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Unread 10-26-2015, 02:21 AM   #1
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Severe depression

Those who know me well from this forum know that I have severe depression. It's got really really bad this semester. I've missed a lot of class, I haven't been studying, and on top of it all I've been kind of torn apart by some pretty intense crisis involving what may or may not be conflicting value systems. It's really complicated and unless I had an hour or two to sit down and explain this whole situation with a friend and where I've been spiritually for the past five years, it wouldn't make much sense for me to try to nutshell it.

Suffice it to say I am thoroughly spiritually confused. I had a talk with my deacon last Thursday that helped a bit, if only to hear him say "Don't give up hope, and we (my church, him, and the other clergy there) love you dearly". But honestly the thoughts of self-harm have been ever-present company and have gotten worse since September. When they strike I usually take off my prayer rope and say the Jesus prayer until they stop, and that usually helps.

I believe, O Lord, and I confess, that You are truly the Christ, the Son of the Living God, who came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the chief...
~ Ryan Isaac

Advancing from false doctrine to true faith,
illumined with the light of knowledge,
let us clap our hands and offer grateful praise to God in song!
With due honor let us venerate the holy icons of Christ,
of the all-pure Virgin, and of all the saints,
depicted on walls or panels or sacred vessels,
rejecting the godless teaching of the heretics!
For as Saint Basil says:
“The honor shown to the image passes to its prototype.”
By the prayers of Your pure Mother and of all the saints,
we beseech You, O Christ our God, to grant us great mercy!
that He may be bountiful and save our souls!

- Stikhera from the Sunday of the Triumph of Orthodoxy

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Unread 10-26-2015, 07:02 AM   #2
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Unread 10-26-2015, 11:50 AM   #3
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Get off the couch and go for a walk. Try to find joy and beauty in the smallest things. Try to stop any addictive chemicals such as cigarettes, coffee. Break the cycle of "you". Get up, shower, get dressed, get some fresh air and sunshine, and do some things that bring you joy and peace. You will get through this. If you are free, then enjoy your freedom.

Good luck! You can do it! You can find yourself. Even if you have to be a little selfish.
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