[Timberwolf]

Hello, I haven't posted on here in quite awhile. I felt compelled to write this, I feel someone out there needs this. Well, I have OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder). Mostly with religious things. Also known as scrupulosity. I have bad, obsessive thoughts about God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Of course they are not mine, they're my OCD's thoughts. I am in no control of them. It used to give me the hardest time... I've had troubles with a few religious type things such as,

1. Blasphemy
2. Soul Selling
3. Soul/Skill Betting

I have blasphemous thoughts sometimes. They were my first experience and gave me a HUGE depression. I thought I was eternally doomed. However, as I'll elaborate on later, was silly of me.

Soul selling, I was always scared I was doing so. That is silly as well. As well as the betting of said.

I struggled for years. But through my struggle came strength and wisdom that I'd like to share with anyone else in my past predicament. Cause I know it feels horrible when it's something you can't control and something so major...

I've discovered that blasphemy is not a simple slip of tongue or thought. I is a belief. A life long hatred of God and such. I believe that even when this is comitted one can be saved. It's just a matter of them being hardened and bitter. God only hears our hearts. You have to believe it.

Soul selling is NOT... and I repeat... NOT!! Possible. First off, when you're born, the devil need not buy your soul because you are born a sinner who is not saved... When you become saved, your soul is no longer yours to sell. Christ bought it with his blood. For two, satan is a LIAR he will do ANYTHING to decieve you. He is weak and powerless. He is the father of lies. His only power is to lie. Soul selling is all hollywood moneymakin' is all. As well as the betting. As I said, your soul is God's once you're saved. Not yours too bet. Your skills/talents... God gave them to you. satan does not have the power to take them away.

Remember always, that if you have accepted Christ as your lord and savior... That can NEVER be taken away. God promised. He will NOT EVER NEVER EVER EVER!! Break a promise.

Hope this helped someone out there, or gave some insight on how it is to have real OCD.

God bless and praise the Lord!

[theopavlakou]

Hey, yeah, I have it too. Or at least I'm pretty sure I have it. Before being saved it used to be about things like friends and family, but now it's mostly blasphemy like you said, and like it's mostly when I'm trying to immerse myself in deep prayer. But yeah, I ask for strength and for forgiveness every time, but still, it happens. I know that I'm not consciously doing it, so like it's not exactly blasphemy, but I still feel terrible when it happens... But I know that God forgives me, it's just a matter of overcoming it all as well.
But thanks a lot, it's strengthening knowing someone else has gone through it all as well, and God is with me so I'm not afraid.