[segoviamuse]

Journaling seems like the cool thing now a days. eh?
I will probably be one of the first Canadians you'll meet that admits they use 'eh' too much. It makes any statement a question without rearranging it.

I thought I would start with my username. The meaning behind it. To some it could be obvious, but I'm sure the majority just don't care! Anyways, Segovia. Segovia would be the make of my newest acoustic guitar. Its a beauty compared to my old one. I was going through a time where i didn't play guitar so much. But that has ended now. Thank goodness., because I'm going to Bible College in September and I'm minoring in music. I'm majoring in Global ministry and minoring in children's ministry and music. In hopes that I can become a missionary some day. That has been what God has been wanting me to do. But I kept ignoring him and wanting to find something more convenient, acceptable, and with a better salary haha .
The Muse part of my username is probably the most obvious part if you've heard of this awesome band. It is definably my favorite band. I am very familiar with christian music... but I don't listen to a lot anymore. I worked at a christian radio station for almost a year, and I was a huge fan of Christian music when i started there. Maybe I just got sick of it. who knows. but i still listen to some. Ive been liking bands like Rush, and Dream Theater. But that doesnt make me any less a christian!

I'll save my issues for another day. Feel free to comment no matter how short or long.

[The Phantom Mullet]

Hello! First post in your journal! And don't worry about the 'eh' thing..... It isn't any worse than most Hawaiian's use of the word 'yeah.'

[segoviamuse]

I spent a lot of time thinking this morning. Every once in awhile i do that. But anyways, I was thinking that maybe this journal/blog thing could actually be a good thing for me. I don't tell anyone my problems. Or not even half of them. I see a councilor once in while, and hes really good at what he does, but I can't seem to open up to him and tell him certain things.

I am 18 years old. A female but I'm sure thats obvious. I'm sure theres got to be at least one person on here that knows me, but oh well.

[RK_lover]

Wow.....I'm sorry

I hope it helps to talk about it though....and it's amazing how positive you are now about it all.


Btw, I just listened to Muse ("Starlight")....very good stuff!

[segoviamuse]

I'm think I should make this journal more positive actually. I'm not sure why I seem postive, but thats okay. This is me positive..
School was cancelled today!!!!! yea for living in Canada. I hate snow.. but this is great. It kind of sucked cause I forgot the number to check to see if it was cancelled and just ended up getting up and going to catch the bus. I thought I missed it, but I didnt find out until later that it was because there was no school, so I wasted a morning I could have use to sleep in. And I booked today off work cause today is a busy day usually, cause of pioneers, But since school is cancelled then so is pioneers. So nothing. I tried to sleep and it didn't work. I ended up just hanging out with my mom all day being bored and watching movies. I played guitar for an hour or so and I went to the store.
Its really weird havinga lazy day cause usually I'm going to school, working fulltime and volunteering at church. I'm so used to being busy. I'm only upgrading courses. I'm taking English, Media Productioon and World Issues. I love world issues, i dont know why I didn't take it before. But I hate high school. I'm not sure why i'm going. Its awesome seeing all my friends that are graduating this year more often. But my other friends are all in university. Cant wait to go to College in september!

Big Brother tonight!

[RK_lover]

Just to let you know, if you ever need to vent again it's perfectly alright

Doesn't sound like a bad day....although I bet it is pretty odd.
What exactly do you talk about in World Issues? Just current events in general? Or broader topics?

[segoviamuse]

Originally Posted by RK_lover

Doesn't sound like a bad day....although I bet it is pretty odd.
What exactly do you talk about in World Issues? Just current events in general? Or broader topics?

Any sort of issue in the world. An issue is something that affects someone, or people. We read the newspaper which is not something I actually do haha but its cool. we talk about anything important that happened lately. We talk about political leaders, famine, deaths, health, oil, water etc. Did you see that commercial about water going to be as precious as Gold in the future? Probably not. Cause its probably only in Canada. But its interesting. And my teacher asked me to do a short presentation on Bolivia haha. not credit of course so im not putting any effort into it. Only cause I went there.

[segoviamuse]

NO school again today? what has this world come to? haha seriously? im mean canada of course. No where else gets this many days off as far as a i know. Its not even snowing. I think its cause the roads are bad, but they said something about janitors? strange. Well I got work tonight. exciting.
still missing my ex hardcore.... :'(

[segoviamuse]

definatly failed to mention that its Valentines Day?!!!! oh my goodness! Well its just as exciting as it is every year. I worked! while all my friends went out with their bf and gf . I have had a few bfs.. but for some reason i have never had a bf on Valentines Day? I like it that way. I only want memories of Valentines Day with one guy. And I'm not really into all this romance stuff. I will for sure be into it one day.. but not anytime soon. And i think there are about 1 billion hearts in my friends msn names. whats with that? seriously. i used to express my self through my msn name .. but really i have better things to do with my time then to state "I LOVE SO AND SO SOOO MUCH!" ♥ and then the next week there is a different name... come on.... we have so much time to find someone .. don't rush it or waste your time with someone unless .. you know its worth it. And know the difference between loving the idea of a guy and actually loving a guy. your going to break a few hearts my friend "loving the idea'" you'll figure it out. I hate what relationships have come to now a day. and i'm sure God doesnt like it either. And wait until yoour married to have sex! and make babies. i swear some people today believe tthat having a baby is the next step in a relationship.. not engagment or marriage. people dont have very muc hself control now a days. sorry if I offend any one. its easy to fall... but with God , you can have the strength and Grace to be pure. I just sounded really preachy. but oh well. I should put in my msn name I love God♥ he's supposed to be number one right?

[segoviamuse]

yay i found a dream theater fan!!!!

[Species8472]

Originally Posted by segoviamuse

we have so much time to find someone .. don't rush it or waste your time with someone unless .. you know its worth it.

I think you've hit the nail on the head. Sometimes it seems a lot of the guys in my dorm just have girlfriends for the sake of having a girlfriend ... they don't seem to care as much about having a meaningful, God-centered relationship as they do about just 'hooking up' with someone.

Hello, by the way. I'm Dave.

[segoviamuse]

Hi Dave. Thanks for posting. I knew that I couldn't be the only one who is bothered by all this. ha.

[segoviamuse]

I'm Glad to have found a Rush Fan Today. Actually extremely happy.
Today I am tired. I worked a lot. I worked a closing shift yesterday and then I had to be up and back at work for 11 and I worked until 6. and I have to work tomorrow. Unfortunately I have to skip church . My Boss asked me if I wanted to come in tomorrow 12-6, and I said I'm not sure If I could make it that early. And then he gave me a look haha, as if I was either too lazy to wake up that early, or that I'd be partying so hard tonight that I would be hungover. bhaha. boy does he got me wrong. Look at me! on the computer.. and then I'm going to do laundry, try to read.. but I'll probably end up playing guitar... like i usually do.

I'm kind of angry at myself cause it took my a while to tune my guitar yesterday, I haven't tune for a long time.. as I mentioned before I haven't really played much guitar,, but I got a new guitar,.. so things are great between me and my guitar. Maybe my other one feels left out, But I need to give him new strings first. Wow I'm talking about my guitar as iff they are people. What can I say , I love them. So yeah it took me a long time. My ear is as great as it use to be. I might need a tuner to do me over until my ears can tune. I'm disappointed.
My life is boring. I need something exciting. This year was great starting in October... until the new year started. Then it went down hill. Not I'm just busy.

On the plus side, I smell like freshly baked bread. .okay not really a plus.

And also i need some advice. I found out the other day that a girl that my ex know shas a huge crush on him. But i'm sure he wouldn't go for her. shes too young for him. . and shes pretty obnoxious. He is a mellow guy, and thats what I miss about him. I miss everything about him. We completed each other , ha.. that sounds really cheesy. I miss him singing to me, jokingly .. old love songs while we were on the phone like "you'll never know dear how much I love you, please dont take my sunshine away" I miss when he would tell me these things that were just stupid,,, but its cool cause I do that too apparently. And I miss his family... I miss his mom's brownies.. I miss our talks.. he always made me feel so special,, but not in a overly cheesy way... hes words were real, and from his heart. Once he said "its not going to be long before we both realize that either of us are going anywheres" I mean i've been hurt before.. i was scared to completly trust him.. i was only giving him half my heart until further in.. when he said stuff like that. It just felt so right, and that God really wanted us together. And our relationship wasnt overly lovey dovey like the relationships you see today in high school. it was real. we truly loved each other. And I knew what he wanted before he asked for it.. and he knew what i was thinking too. We were so close... and truly in love. I don't know whether I should fight for him or not.. cause I am a really passive person its not in my character to question of complain, just comply. But maybe it would be worth it..... do I have anyhting to lose? I dont even know .... :'(

[segoviamuse]

I need everyone to pray !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my friend is planning on killing herself at 7:30 tomorrow night!! :'( Please everyone... i dont want her to kill herself. i'm doing what I can to convince her not to, but shes tried before and I dont want her to die :'( :'( please.........

[RK_lover]

I'm praying