Interpreting Novel Thought Paradigms

slap_j · 02-23-2009, 06:20 PM

Four point seven? Where do you buy your clocks?

athanatos · 02-23-2009, 11:07 PM

Walmart or Meijer. The interpreter is the odd one.

athanatos · 03-01-2009, 02:20 PM

I am being driven sane. There's a lot that's making me want to attach to reality. Last night, I was being really normal, yet I was having a lot of fun. It was so weird. It is like my old New Year's resolution (to be normal) has unintentionally come back to me in a different way. Should I fear normality as mediocrity, or embrace change for stability?

I have homework and other responsible things I need to do.

athanatos · 03-02-2009, 12:16 PM

I have always been an odd one, and every now and then I think about how I might lose my "child-like wonder" or to some extent my sense of humor. I make a lot of jokes that people don't find funny, and I notice and am interested by seemingly esoteric things. For example, when I was in a coffee house, I was inspecting the fake fireplace and seeing how they could have made it or how I might reproduce it (without spending hundreds of dollars, which is what they sell for).

But this one evening, I have felt normal. Around most friends, I am rather energetic, random and (for lack of a better word) imaginative. Around a select few others, I am just laid-back and analytic, calm and collected. This is how I am around her, yet not losing my inclination to explore. Psychologically, I would like to know what is going on: am I just trying to be respectable? Or am I just being more reserved and careful? Perhaps I am putting on a show, acting normal even though it is atypical (irony!), so that she may like me more. (not that playing that role is a bad habit!)

Regardless, the evening went even better than the week before, I believe. We talked longer, we were more comfortable, and we laughed a lot more. Our jaws hurt and stomachs were tight. Can't be bad at all.

I never got those responsible activities, those aforementioned, done until this morning. So lazy!

athanatos · 03-10-2009, 01:26 PM

Well, let's try some prophecy. (or maybe explanation)

She's found a grad school in a different state, and she will be moving there as soon as possible after she graduates. Since I have mentioned my desire to stay in-state (admittedly not that strong or earnest) she is hesitant to call me and let me know she was accepted -- because it would mean dropping what we just started or inconveniencing me if we kept it going -- and while that is a celebration for her, it is perceived as a downer for me.

I hope my prognostication is as predicative as that of a 7-day forecast given by a Michigan weatherman.

athanatos · 03-19-2009, 09:17 PM

Tonight I spoke in front of the college group for the second time. First was on hope, tonight was on faith. PHEW! Next time, I will need to prepare twice as long. I felt like I did relatively horrible. My dad was even there. ...the heck?

Ich habe deutsche Hausaufgaben zu machen.

Und neulich hat die Frau meine Angst geworfen. Warum hab' ich Angst? Hab' ich so kleine Glauben?

athanatos · 03-21-2009, 01:39 PM

I played DDR for about 45 minutes before going to work. I broke a sweat playing a game, then I went to "work" and now I sit on my duff. Sigh.

athanatos · 04-05-2009, 10:30 PM

I really, really want to be a follower for a while. I am quite tired of this organizing, encouraging, and correcting people business. It's getting very taxing, and I'm seeing only discouragement it seems. A break would be really helpful too. I'd like to be legitimately lazy for a while, and then get under the wing of a visionary.

Chrysostom · 04-06-2009, 10:18 PM

How did things turn out with her?

And, by the way, if you two want to get married I might know of a decent school near where she will be (if you tell me where she will be).

athanatos · 04-08-2009, 12:20 AM

We're finding that the end of the semester is making it hard to find time to gether together*, due to papers and tests and presentations and research and jobs. Aside from that, quite jolly. I am trying to be patient.

* we have been reduced to walking at 7am in the morning a couple of times

athanatos · 05-06-2009, 01:16 PM

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Originally Posted by athanatos

We're finding that the end of the semester is making it hard to find time to gether together*, due to papers and tests and presentations and research and jobs. Aside from that, quite jolly. I am trying to be patient.

* we have been reduced to walking at 7am in the morning a couple of times

Hey athanatos, do you know when you'll see her next?

athanatos · 05-06-2009, 01:17 PM

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Originally Posted by athanatos

Hey athanatos, do you know when you'll see her next?

Probably tomorrow morning. Unfortunately, that's going to be the last time I'll see her, in all likelihood. She's moving back up north for the summer, then to North Carolina in the Fall. I'm not going to do either.

athanatos · 05-06-2009, 01:18 PM

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Originally Posted by athanatos

Probably tomorrow morning. Unfortunately, that's going to be the last time I'll see her, in all likelihood. She's moving back up north for the summer, then to North Carolina in the Fall. I'm not going to do either.

Bummer man. I know how you feel, though. But of course there's more fish in the sea.