you give it a try sometime.

Amanda · 08-20-2002, 07:35 PM

This is a poem that I wrote the other night...I have a lot of friends whose parents are divorced. Mine aren't (thankfully!), but anyway, I got to just thinking and so I wrote this from the perspective of a recent divorcee. It doesn't have a title, so here goes.

So you took your heart back from me,
Took back your soul that I'd taken into mine,
Rendered the one into two...
And I guess I did the same to you
Over specks of dust
We made into universes
And dared to call them "irreconcilable differences."
It was the way you'd stay out late,
The way I'd take you apart without reason,
And if I could go back I'd find a way
To heal the wounds we made in each other

But what's done is done,
Irreversible like death.
So you have your life and I have mine,
Unless I've got yours and you've got mine
In which case it doesn't really matter anymore,
Because though we abandoned each other
We took part of the other with us

"Mea culpa, mea maxima culpa."*

So now our kids will scream that
Today's our holiday,
But in the aftermath
I find that my world's fallen apart.
Has yours, dear?
So I guess this is goodbye.
Any chance we can still be friends?

*"My sin, my most grievous sin"

Ethereal Raven · 08-20-2002, 07:41 PM

Hey, wow that is a really niftie poem!! Sorry I haven't posted in a long time, I've been busy, blah blah blah excuses blah computer problems excuses blah blah...

heh. keep up the good work!

ste beetle · 08-20-2002, 07:58 PM

wow manders, that's an awesome poem. it's goin in the book!! unless i've got yours and you've got mine, in that case it doesn't really matter anymore. wow, a moment of randomosity remembered forever! Cristo te ama!

Amanda · 08-21-2002, 08:53 PM

August 21...

UMMMM...well, I should be doing my homework instead of this, so I'm being bad...

Anyway, today I had English and I have a rough draft for a paper due on Tuesday...the problem is that I'm gonna be out of town all weekend so I don't know if I'm gonna have time to write it. Blegh. Oh well, such is life.

I'm getting all these college apps that I'm gonna have to fill out soon...I feel so old (hahaha). Harvard sent me one; I think I'll send it in just so I can tell my kids, "Yeah, I applied to Harvard." Heh...but seriously, I want to go to Baylor U or Wheaton College (that's in Illinois, for all you ppl who don't know about that) and they both sent me apps, so maybe that's a sign...

Amanda · 08-22-2002, 04:36 PM

*wondering why this slipped to the second page*

This is a poem I wrote last yr. for English class...

this is the day the Lord has made,
but will i rejoice and be glad in it?
'cause it's raining
at least in my imagination
and i'm drowning in this flood i've made

last night i could not sleep
for lack of stardust in my eyes
and lack of joy and lack of Thee...
i lay awake and listened for Your voice
but the fury of my thoughts would speak instead

(and what are dreams that i should dream
in darkness that was meant to be
a refuge, not a drowning place?)

woke up this morning
and found the sun was still asleep
the diamond stars, their song still sang...
reached up my hand
and found a line

"all the weary, come to Me"

for fear of God--no, fear of me
and fear i won't have eyes to see
the glory in the eyes of man
a gift placed there by Your own hand
i reach a dreaming woman's hand
and breathe...

ste beetle · 08-22-2002, 06:20 PM

*wonders if being out of town means manders won't be at the W.C. oppening...*

Amanda · 08-22-2002, 09:48 PM

Yes, that does mean I won't be there. (For ppl who don't know--which is most of you--my church just finished building this HUGE new worship center and our first Sunday in there just happens to be this upcoming one. However, I will be at SENIOR CAMP! So I can't be there for it. Boohoo.

But camp will be fun anyway.)

Oh, and everyone give a big CGR welcome to ste_beetle, one of my best friends in *the real world*.

ste beetle · 08-23-2002, 10:10 AM

awwwww, warm fuzzies!

yeah, i didn't know when senior camp was... i thought it was later on in the year. o well. you and everybody else that won't be there - HAVE FUN!!!! (and tell zach he's going to sheal b/c he won't be at church again...)

Amanda · 08-23-2002, 09:11 PM

And now for some completely random information about me...

My family consists of:
*my dad, Randy, who's my school's technical director. He likes studying theology (he'd fit in over in *that* forum), is one of the best cooks in the world, and I can get him to do just about anything except 1) something that'll cause him bodily harm or 2) eating something he's never had before.
*my mom, Trisha, who married my dad when she was 17 and he was 21. She's had health problems all her life; presently she's dealing with this chronic thing called fibromyalgia syndrome (this is the best explanation of it I know of), but she's a trooper. She's one of the strongest Christians I know.

*my older brother, Randy, Jr., who just became a 2nd lieutenant in the U.S. Army a few months ago! He has this awesome testimony: he used to be in a gang, and found Jesus while he was in jail (that's the *really* short version). He's 8.5 years older than I am, so we don't know each other nearly as well as I'd like, but he's still cool! he's married--his wife's name is Irene and she's Filipino (ppl think we're sisters, it's really funny)--and they have two little boys (well, the oldest one's not that little, he's a pretty bowed up six-year-old

)
*me--your run-of-the-mill adopted Korean kid who plays guitar, tries to write plays, and loved Jesus! w00t!
*my biological parents, who are about 35 right now and somewhere on the planet.

Amanda · 09-01-2002, 11:36 PM

*sniff* No one loves me...

This post is more about getting this back to the first page of the forum than anything...but here, let me try to find something of substance to stick here...

BTW, senior camp was awesome, I'll have an entry up about that eventually...

Oh, I know what I can post!

There's this really awesome book called Four Souls that's about these four guys who were college roomies, and they went around the world for a year doing short-term mission work. In the process they learned a lot about God, about each other, about themselves, etc. Great stuff. I recommend you read it. The entire thing is online at www.foursouls-thebook.com.

Jay42 · 09-02-2002, 12:12 AM

Can you tell us more about the plays you've tried writing? Did one ever get to completion?

And are you sure you have never found a celebrity who looks even remotely like you?

Amanda · 09-02-2002, 12:57 PM

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Originally posted by Jay42
Can you tell us more about the plays you've tried writing? Did one ever get to completion?

And are you sure you have never found a celebrity who looks even remotely like you?

None of my plays ever come to completion because they always wind up devolving into randomosity (not that that's a bad thing, but they don't even make sense anymore). Maybe one of these days I'll get a few scenes up from this one play I started three years ago called "The Wonderful Wizard of Odd." I had it cast and everything, it was interesting. But it never got off the ground.

And no, I don't look like anyone except myself.