darfaz

darfaz · 08-06-2008, 02:52 AM

The Unsexy:

Yeah I know. It's not cool. It's not sexy. No movies have been written about it. It's boring, old, and out of style. What is it you ask? Ah yes, the love between a Mommy and a Daddy.

Trust me, it is difficult. Our needs as humans don't change. We want to be accepted and loved, but now we must focus 99.999% of our attention to the next generation. Don't get me wrong. My daughter is incredible, and would steal your heart if you saw her. I love her more than I thought I could ever love another human. Howerver, I still feel the need to be accepted. And I know my wife feels the same way. On the one hand we feel this intense spiritual awakening; similar to what the Father must have felt like when the Son was begotten. On the other hand, its exhausting. As people we really don't live for others. Trust me, unless you're a parent you can't understand what it means to live for others. It's a Spirtual awakening, but its the most challenging thing I've ever encountered upon.

Demon_Hunter · 08-06-2008, 11:19 AM

Hello there.

You became a dad recently?

darfaz · 09-12-2008, 11:38 PM

Actually, my daughter is over a year old, and, praise be to God, my wife is expecting again. Again, becoming a father is a spiritual endevour. When one has a child for the first time, one receives all sorts of advice. The inclination is to say "Yeah, yeah, alrigh, I know, I get it". The truth is that you never get "It" until "it" is here. Then, It's revolutionary.

darfaz · 09-26-2008, 10:13 PM

So immature.

I'm not young, but my desires are so immature.

Last week I had a biopsy done on a growth on the top of my mouth. Praise be to God, it was not malignant, and everything seems to be ok. A normal person wouldn't be overly concerned with such a situation, but I was quite concerned. You see, for various times in my youth, I smoked and chewed tobacco. When my dentist noticed the growth, I thought for certain that I had developed cancer for my use of such carcinogens in the past. Before the results were determined, I engaged in the typical practice of bargaining, pleading, and compromising with Him. I thought for sure, I would never do something like smoking again. However, as I ponder here, I wonder if I really will refuse a cigar the next time one of my "friends" offers me one. It sounds "so immature," but I have a terrible time saying no.

darfaz · 10-03-2008, 10:32 PM

Getting pinched.

I know we're all rich. I mean seriously, if you're reading this, then you're probably rich. You have a computer (or at least access to one), you have electricity, and you have the time to sit around and find this nonsense that I'm writing. That's not what I'm talking about. I'm aware of the blessings I've received, but in this election year, things are highlighted in a way that they are not usually. For example, if you're a middle class American (such as myself), then you're getting pinched. I mean, nobody gives a crap about you. You're not 'poor' enough to get any handouts or free lunches, and your not rich enough to have the means to support yourself or overcome any long-term financial adversity. The term 'paycheck to paycheck' is often thrown around to describe indebted working class Americans, but the truth is that most of us are paycheck to paycheck-meaning that we are reliant upon something more stable and permanent than ourselves, this being God. Some of you may really know what I'm talking about, but until you go through 'it,' its difficult to descibe. How many of us consciously rely on God for our needs? Not in the idea that we pray and thank God for what we have, but where we are on our knees praying for God to provide a meal to feed out family, or the money we need to pay the light bill. It's actually quite liberating to put trust and confidence in God and his provision-if you truly belive. He will provide what you need. It sounds cliché, and I know that saying "It sounds cliché" sounds cliché, but whatever.

darfaz · 10-03-2008, 10:42 PM

with my chrome to the side of his White Sox cap.

Two posts in one night. This sounds sad and pathetic, but some of my most "caring" and "wanting" moments have come from watching White Sox baseball on TV. I have had incredible and passionate desires for the White Sox to win every single game since I became a fan in 1983. The reality is, that if I was even 5% as passionate for God as I have been for the bipolar and temporal White Sox, then I would be leading like 1000 people to Christ a year. My priorities have been retarded. I want the passion for Christ and for others that I have had for the White Sox. I hope and pray that I will have it.

Oh yeah, and that's my 100th post. So it took like 4 years. So what.

**dogfood** · 11-29-2008, 02:04 AM

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Originally Posted by darfaz

with my chrome to the side of his White Sox cap.

Two posts in one night. This sounds sad and pathetic, but some of my most "caring" and "wanting" moments have come from watching White Sox baseball on TV. I have had incredible and passionate desires for the White Sox to win every single game since I became a fan in 1983. The reality is, that if I was even 5% as passionate for God as I have been for the bipolar and temporal White Sox, then I would be leading like 1000 people to Christ a year. My priorities have been retarded. I want the passion for Christ and for others that I have had for the White Sox. I hope and pray that I will have it.

hi neighbour... [D]....
i totally agree, and that is a good prayer to pray.
if everyone had the same passion . the world would be a different place
i want the same for me.

jthomas1600 · 11-29-2008, 10:38 AM

Getting pinched

Ain't that the truth. Not poor enough for hand outs not rich enough to take advantage of loopholes. At least there are no tax brackets in the spiritual realm.

darfaz · 06-13-2009, 04:28 PM

I don't post here alot because I have two small children at home, but in a rare evening of time to myself last night, I saw Phil Keaggy in concert. Watching someone like Phil Keaggy play guitar does either two things for you- either you want to practice hard so you can be like him, or you want to quit. I think I"m in the latter category because, man it was incredible.

darfaz · 07-23-2009, 12:56 PM

Nonsensical advertising.

I can understand false advertising or misleading advertising. I know that everyone is out there just to get a buck and make a dollar out of fifteen cents. But nonsensical advertising just dumbfounds me. You see, there is this video store near my place of residence called Family Video. I'm not sure how widespread their locations are, but I know they are in at least a couple of states in the Midwest. For years I thought Family Video was a more wholesome alternative to video rentals than, say, a Blockbuster. They always had kids movies free, they didn't seem to have as many "raunchy" movies, and they were competitively priced. Man, was I wrong. A few months ago, the Family Video near my house changed their store layout, and as I was browsing up and down the aisle, I noticed an entire "Adult Video" section. Now this section must be pretty big because the space it used to occupy was huge ( I didn't go in, obviously). That brings me to my issue. Why do they bother calling it "Family Video" if it clearly isn't geared towards the family. I know it could be argued that there is something for everyone in the family, including the pornography addicted adolescent, but seriously now. In fact, come to think of it, I despise anything labeled as family. Family Christian Stores, Family Express gas station, Family Harvest Church (Sorry if your church has "family" in it), Focus on the Family. I think it is just nonsensical to call something Family, when the focus is really not on the Family.

darfaz · 10-15-2009, 09:07 PM

Don't get me wrong. I can't stand Michael Vick. I've always thought him to be overrated by the mainstream sports media, I've never thought him to play particularly well for the NFL, and what he did to dogs was inexcusable.

However, to those silly fringe animal rights groups: Put your stupid signs away and go find something productive to do with your time. Go help out or volunteer at an animal shelter if you are so concerned with animal rights. But don't go protesting everytime this athlete comes to town. He paid his dues. He went to jail. He was punished. He does not deserve to be protested against for something that he has done his time for. What else do you want?