Serious depression

Homer Simpson · 04-06-2016, 03:24 AM

Hi all,

I need prayer. My depression that I've been struggling with for most of my adult life is continuing to kick my butt, and I really need a clear, efficient head right now. My pastor is worried about me, he sends me an email to check up on me if he doesn't see me at Liturgy. And it's super awesome to know I'm being prayed for, but still, life is sucking right now. I'm having thoughts that range from 'I'm too messed up for God to love or for the Church to help work out my salvation, and I'm a waste of everyone's time", to that I'll never amount to anything and be a loser all my life.

At the moment my only comfort is that really, the Kingdom of God is for losers, because blessed are the poor in spirit.

Giuseppe · 04-06-2016, 05:55 AM

I'll pray for you bro

Stay strong

BillSPrestonEsq · 04-06-2016, 11:20 AM

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Originally Posted by IsaactheSyrian

Hi all,

I need prayer. My depression that I've been struggling with for most of my adult life is continuing to kick my butt, and I really need a clear, efficient head right now. My pastor is worried about me, he sends me an email to check up on me if he doesn't see me at Liturgy. And it's super awesome to know I'm being prayed for, but still, life is sucking right now. I'm having thoughts that range from 'I'm too messed up for God to love or for the Church to help work out my salvation, and I'm a waste of everyone's time", to that I'll never amount to anything and be a loser all my life.

At the moment my only comfort is that really, the Kingdom of God is for losers, because blessed are the poor in spirit.

I am praying for you. Depression sucks. I see it everyday at work

***Leboman*** · 04-06-2016, 12:29 PM

Praying my brother.

Grace and peace to you.

Homer Simpson · 04-08-2016, 03:13 AM

Thanks guys.

I'm going to talk to my disability advisor tomorrow to see if there's something I can do about the rest of my papers and exams. I've been crying myself to sleep some nights this week, but some days are good. It's a struggle. Earlier I was remarking to a friend about how some nights I sort of just wish I would die in my sleep so I don't have to continue to feel crushing worthlessness all the time.

Homer Simpson · 04-08-2016, 03:41 PM

It turns out one of my profs had contacted Access and Diversity (my university's disability office, which I'm registered with) with concerns about me, and my advisor contacted me.

Turns out that system (profs are supposed to look out for students who seem to be struggling with mental health issues and contact appropriate resources on their behalf) works.