[CHRISTISLORD200]

So I woke up this morning and my left ear was plugged. Like plugged as in I am constantly plugging it with my finger except I am not. So that normally wouldn't be a huge deal (it has happened before and actually it got plugged up about 2-3 weeks ago and became un-plugged two weeks from last Sunday while I saw sitting in the service and my church) but it is a huge deal this time because of all the stuff that is going on with Elly and everything........... because she STILL hasn't called me back yet, which really really sux. So like I have been really doubting God lately. Really since Monday but now even more so. Like why is He letting all this happen? Especially the whole ear getting plugged, he MUST know that that would make my life a lot worse because it is already really bad.

Anyways my recital went really well last night. I played two pieces, a blues piece by Lee Evans and a classical piece (the blues piece was for fun, I have been learning classical since I was 5) called the Fantasia. I have no idea who wrote it lol. I actually messed up more on the blues piece (the one that was supposed to be easier) than the Fantasia (which if you had heard it, would have thought that it was the much harder piece) but apparently I play pieces that are faster and that I kinda just flow through it then piece that are slower and I like have to think about them more lol. Also I did not get a chance to play through my song yesterday. I was busy getting ready for the recital and swimming in the pool and helping my mom watch my two little sisters.

Well that is my life right now, it still sux but like I said before, as far as I know nobody said anything about life always being fair or easy.

[dogfood]

Originally Posted by CHRISTISLORD200

Um hey dogfood! (if you don't want me to continually call you dogfood, then I recommend telling me what to call you since other than your user name, I have no other name by which to call you lol) So are you gonna be regularly reading (and posting in if you feel led) my journal?

ah you can call me anything you want really,
i'll be a regular reader, poster, if ya post.
from experience a lot of people read these things, though not many comment.

[6strings21frets]

Originally Posted by dogfood

ah you can call me anything you want really,
i'll be a regular reader, poster, if ya post.
from experience a lot of people read these things, though not many comment.

True...most people will read frequently but never post. Same with my journal at the moment

How's it going, CHRISTISLORD200?

[dogfood]

you have a journal?

[CHRISTISLORD200]

Originally Posted by dogfood

you have a journal?

Yes, he has a journal.

Originally Posted by dogfood

ah you can call me anything you want really,
i'll be a regular reader, poster, if ya post.
from experience a lot of people read these things, though not many comment.

Haha yeah, I know what you mean.

Originally Posted by 6strings21frets

True...most people will read frequently but never post. Same with my journal at the moment

How's it going, CHRISTISLORD200?

Feel free to call me Jonathan

Eh. Elly has not called me (if you read the really really long post then you know what I am talking about. If you didn't then go read it!) and my left ear is still plugged and it really sux. My life kinda sux right now.........

Well, my life doesn't TOTALLY suck right now, yesterday I finished putting chords to the song that I wrote (it is in the really long post in my journal and in the "Song Writing" sub-forum). I play it in G with a capo on the first fret, making it G# (or Ab) as you probably know. So now all I have to do is wait until I see Elly sometime this summer. My bffs twin is also really good friends with Elly. Not as much as I am, but then I have known Elly for a year longer than Lauren, Robs (my bff) twin. I am also pretty good friends with Lauren because of all that happened the night at fcwc that Elly had to go to the hospital.

Anyways I think playing through my song and singing about how God helped Elly through all that she went through helped renew my faith in Him. I had been doubting God a lot lately, but now I am going to try to trust in Him with this situation. I could just use a lot of prayer right now. (for anyone reading) Just please pray that I keep my faith in Him in this time in my life. Something like that I guess, idk exactly how to explain it. I could just use some prayer.

[fflscw]

yep. will pray! and i won't be too specific, He knows what would help you best . and, if you have time, you should really read some of Psalms- the most encouraging book in the Bible! oh, and i'll continue praying for Elly!

[CHRISTISLORD200]

Thanks so much!

ELLY CALLED ME TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGOSH MY AWESOME BFF (rob) capled me and told me that his twin (also my bff) was on the phone with Elly at like 4:30. I talked to elly for about 30 minutes at 5. The conversation was bitter sweet. Elly is still only thinking about going out with kevin *growles as i say that name* but i asked her why and she said "idk cuz i like him" and i almost lost it right there. but then I asked her "what about all the times that u went out with him before" and she was like "well last time we broke up cuz jasmine (girl from ellys school) lied to me about kevin and i got mad at him and he got mad at me and we broke up" I almost said "bullcrap" out liud. But i didnt, i just thought it. Then I told herthat i didnt want her to get heurt again and she was like "well if we break up again then i wont take it like i did last time. past time she was a MESS for like 3 weeks after they broke up) and i said "well why do u want to date him again?" and she was like "idk" and then i said "well if you dont know then y date him?" and she was like "idk just cuz" so the conversation was bitter sweet cuz we talked about other stuff like playing guitar and stuff but i found out that she is still planning on dating Kevin. Any suggestions on what to say next time I talk to her (which ciuld be in like 2-3 weeks for all i know)?

[CHRISTISLORD200]

sry for all the typos on that last post. I was rushing like j always do when I am typng a long post and I am using my touch and that makes it alot harder.

[CHRISTISLORD200]

OK so the reason I never get to talk to Elly like ever is because some guy texted her something pretty inappropriate and her mom saw the text and took Ellys phone away. Apparently Ellys mom was pretty pissed because she still hasn't given Elly her phone back............ anyways this guy that got Elly grounded is finally on facebook and I talked to him briefly but I had to go eat dinner and now he is idle.....WHOA he is back on..... I am talking to him about it now. I will post the conversation after it is over.......

[CHRISTISLORD200]

Jonathan
ok.......... so like do you understand why I doubt that you texted Elly more than just telling her that she is hot?

6:20pm
Colin
wait wat?

6:21pm
Jonathan
You said that you just texted elly telling her that she is hot
and that is what got her grounded
right?

6:22pm
Colin
and the part of txting like 3 or 4 days basically straight even all through school
im guessing you hate me and so does elysse............

6:23pm
Jonathan
......... Well I think you texted her a little bit more than just telling her that she is "hot"
and I do not HATE you...... but I am not gonna lie, I am pretty pissed right now. Until yesterday, I hadn't talked to Elly since that day that I talked to you last month
because she has been grounded. Because you "said she was hot"

6:25pm
Colin
thats why i feel like excuse my french but i feel like an ☺☺☺☺☺☺☺ and should excommunicate myself from you guys

6:26pm
Jonathan
Well I mean you cant really blame us
I mean maybe I would believe you if you hadn't lied to me when I asked you about it over the phone last month

6:28pm
Colin
i didnt lie i was still trying to find out myself then her mom txted me wat you said about inappropriteness and i tried finding out why but i couldnt remember anything worse than me caling he hot im serious........... i could look into wat could have been worse if you want
her*

6:30pm
Jonathan
do you have a habit of erasing your text messages? (sent and recieved?

6:31pm
Colin
no i have auto delete so i dont have to cuz my phones really stupid and fills up fast with memory

6:33pm
Jonathan
I am going to tell you Lauren Lelios (robs twin) exact words to me. It was the day that I called you that I heard this. She said (well its not exact but it was along the lines of) "Colin texted her something really bad. Like, related to stuff that you shouldn't be doing until after marriage"............ it was along the lines of that. Not that exactly, but that was basically it

6:34pm
Colin
thats wierd.........seriously let me go check on the internet through my phone

6:34pm
Jonathan
what do you mean check on the internet?

6:35pm
Colin
i can check my txts through a password on my phone from back then..... its wierd trust me

6:35pm
Jonathan
ok
do it then

6:35pm
Colin
h.o. let me go check

6:35pm
Jonathan
ok......
ill still be here when your done

6:38pm
Colin
i think i found it..... i called her sexy mb dude it was another point she said she was ugly......

6:38pm
Jonathan
mb?

6:39pm
Colin
my bad but in this case my really really really bad im srry

6:39pm
Jonathan
yeah........ do you understand why it is really hard for me to forgive you?

6:40pm
Colin
ya i never said you needed to its my fault like always its always my fault i feel so bad is there anything i can do to make you feel any better?

6:41pm
Jonathan
have you apologized to her?

6:42pm
Colin
how am i supposed to....can you for me that next time you talk t her and that i feel so bad and im srry that i ruined her life

6:42pm
Jonathan
YOU HAVENT APOLOGIZED?!?!?!

6:42pm
Colin
i did once
but it was very brief

6:43pm
Jonathan
well you are gonna have to do it again. I can not apologize for you. That is something you are gonna have to do.
and even if I wanted to apologize for you, I CANT BECAUSE SHE IS STILL GROUNDED

6:43pm
Colin
and i feel so bad that she deserves a true heartfelt appoligy but how....? i cant talk to her there is no means of communication
exactly why i cant
thats why i asked if you culd

6:44pm
Jonathan
well if you cant then how am I supposed to be able to?
maybe I could if she wasn't grounded

6:45pm
Colin
idk you said you talked to her the other day thats why i asked and dude im srry i understand your pissed

6:46pm
Jonathan
......... look, yesterday was a VERY RARE THING. I had called and left a message on her home phone like 2 weeks ago

6:47pm
Colin
o k

6:47pm
Jonathan
she sent me a message through facebook (she is still grounded but she had asked her mom if she could go on facebook and her mom said yes but she was over her shoulder the whole time she was on) on sunday night saying that she would call me
she didn't call me until yesterday

6:48pm
Colin
o kk

6:48pm
Jonathan
I could leave another message on her home phone...... but idk. I have already done it once so idk

6:50pm
Jonathan

so you are really sorry and you feel really bad about what you did?

6:50pm
Colin
YES!

6:50pm
Jonathan

.........

OK. I forgive you Colin

6:52pm
Jonathan

if I find out a way for you to apologize to Elly, then I will let you know.

6:53pm
Colin
thx dude

[CHRISTISLORD200]

Ok sorry for the really long post, but there was no other way that I could think of doing it.......

[6strings21frets]

Originally Posted by CHRISTISLORD200

Yes, he has a journal.

Feel free to call me Jonathan

His mum has a journal.
Jon? Or do you prefer Jonathan?

Originally Posted by CHRISTISLORD200

*insert really long conversation here*

Wow...am I the only person (other than you) who read the whole thing?
Why did you put that on here anyway?

Originally Posted by CHRISTISLORD200

Ok sorry for the really long post, but there was no other way that I could think of doing it.......

Attachment as a document?

[fenderguy962]

Ding dong knock knock doorbell whos there its LENNY!!!!!!!!!!!

So you started your journal up again, huh. Cool. How's life, mah brotha from anotha motha?

Originally Posted by 6strings21frets

His mum has a journal.
Jon? Or do you prefer Jonathan?

Wow...am I the only person (other than you) who read the whole thing?
Why did you put that on here anyway?

Attachment as a document?

I read it all.

[CHRISTISLORD200]

Ok well if you really DID read it all then you must know how my life is....... I have more drama going on right now than I have had going on in my entire life.......

[CHRISTISLORD200]

Oh and Liam, you can call me Jon or Jonathan, idc which.