[segoviamuse]

Originally Posted by SarahTheGuitarist

Muse is such a great band.

you've heard of muse?!! thats awesome! i dont know very many people who have heard them.. but they are my favorite band so its a little weird.

yeah.. i dont know my life is a little messed right now.. someone that I used to work with wanted to hook me and his friend up cause he thought that we'd be really cute together or something cause we listen to the same music.. and and we are fairly similar in a lot of ways. so i said that i would meet him or what notif my friend could come with me. a girl that I trust to keep me safe. and the guy i was being set up with ended up liking me friend who is like a complete oposite of me.which sucks cause i actually started to like him...
and ive liked this guy i work with for awhile... and he always forgets my friends name (that works with us too) he only remembers my name.. but he seem to also be more interested in her then me... which really sucks... it makes me sad cause everyone keeps choosing her. usually it wouldnt really bother me... but its obvious that they like her for different reasons then personality and looks...

[segoviamuse]

i met a boy tonight. at church. and i like him... but there are some problems there.
hes in recovery right now... so i think i would probably wait before I would ever go out with him.

But things were awesome tonight. i was playing guitar, and he came over and talked to me.. (i notice that he was cute already.. earlier during the service ) and we talked and stuff, and my friend told me i couldn't flirt with him cause hes in recovery and it would play with his brain... and temptation.. and reck his recovery and stuff... so i stopped but i was really disappointed.. cause i started to like him already.. cause he played me this worship song he wrote.. .and obviously.. a good looking guy loving God is completly attractive... especially if he plays guitar and hes nice. so then my friend felt bad cause i was bummed out for awhile abotu it... so she got me and this guy to go for a walk.. and it was really awesome... i found out that he is really on fire for God... and that he's got this great plan... and we connected ... he was very sweet to me... but i dont wanna mess up his recovery... and one of my friends said that also if i start going out with him before his recovery is complete and if he starts up again.. then i will hurt myself...

[segoviamuse]

my journal is dying. but i guess i was letting it die by not posting in it.
another st. patricks day gone and past.... i wasted most of it on the computer and i worked tonight. it was an easy close .. we were out really early. subway is a good place to work i must say. lots of laugh. A girl that i work with said came in and tracey said it was onnly them two working ,.. .and she said she cried out my name ALLLIIII cause she didn't want to have to close without me hahaha. so my manager called me up and we made tracey go home early bahha were evil hahha. it was cause karissa didn't go to work. anyways.. it was a good night .. me and the new girl mel who cried out my name lol ... we are so random.. we singing realy loud and freakishly emotional. kind of like jacob hoggard from hedley haha but with more moving of the body and not just the face... ha.. and we were singing out the song for the nights i cant remember and Seize the day by avenged sevenfold cause i plugged in my ipod into the speakers ... goodtimes

i believe in cheap posting in my journal... cause i really dont have anything interesting to talk about.. but i'm hoping to hear soon from this guy i like.. i may have to wait until sunday..unless he stops by work. apparently he wants to jam with me sometime. I'm not quite sure whether thats a pick up line or what guys say when they want to chill out with their dude friends.. in that case i would be offended.

let me know if you've actually used that line before "we should jam" when they like a girl that plays guitar. cause i've gotten that before. im not really sure what that was ..

[segoviamuse]

but its better then not talking. i guess.
i think this makes the 4 post talking to myself.
I'm going to have some bubble gum icecream and then come back...

apparently its sherbert, but its still good. i'm cheap posting in my own journal, how sad is that.

but anyways.. the whole thing with the guy i like is falling through cause there is another guy that likes me. and he got my number first and asked me out. i said i would hang out with him sometime... but i dont know. cause i really like the other guy. and that guy that called me told me that the guy i like was going to ask me out but didn't really get a chance to. and he hasn't called me yet....but i'm oging to wait on God's timing ...I'll going to continueing going to my friends church sunday nights and all, i'm just going to have to do my best not to flirt. maybe they'll forget.

its good friday. 2:44am

[RK_lover]

Hi, sorry I haven't posted here in a while!

I'll pray for you about the whole situation....that sounds really complicated

So, what's your dream career? Where would you like to live if you could live anywhere in the world?

[Ordinary Sarah]

Phew. That sounds complicated for sure. I guess just wait and see what happens... it could go against your expectations.


Your drawings up there are awesome. You are quite teh talented.

[segoviamuse]

Originally Posted by RK_lover

Hi, sorry I haven't posted here in a while!

I'll pray for you about the whole situation....that sounds really complicated

So, what's your dream career? Where would you like to live if you could live anywhere in the world?

hi, thanks for the prayers... its difficult when you really like someone, but you know you can't be with them. .it would be selfish of me to persue anything.

My dream career,,, hmm... well God wants me to be a missionary (part time or full time I have no clue) and I love doing what God wants me to do. But I always wanted to be a sound engineer or a music producer, i love the whole music studio atmosphere etc. but those dreams arent really much of dreams anymore.. If my dream of being a missionary becomes part time, or I cant work at some sort of foundation in Canada then I would like to become a massage therapist on the side.

Phew. That sounds complicated for sure. I guess just wait and see what happens... it could go against your expectations.


Your drawings up there are awesome. You are quite teh talented.

thanks i actually havent drawn in a long time. It not really huge on my passion list. But thats okay.. its one of things i like doing once in awhile.


I would like to talk about something God has really placed on my heart lately. I've been hanging out with my good friends friends from church.. including the guy I like that hasnt been around though. And I find that one of them is really judging... he called me a half christian. And I was really offended because I love God me then anything. and I fellowship, Ive just done things I shouldn't have. And I really think I should confront this guy because you're supposed to leave the judging up to God, instead of making me feel really bad about myself. And its to the point where my friend says she is not a christian, because she drinks. She feels bad holding the christian name, and poorly representing it... which I completly understand. But I don't think I could ever deny God again. without God I am nothing.
If our religion was determined by our sins none of us would be christians. cause we are all sinners. and all sins are equal in the eyes of God.. God is such a forgiving God. because jesus died on the cross my sins are forgiven when I repent. i feel i have been forgiven for my sins.

[segoviamuse]

i havent edited it yet.. and it doesnt flow yet.. but the idea of the song is there. or maybe it will only flow as a song.. kind of came up with a tune.

Take me to the sea
Where time is measured in waves
Let the sun shine so bright
I close my eyes and take it in
The wind will blow through my hair
And my arms will lift to try and fly.

Take my hand and bring me there
You know my heart longs to soar
Where you always wanted me to be
And where you always are
Where the orphans cry for love and safety
And the widows are broken and mourn

[C]You know where my heart belongs
It has always belonged to you
Ohhh take me there, take me there
And I’ll fall to my knees.

Someday I’ll fly
And breathe the earth nomore
I’ll see orphans as sons and daughters
And widows as wives.
I’ll see smiles and praise
And never a tear of pain.

[segoviamuse]

I cant write but for some reason this kind of came out of no where. and as I was writing these words i felt a melody as well, which I'm going to work on when I have time. It takes a lot of concentration for me to tackle something like this, which dont come very often.
When I was in school I never did my homework for these sort of things, i just couldnt concentrate and it frustrated me so I always gave up.

something really strange has happened to me lately. i dont know if i can even say it...... i started listening to rap.....oh my goodness.... if you knw me you'd know that this was really unlike me... I always liked group 1 crew but i never really listened to it much.. i ahve their cd. but now i ve been listening to them and adding secular rap to this playlist... like eminem and akon... ha... this is strange.

bad news about the guy... he kind of disappeared.. and no one knows where he went. please pray for him, i'm worried about him, ..

[DaGeek]

Rap... Eeeeehhhh... Heh. Not a fan . Whatever floats your boat, though! Good luck on the melody, I can say I've been there/done that/got the t-shirt, and it's a fun but frustrating process.


That sucks to hear about the guy . He's in my prayers.

[segoviamuse]

finally paul. geeeeez

Easter! everyone has been saying "he has risen!" its kind of a little annoying. i'm really happy about it and all, but yeah. The service today was awesome. A little girl at my church probably grade 4 i dont know, maybe grade 5, gahh, anyways sh say worthy is the lamb and it was so beautiful i cried. shes got a beautiful voice

going out again. im hoping that he comes to see me tonight at the service , but who knows...

[DaGeek]

Originally Posted by segoviamuse

finally paul. geeeeez

Easter! everyone has been saying "he has risen!" its kind of a little annoying. i'm really happy about it and all, but yeah. The service today was awesome. A little girl at my church probably grade 4 i dont know, maybe grade 5, gahh, anyways sh say worthy is the lamb and it was so beautiful i cried. shes got a beautiful voice

going out again. im hoping that he comes to see me tonight at the service , but who knows...

Well, I like to be fashionably late .

How'd the service go?

[segoviamuse]

the service on sunday went great , it was kind of weird not being involved in it but it was okay. the kids did a lot in the service and it was a bit longer then it normally is. i was sort of suprised there was no communion. it felt like the perfect time to have communion.

i think the girl i dont like is getting fired for sure now. she was reduced from full time hours to only 2 shifts next week.and because she doesnt have any hours she was soooo cranky tonight. for attitude (which is normal for her) she said if or manager continues to make the schedule like that , she is going to take his subway hat and shove it up his butt. a little bit more derogatory then that , but i chose to us better wording.

this is my lucky month. i have another day off! I'm going to go get a cell phone tomorrow. someone at my work is going to co-sign for me. cause i wont be 19 for another couple of months . haha paul i getting a phone!!! haha i'm not going to be involved in the teenage cell phone obsession.. but it will be nice to be able to text. once in awhile... . ahhaha

today was a good day for me and God. haha... i just felt him reasuring me that im still worth his love, and that he loves me for doing his will, and so many things,.. it just felt so awesome to feel God's love today.. and it was such a nice day out i think the snow is melting a little bit. and the sun was really bright.. so before work I listened to some worship songs and looked up at the beautiful sky... i know that sounds cheesy but it felt so good... i loved it. im trying to do that bible in a year thing this year... i stopped for like a month so i have a bit to catch up to. it makes me feel accountable will i dont read the bible.. so it helps me try to read everyday..

im going to end this with the lyrics to take my life by third day. i'm praying that God takes my life cause i have a hard to just handing it him.. when i get tempted and doubt him and everything. but i am extremly blessed by God the least thing i can do is to give him the only thing that he wants from me is my life.

How many times have I turned away
The number is the same as the sand on the shore
But every time You've taken me back
And now I pray You do it once more.

Chorus:
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You Jesus

How many times have I gone astray
The number is the same as the stars in the sky
But every time You've taken me back
And now I pray You do it tonight.

-Alli

[DaGeek]

Hurray for cranky coworkers? I can see why she was upset (I would be, too), but, if she's a bad worker, oh well, you know? Hopefully that'll work out well .

Ha, congrats on the phone! I'm guessing Canada's a bit different from the U.S... You only have to be 18 here to do pretty much any legal stuff (except drink alcohol and rent cars...). And I definitely love days where I can feel God's love so clearly!

[segoviamuse]

I got a LG chocolate flip phone by the way i put music on it today. its cool. already textin
g a lot lol

so note is what they call these on facebook . i guess it a survey thing i stole from Paul.

Age - 18
Booze - underaged
Career - for a sub artist. but i'm hopefully going to be some sort of missionary humanitarian
Dad’s name - Kelvin
Essential items to bring to a party - a guitar of course, and car so you can leave if the party gets dumb.
Favorite song at the moment - hmmm.... a lot of songs. not really one in particular, may be "Our Song" by Taylor swift or stockholme syndrome by muse, and drops of jupiter by train.. and my all time favorite song is when the children cry by seventhday slumber
Gee, there is no G. - well geeeeeez
Hometown - too cold
Instrument you play - i play acoustic guitar, i can get by on piano if i practice a little, and i play flute, and i know how to play a few other instruments...
Jam or Jelly you like - strawberry jam
Kids - i think i'll have like 12 , haha nahhh however many god blesses me with
Living arrangement - mom+brother
Mom’s name - crazy long
Names of kids - hmm, my future ones? some biblical , some unique but not too unique.
Overnight hospital stays - tooo many.. i spent the first few years of my life in the hospital and many since.
P is for Phobias - siemese cats, dead animals, fish, loud noises scare the crap out of me like continuous ones, and divorce is huge .
Quote you like - Psalm 63 ( im going to make you look it up) , and i like funny things that my pastor says, and other people .. dunno . i like this quote but i dont remember who said it "i'm sick of following my dreams, im just going to ask them where they are going and catch up with them later."
Relative you like most - the imaginary ones.
Siblings - my brother 22 going to be 23 in april .
T -- Transylvania? ☺☺☺lip
Unique trait -
Vegetable you love - cucombers
Worst trait - im not always the best at keeping secrets
X-Rays you’ve had - too many. 9 when i broke my arm. some lung ones, mouth ones, and more when i was younger
Yummy food you make -KD .. lol jk. i dont make KD. i like to make thai food, random pastas, i like baking cakes too.
Zodiac sign - geminiiiiiiiiiii (zero point for that other then for a z)

Lasts:
Last movie - the five people you meet in heaven. which i strongly recomend
Last beverage drank - shirley temple.
Last food eaten - donair
Last phone call - kayla i think
Last shower - today
Last CD played - absolution - muse
Last website visited - www.christianguitar.org/forums or facebook

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Single or taken - Single
What do you miss? - kinship and love
Hair color - Brown
Eye color - greeen
What makes you sad? - my kids in south america and the kids in africa.. kids anywhere really that live below living standards.. and they arent safe.... :'( and it makes me sad that people support monoculture. gooo organic people
Are you happy? - i appreciate my life yes. but i'm really feeling excited about it at the moment, im too tired to be happy.
Do you want your friends to fill this out, too? - sure why not
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