[SupaNova]

I can't promise that this new blog will become anything more then a temporary indulgence for my need to write.

So I won't.

Instead, however, I will announce that for the time being, I am back.

After weeks of sporatic postings, I have offically decided this is the case


And, of course, now that I'm finally beginning to give my thoughts shape and structure and meaning, I'm currently drawing a blank on what to say, heh. I feel like I should begin start this next grand chapter of my digital existence with a run down of what I've been up to since December, but truth be told, there is not all that much to say. Not very much that I assume most of you would find fascinating enough to cling your buttox to the edge of your seat, anyway.

I think most of my current circumstances can be summed up through the voice of this article I found on NPR's website earlier this evening. Granted, my situation is better then that of the girl in that story, but I share her feelings of frustration and anger..... and mostly her attitude of being a failure. These days I read the news and feel like we'd all be much better off without these high priced bellhops running Wall Street, but I'll digress.

Life is a bit on the tough side right about now, and I am trying with all my heart to remember that our Lord and savior is in control of everything; even in the midst of what seems like the ominous rise of chaos' shady grip. And when all else seems to be failing and I feel like my circumstances are poised to swallow me into the abyss at a moment's notice, I trying to remember that while I can't quite dig my way out yet, I can still combat my demons with the pen and with the guitar pick. So, yes, I'm back. For a little while yet.

Hello strange, familiar faces





Edit: 4001th post.......well that's just dandy.

[Small]

Originally Posted by SupaNova

I can't promise that this new blog will become anything more then a temporary indulgence for my need to write.

So I won't.

Rats.

Instead, however, I will announce that for the time being, I am back.

After weeks of sporatic postings, I have offically decided this is the case

W00t.

And, of course, now that I'm finally beginning to give my thoughts shape and structure and meaning, I'm currently drawing a blank on what to say, heh. I feel like I should begin start this next grand chapter of my digital existence with a run down of what I've been up to since December, but truth be told, there is not all that much to say. Not very much that I assume most of you would find fascinating enough to cling your buttox to the edge of your seat, anyway.

You would be surprised at the things that bring me to a trembling imbalance on the cusp of falling to the floor.

I know in my case, it becomes inconceivable to update my blog thoroughly, simply because of the astounding volume of news and philosophical ponderings there are to relate.

I think most of my current circumstances can be summed up through the voice of this article I found on NPR's website earlier this evening. Granted, my situation is better then that of the girl in that story, but I share her feelings of frustration and anger..... and mostly her attitude of being a failure. These days I read the news and feel like we'd all be much better off without these high priced bellhops running Wall Street, but I'll digress.

Life is a bit on the tough side right about now, and I am trying with all my heart to remember that our Lord and savior is in control of everything; even in the midst of what seems like the ominous rise of chaos' shady grip. And when all else seems to be failing and I feel like my circumstances are poised to swallow me into the abyss at a moment's notice, I trying to remember that while I can't quite dig my way out yet, I can still combat my demons with the pen and with the guitar pick. So, yes, I'm back. For a little while yet.

At times, all we can reasonably hope for is to keep the demons at bay while we await reinforcements, and while that's an uncomfortable position to be in, know that the reinforcements will arrive.

Hello strange, familiar faces

'Sup, lad?

Edit: 4001th post.......well that's just dandy.

Ain't it, though?

[SupaNova]

Originally Posted by Small

You would be surprised at the things that bring me to a trembling imbalance on the cusp of falling to the floor.

I know in my case, it becomes inconceivable to update my blog thoroughly, simply because of the astounding volume of news and philosophical ponderings there are to relate.

Yeah, I find myself at the crossroads of a similar problem currently. I don't have much news to speak of, but a massive volume of philisophical musings that seems to numerous to properly relate in typed words.

At times, all we can reasonably hope for is to keep the demons at bay while we await reinforcements, and while that's an uncomfortable position to be in, know that the reinforcements will arrive.

Absolutely sir. Of course, in between the drop off point and the reinforcements is always the waiting, which is the real rub of the situation anyway.

'Sup, lad?

You know, not a whole heck of a lot at the moment friend. Since the economy picked a rather inopportune time to pull the floor up from beneath us, I'm currently having a difficult time landing work anywhere. Which would not be that much of an inconvience at the moment (thank our lord El Shaddai), except that it means I'm currently not making any money. Which means it will only be that much longer before I can move back to Texas.

But on the bright side, I am getting a ton of reading done in between shooting off applications and glancing through classifieds. As of this writing, I'm working through two (tehcnically) novels and a few religious/inspirational texts. I'm also thinking about re-reading Colbert's I Am America just for kicks.

[mtlmouth]

I made an attempt to read I Am America... at one point, but that one point happened to be at the beginning of last semester, and I was working on another book at the time, and they both got returned to the library before I could finish them due to homework eating up all my time. I enjoyed what I did read, though.

Hi, Drew. New blogs are good opportunities to drop in on people, right?

[SupaNova]

Originally Posted by Leighanna

I made an attempt to read I Am America... at one point, but that one point happened to be at the beginning of last semester, and I was working on another book at the time, and they both got returned to the library before I could finish them due to homework eating up all my time. I enjoyed what I did read, though.

I think I Am America is certainly worth a read if you ever get the chance again. There's a lot of funny material in between the dust sheets, but every once in a while he falls flat. I just credit to the fact that some things that are really funny coming out of Colbert's mouth don't seem quite as humorous when he tries to translate them to book format.

Hi, Drew. New blogs are good opportunities to drop in on people, right?

Absolutely. In fact, I can't really think of any other good opportunities blogs are more fitting for





The end of April is going to be a swingin time for new music. For anybody who cares (and I think you'd be wise to), the first three tracks from the upcoming Jars of Clay album are streaming on their myspace. And my gosh, I have a feeling that this chunk of plastic might just be capable of topping Good Monsters, which boggles my mind, but in a good way. If nothing else, definately check out Weapons because that song is ridiculiously rocking for a Jars tune.

And while rummaging through websites this morning, I stumbled on some news about Ben Folds' upcoming super sexy a capella record. For serious, guys. Folds and one of his sound engineer buddies traveled across the country a few months back recording all these college a capella groups for this album. You can watch all of the groups they recorded perform right here.

The final tracklist makes me a little sad, because a few groups I felt kind of 'meh' about made the final cut and a couple groups I really liked ended up not making it. But whatever, this project is still really, really cool so I am excited for it anyway. Listen to this mp3 and you'll understand why, I trust



This week has been pretty lame so far, and job searching has been endlessly frustrating, so I'd just rather not talk about it at this point. I guess that's pretty much it.

[Small]

I am ridiculously excited about the new JoC. As a matter of fact, I may be even more hyped than I was about Good Monsters, and that album received double its share of hype. Of course, as albums ought to be, when receiving a double share of the attention of the hyperventilating establishment and public, the product was equal to the buzz--oh, that it would be again! Oh!

[SupaNova]

Originally Posted by Small

I am ridiculously excited about the new JoC. As a matter of fact, I may be even more hyped than I was about Good Monsters, and that album received double its share of hype. Of course, as albums ought to be, when receiving a double share of the attention of the hyperventilating establishment and public, the product was equal to the buzz--oh, that it would be again! Oh!

Yeah, the new one should be good. I am hoping it will be, at any rate. I've liked the songs they've put up on myspace so far, so...yeah, I suppose I am prematurely assuming the rest of the record is going to follow suite in musical goodness, ha ha.


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Tonight finds me in one of those contemplative moods, which seem to have grown scarcer since graduation. A thought that, by itself, I find reason enough to be troubled by, but I am just sort of sick about my life at this moment. Yet to say something like I'm being emotionally overwhelmed by it all would be a grotesque overstatement. ........but it's kind of like that. My job search has so far been next to fruitless. I've been at it seriously since, oh.... about mid February, and I've dug up not even the smallest sliver of a lead so far. It's more then a bit frustrating at this point. It's also leaves me most days feeling more embarrassing then I ever like to admit. I mean, I spent four and a half years of my life getting this damn degree and now it's proving to be useless. I really feel like maybe I took a wrong turn somewhere, or maybe I simply missed out on a opportunity along the way that could have changed everything. Mostly, I just feel defeated. I wouldn't mind passing out with a white flag gripped tightly about my fingers at this point.

My sister's birthday was earlier this month. She turned 30 this year. It usually comes and goes without much fanfare. I make my annual call to her and leave my annual birthday greeting on her voicemail and that's typically that. I've been thiking more then usual about her lately. Mainly just about how far she's come in her life. Graduated high school and spent the next few years shifting about with boyfriends and jobs. Gradually thinning contact with family members all the while. These days, she's arguably the most sucessful member of the family (immediate or otherwise). Travels across the country helping to set up marketing events for a pretty sizeable fast food company. Living with her boyfriend. Still hasn't gone back to church. Still resents our mom for whatever the heck happened back when she was a teenager. Living well.

Meanwhile, I've spent the better part of my adult life working my butt off to honor both of our parents (even now, when I'm beginning to disagree more and more with both of them), worked my butt off even more for the aforementioned futile degree and I feel like I've got nothing to show for it. I try so effing hard to be the big brother that I never had to my step-siblings, and they make me feel like dirt more often then not. I'm finding myself more and more becoming moved to read the Bible, to listen to preachers on tape, to read inspirational stories and seek the counsel of folks older and wiser then myself, even to pray more. I keep trying to remind myself how over the years God has pulled me out of so many dreary situations where it looked like the sun would never shine again, yet I just keeping doubting and amid the silence and the static, I wonder how much longer it will be before I dig myself into a hole that even the Lord El Shaddai refues to reach His hand down into...

And I feel the need to take an apologetic tone for a moment, because I imagine this post comes off sounding much more depressed then I really am. In truth, I get along fine most days, trying to bide my time in a wiser fashion, but in the backburner in my head, I can't help but fule the fires of self-doubt.

There is also the matter of an inquery that I haven't received an answer for yet. Some people on here probably have an inkling about what I'm referring to, though I assume the majority still don't. And, for now, that's the way I'd like to keep it. Suffice it to say, I feel like I have some unfinished business back in Texas that I'm unable to attend to from this end, and that plagues my thoughts almost daily. I've even beginning to ponder if God really answers every prayer offered at the foot of His throne, or if there are just some He can't even be bothered with. I don't know, maybe that'd make a nice, juicy thread for the gents in Theology to chew on it won't be started by yours truly though.

Anyway, this concludes my braindump for tonight. And if nobody else cares, which is totally understandable, I think I'm feeling a bit better just having an output for all of this. I knew there had to be a good reason why I started a new one of these confounded blogs

[SupaNova]

Everybody needs to go listen to the new Jars tunes they just put up.

Safe to Land is a' rockin'. Headphones is just plain gorgeous.



And for any Sixpence fans out there, is that Leigh Nash singing? I don't really have a clue but she was the first guess that popped into my head.

[beanbag]

the "catchy 60's song" you reference in your UC...are you talking about the one that goes "it's the end of the world as we know it!"? because...if so...REM sang that in what I am pretty sure were the 80's.

[beanbag]

haaaaappy birthday to you! haaaaappy birthday to you! haaaaaappy birthday, dear Dreeeeew! haaaaappy birthday to you!!


(your name totally fits into the rhyme-scheme of the song. I am jealous.)

=D

[SupaNova]

THANK YOU Sabrinsters!!

And for the record, The Happy Birthday song is the only cool rhyme scheme that my name fits into. You wouldn't believe how many times I've assumed somebody was saying my name only to realize they were just shouting "hey you!" to somebody else.

Anyway, Friday was a good day. Just had a (relatively) simple ceremony at the house with step family and friends. All I got was a new pair of headphones (actually, two pairs. I had to decide which set I wanted and I guess I'll take the other one back sometime this week) and what ended up amounting to about thirty dollars in cash. I'll gladly accept it, but it was weird. It felt like the kind of gift my step-brother would appreciate more then I would. I've also been getting well wishes from other family members via texts this weekend and I just noticed the plethroa of wall posts on Facebook. What a technological world we live in, ha ha.

Hmmm. I guess I am just really updating this for the sake of, well, updating. Church was good this morning, for the most part. We have a couple of excellent teachers who rotate through the morning (and Wends.) classes, a handful of decent teachers and a whole of guys who have a lot of heart but are just tapping into the wrong talents. One of the church's best guys spoke this morning. He's the kind of fellow whose seen a lot in his life and always leaves you thinking.

I've been taking part in NaPoWriMo for the first time this year. It's just like NaNoWriMo (which I think more people are familiar with here) except that instead of trying to complete an entire novel in November, you're just trying to write a new poem each day in April. I am, admittedly, not a very skilled poet but I am enjoying the process a lot anyway. It's kind of a breath of fresh air since my songwriter had hit a brick wall a while back. I've also been fiddling with the banjo for the first time in a while this weekend. I'm not sure why I mentioned that, it just seemed like a good statement to fill some more empty space with

Oh, and go to the Jars myspace right now. I don't care who you are, just do it. This new album is going to be fantastic. I just wish they'd put up a regular little pre-order next to that ridiculious $75 package on their site.......

[SupaNova]

Link to my poetry thread. I'm really gonna try to stick something new in there each day. Hope you hate it

[SupaNova]

Oh yeah, I have this blog thing that I basically kind of, like, just talk to myself in

New Jars tunes are online. And I've smiled on the first listen of each song they've put up so far. And that kind of reaction is never due to a full JoC record. The music is amazing, and I wouldn't say that about any of their other albums (even though I love a couple of them dearly). Like these two new tracks, for instance. Hero starts out sounding like it does in all the previews, then about half way through it kind of.....stops....and changes into some sort of jam thing. I don't know what you'd call it exactly. I like it though. And the other one, Scenic Route, is so much awesome. And I was ready to assume the worst about it, heh. It kind of starts out with this Death Cab/ Postal Service vibe and somewhere in the middle it takes on a bit of a Cursive sound. Trust me, it's much cooler then it sounds.

Anyway, enough shop talk......

I spent the better part of today outside helping my step-father prune some trees on his property. That's about the most work I've done since I've been here (and it felt good to, honestly). Job searching still sucks. And because of that, there are a couple other prospective goals I may have to give up on, which is starting to break my heart and my spirit just a little. I'm not really sure what more to say then that. All I'm really asking for is just some clarity and a little peace of mind, Lord..........

On the brighter side, I am really enjoying this NapoWriMo project so far. I've been writing a lot more in the past week and a half then in the past three or four months, and that gives me a little bit of joy during this uncomfortable season. Since I'm not trapping myself inside a rhyme scheme (like with my songwriting), it's been a lot easier to write something with a concrete idea in mind and keeping that thought in tact. I don't think I've really written anything that great, of course, but I'm enjoying exploring a new style regardless.

....and I should probably start getting ready for bed since it's Easter tomorrow. I won't for a little while longer, but I should


Night all.

[slap_j]

Originally Posted by SupaNova

Oh yeah, I have this blog thing that I basically kind of, like, just talk to myself in

Do you also talk to yourself IRL? I do. Yep.

[beanbag]

one word: china.

or spain, if you want to be accurate.

job hunting sucks, I agree. have you looked into subbing? if nothing else, it's extra cash and you can take time off whenever you want.