[segoviamuse]

I'm falling asleep. But I unfortunately need to stay awake. The girl that wanted to kill herself, i hung out with her today.. and i found out that she is being abuse, really bad.. and i told my mother, and so she has decided to take her in here.. she is going to call social services tomorrow. But I need to walk soon to go meet her. I would have been asleep hours ago. I am exhausted.. I wont be able to have a good sleep for awhile cause I wake up at 6 and dotnt get home until closer to 10pm. I dont know if I'm going to be able to do this. Especially with her living here. Its going to be a lot of work.

[RK_lover]

I'm praying for her, and for you....

[segoviamuse]

Okay. It took me like 10 mins to find this thread. gah. haha.
Anyways, a lot has happened in the past few days. The girl I was talking about, I found out that she was being abused. So my mom offered to take her in. And me and her became like sisters. it was awesome. But she had a horrible social worker!!!!! arg. They didn't have enough "proof", and she was rude! She made her and her mom get together. and she said "you know you have to go home. " and she said no... she didnt want to go home. and then she said " so your mom beats you you say." right next to her mom. so she is obviously going to say no because she has to go home. she doesnt want her mom to hit her more because of it. so she was forced to go home today. and her mom made her pay almost 100 dollars in groceries... and shes not paying her back. and then her mom went out and got drunk. her mom is an alcoholic. I believe that she is being abused my her mother. I can see it in her eyes,,, i can see it when she cries. .. and my heart breaks for her. SO I had all this added to my normal stress of going to school (upgrading) and working fulltime. so i work almost everynight right after school until close.. and then by the time i got home it was 10-1030, and then it took them a few hours everyday to fill me in on everything that happened that day with her with the social worker and stuff. Oh and i forgot to say that her aunt is really scary! she kept coming into my work and harassing me.. and i was scared to go anywheres, and i got harassed at school by a girl whos mom is best friends with her mom. they got in my face .. and i doont deal with that good. And today when i came home after 11 i came home to my brother here........... .crap. .And i had a test in all my subjects in two days. I'm over tired, and i need sleep. So I'm going to have to go. And also my mom is going to try to re-open the case if she wants her too. cause we have more evidence now. people that will testify that her mom is an alchie and make the social worker meet her aunt. she is physcho! i am really scared of her......

[segoviamuse]

Yeah the internet was disconnected for awhile. And I've been uber busy . Still going to shcool and working full-time. But i think i'm going to drop out of school cause my job is more important right. In case you're just reading this, and this sounds bad.. I already graduated.. and my mom made me go back to high school to upgrade and prepare for college. But my marks are bad cause I work so much.and I need to work cause i need a car. i need driving school, i need a lap top for college. etc.

The girl that was staying with me was forced to move back with her mom. I think I already said that. but I strongly dislike her social worker!! grr,

Today was a really cold day. I went to this awesome restaurant for lunch. its a vegetarian retaurant. and it was awesome. i'm going back on monday. its really cheap and good. And I got a master of puppets tshirt to add to my awesome collection of band shirts. ha. Life is great.

Funny story, this guy at work okay.. one day someone acused him of liking me. well the thing is we are both flirty people.. and i'm sure he is the same way with other girls. i dont think he likes me. and i told my manager about what happen .. and i was telling him how things arent even awkward with that. so for some reason he decided to tell him that i like him. I honnestly did not say i liked him. nor do i think i like him. but hes cool. he likes rush. but he is kind of preppy. and he's hot. i have to admit. so my manager also thinks that this guy likes me but he wont tell me how "this guy" responded when he told him i like him. but he said that he really thinks that "this guy" likes me. weirdness. dont know what to do about that.

and ive been stupidly dating this guy that told me he loved me once at work (different guy from my old job). but i had a bf at the time. it would be awesome if God could just keep guys away for a little while. ive been leading this guy on a little bit and i shouldnt do that considering he likes me so much and i dont like him.

well i'm tired. i'll probably update you (whoever actually reads this) this weekend or so. i got a busy weekend ahead of me.

[segoviamuse]

well i dont really have much to say. since nobody reads this anyways.
accept that its march break. so thats cool. but i have to work everyday and read hamlet. fun.

[bradguitarbeast]

Originally Posted by segoviamuse

I need everyone to pray !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my friend is planning on killing herself at 7:30 tomorrow night!! :'( Please everyone... i dont want her to kill herself. i'm doing what I can to convince her not to, but shes tried before and I dont want her to die :'( :'( please.........

oh my word..I will pray for her.I know what is like to be where she is.maybe not the same situation but the same desire to be dead.is she a christian?thats when I stopped all that.when I became one.

[segoviamuse]

She improved so much when she was living with me. But I was with her today, and shes slipping back into her old ways. And her mom tried to put her in the hospital ..although her mom doesn't doesn't know that she wanted to kill herself. but she has cuts all over her wrists.
I'm really sure if I can classify her as a christian. when she was younger she was involved with a local ministry called new life missions. i know the owner. and she went to pioneers at a baptist chuirch for awile. and right now shes being confirmed at a catholic church. and i asked her about it and she says she doesnt care about religion cause its boring and stuff.

Today and yesterday it snowed a lot. and they closed the mall early last night at 7 and they closed it today. we have a lot of snow! i had to walk to church today and it took me 50 minutes rather then 15 mins. haha then i went to work but it was closed. SO i went and hung out with sarah on her break.
And my friend candace is sleeping over tonight. yay. my life is boring.......

[bradguitarbeast]

[QUOTE=segoviamuse;3177714]She improved so much when she was living with me. But I was with her today, and shes slipping back into her old ways. And her mom tried to put her in the hospital ..although her mom doesn't doesn't know that she wanted to kill herself. but she has cuts all over her wrists.
I'm really sure if I can classify her as a christian. when she was younger she was involved with a local ministry called new life missions. i know the owner. and she went to pioneers at a baptist chuirch for awile. and right now shes being confirmed at a catholic church. and i asked her about it and she says she doesnt care about religion cause its boring and stuff. well why does she want to kill herself?theres always a reason. me personally.well I felt worthless and like no one loved me and that no one ever would.it took me a while to realize that God loved me.but when I did it really took a load off.so like I asked why does she want to kill herself?

Today and yesterday it snowed a lot. and they closed the mall early last night at 7 and they closed it today. we have a lot of snow! i had to walk to church today and it took me 50 minutes rather then 15 mins. haha then i went to work but it was closed. SO i went and hung out with sarah on her break.
And my friend candace is sleeping over tonight. yay. my life is boring.......

doesn't sound like it to me.sounds like fun.it never snows where I live.

[segoviamuse]

well why does she want to kill herself?theres always a reason. me personally.well I felt worthless and like no one loved me and that no one ever would.it took me a while to realize that God loved me.but when I did it really took a load off.so like I asked why does she want to kill herself?

I used to be like that too. But to me the best thing to think about is that if you kill youself you will go to hell. And whatever im going through on earth cant be near as bad as hell. Plus I know that God has many plans for me, and he wants me alive right now, if he wanted me dead then I would be dead .
I think that Sarah wants attention. deep down.. and she really isnt getting positive attention from her family.. therefore she really doesnt understand love.. therefore wouldnt understand God's love... and therefore loveless relationships with guys.

doesn't sound like it to me.sounds like fun.it never snows where I live.

I didn't really think of that. But I really dont like snow. . We should trade places. I'm cold.


I did my taxes and I couldn't feel better haha. I got a crap load of money saved now, and I get paid for fulltime hours on friday. I wanted do driving school when I had money, but I'm going to wait for spring. There is a lot of snow. The snow banks are at least 10 feet tall. i'm serious. So rather then save for driving school and a car right now.. i'm probably going to buy a laptop and a new cell phone... although I have no clue what kind of laptop to buy, but they all look good,, and i'm easily manipulated by salesmen unfortunately. i'll end up buying something that will break. and then I wont be able to take back because they'll tell me its my fault.

I was able to spend some money too. and I got my hair cut it looks really good. my favorite hair cut by far. And I wanna get my ear peirced next week, i cant remember what that part of your ear is called , not on top, and not on my earlobe where everyone gets their ear peirced, but in the middle ppart. just a diamond stud i think.

Well anyways. im tired, cold, and i have a headace. so goodnight.

[bradguitarbeast]

Originally Posted by segoviamuse

I used to be like that too. But to me the best thing to think about is that if you kill youself you will go to hell. And whatever im going through on earth cant be near as bad as hell. Plus I know that God has many plans for me, and he wants me alive right now, if he wanted me dead then I would be dead .
I think that Sarah wants attention. deep down.. and she really isnt getting positive attention from her family.. therefore she really doesnt understand love.. therefore wouldnt understand God's love... and therefore loveless relationships with guys.

well it took me a wile to realize and understand Gods love.My friends were the biggest example of it to me.I think the best thing is for you try to show her Gods love.

I didn't really think of that. But I really dont like snow. . We should trade places. I'm cold.

well I'd say that I was hot but I'm afraid it will come out wrong.lol.but I would love to live in a place where it snows all the time.you can have my place.

I did my taxes and I couldn't feel better haha. I got a crap load of money saved now, and I get paid for fulltime hours on friday. I wanted do driving school when I had money, but I'm going to wait for spring. There is a lot of snow. The snow banks are at least 10 feet tall. i'm serious. So rather then save for driving school and a car right now.. i'm probably going to buy a laptop and a new cell phone... although I have no clue what kind of laptop to buy, but they all look good,, and i'm easily manipulated by salesmen unfortunately. i'll end up buying something that will break. and then I wont be able to take back because they'll tell me its my fault.

I was able to spend some money too. and I got my hair cut it looks really good. my favorite hair cut by far. And I wanna get my ear peirced next week, i cant remember what that part of your ear is called , not on top, and not on my earlobe where everyone gets their ear peirced, but in the middle ppart. just a diamond stud i think.

Well anyways. im tired, cold, and i have a headace. so goodnight.

oooo more fun.

[segoviamuse]

Still really tired. Ive been told its becausedont eat meat. I don't do it purposly... I don't care so much that we slaughter animal and then cook them and eat them. I just don't really like food. I like some food. like cookies, and icecream, gummy bears, and chocolate milk.. but they arent healthy haha. If only,,, we could live off of junk food... that would be awesome. I wonder if there is junk food heaven. thats my idea of heaven haha... but i guess i'll be too busy worshipping and stuff.. to eat.. and puls im pretty sure eating when your not hungry is considered gluttony or something like that .. and im pretty sure there is no sinning allowed in heaven.

Today was a pretty good night, other then fact that this guy ("the guy" that people think like me) told of this girl tracy. I really don''t like her. She got fired from my old job and i cant stand working with her!!!!!. She is rude to customers.. the only thing remotely good is that shes fast, but she doesnt listen to the customers and messes up the orders which makes the customers mad. And when she is up front and a customer comes she yells at us and tells us there is a customer while were doing prep oor dishes. and she just stands up front staring at the wall or the clock, and there is no reason she cant serve the customer. So the guy said why dont you do it. and im scared to say that and i usually just comply. and she said why, and he said that she has been slacking all night and it was her turn to serve a customer. which was true, but she ended up crying cause of that. and going home early not knowing that the guy was off at 8. so it left me and my friend to close. but i'd rather close with only two people then have to close with her. I can't stand her,. and i dont trust her cause she takes money to smoke crack and whatever she does.. but her bf said she does a lot of drugs. gahh!!! and my manager said that the reason he doesn't fire her is because he doesnt have anyone to replace her. but then he says that he is not hiring. crazy! but i would never quit my job. i love it.

Although there is so much going on in my life, my life still feels really boring.. i don't know whats missing yet.. but i have an idea.. and its a bad idea. or a guy. which "i don't need" haha.

[Species8472]

I've known people at McDonald's like that. Everyone in the store heaves a collective sigh when they show up on the schedule.

[segoviamuse]

Yeah fast food stinks like that!!! but i work at subway.. its better in a lot of ways. Its more professional.. accept for when they hire dirty druggies like tracy.

Anyways, on happy note!!!!!!!!! I'm going to brazil in two months!!!!!! or sometime this year for sure. I am very excited!!!!! :::::D: Its right next to Bolivia so maybe I'll get to visit Cochabamba again!!!! :::DD this is where my heart is . ... this is what I want to do with my life.. this is what God wants me to do with my life... I don't think I told you my story... of how God told me he wanted me to be a missionary. Well I was selfish like any other kid.. i love kids .. but I didn't really have any desire to help kids in other countries... the africa commercials made me sad... but not enough that I wanted to go anywheres. And everytime I thought about missions like that I always got this sick feeling in my stomach like I didn't want to do it. I wanted to travel and go to Ireland and Greece and other places but for pleasure not helping people. but I think it was in the summer of 2006 God gave me the desire to be a missionary. it was like a light switch. I didn't know whether he wanted me to do full time missions or part time missions.. but I new he had some plan for me with missions. Everybody always told me that I had a gift of passion for kids... but to me it was just natural... I got it from my mom. She wanted me to be a social worker.,... haha she is so happy i want to be a missionary!. but yeah I had no desire to be a social worker, a teacher, a daycare worker... so I thought that my passion for kids was just going to make me a good mommy. ha. which is true.. but God found an amazing way to use my gift.. for kids and music!


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[segoviamuse]

i bought my laptop today .. i'm not sure i'm a huge fan of it. the mouse has a mind of its own..... but its okay.... i have to put some music on it. and pictures....

i have to work in the morning ..

i thought this was cute.... .so i put it there. XD

[Species8472]

Brazil sounds like a lot of fun! Congratulations! I've never been on a missions trip myself, but friends of mine have said that it's an amazing experience.

What kind of laptop did you get?