[Skifree0813]

I haven't said it on here before, but some of you may know that I'm nearing the last month of working in Serbia. That said, a couple things have giving me a lot of trouble recently, and I'd just like to ask for prayer for peace of mind and integrity to focus on my mission here until it's time to go home.

I've been experiencing much more severe and frequent panic attacks than my usual, which has been greatly limiting my sleep. The past couple nights have been event-free, but before that I had a string of 14 some nights in a row with at least one attack. Medication's helping some, but I have to take it at the start of the attack for any real effect... Eventually all that leads to bad moods, exhaustion, and distraction from what I should be doing. I've realized that one of the best tricks to hinder me from glorifying God is to simply get me thinking about something else.

The other issue is relating to a girl I met here. I have a girlfriend at home who I am deeply in love with, and neither of us is concerned about our relationship, after talking about this new friend. The friend and I have mutually agreed not to spend time alone with each other, or to get into long discussions about anything outside of how we're seeing Christ at work here. And yet I'm still struggling with the fact that I have a very close friend here. I believe that if I were to spend time with her, we would likely develop a more romantic relationship, and yet I am completely content with how things are now (being with my girlfriend). So I think I'm just becoming frustrated with myself, for having even considered that thought. Essentially I'm beating myself up for a poor reason, and that type of thing tends to build on itself

Sorry for the long post! I just needed to vent some of that, and I believe any prayer has its effect also.