[Gods*Armygirl]

1/8/08

Walking on needles
They break our fall
Our twisted thoughts
Make up distress
Tears spread like disease
Poisoning everything
And when we don't cry
We always bleed
Chokinig on air
That's never clean
Good hearts are changed
Souls are buried down
Change is rejected
And replaced with a frown
Then come the scars
They never change
They're never going to change
No. They'll always stay the same

[Gods*Armygirl]

1/8/08 SONG

I'm so close
But still so far
Reaching for your hand
But all I fiind is air
I try to
Comfort you today
But I don't know what to say
Please don't go away

Hold on
Be strong
This isn't where you belong
You belong with Him
He's calling you
Calling you home
So hold on

One more day
Things still don't change
And many tears are made
But I'll always love you the same
Now when you're gone
Along with part of my heart
I'll try my best for you
And someday I'll see you again too
~in memory or Marge (my grandma)

[Gods*Armygirl]

12/5,14/07

We look around
and see the pain
I know she wouldn't
want it to end this way
Take a breath
yes this is real
I already know how
this makes you feel
It twists your thoughts
and writes your dreams
but don't let it take over you
like it took over me

[Gods*Armygirl]

12/18/07

You're alway looking, searching
To find another way to pick me up
Just so you can drag me down again
Lies run through my fingers
Pain through my stale heart
You're thoughful hatread kills
Yes you kill, with an unending smile
I fear every moment, even death

Why can't you just go, leave
And stop knocking on my weakness
Yes, my walls are broken down
But, somehow I'm still alive
My heart beats slowly with no alibi
Do you not know I'm not alone
Pitiness is my best friend
Along with darkness, it's irreplacable

I can't sleep with you holding me
You need to let go, leave me alone
My blood runs slower though those veins
Now there's a trace of you
I can't see you but I can feel
Death even fears your name
My body shakes without control
As you take over, all hope is gone

[Cruelty*free]

These poems are lerking with helplessness and loniless but I do like your talent =)

[Gods*Armygirl]

ah, thanks?
I know they're really depressing

[Gods*Armygirl]

12/26/07

the invisible shadow
it comes and goes
like a virus
eating its way through
looking for
your highest hope
so that you find
you have none

the invisible shadow
hides inside you
until you're helpless
is sinks through your veins
reaching to
destroy your life
so that you have
nothing

the invisible shadow
kills all you were
choking what
you're determined to love
it crushes
your happy smiles
and resurrects
the lies

the invisible shadow
suffocates you
you must kill it
look what it's done to you
you're scared
and hiding away
shaking with fear
kill it

that invisible shadow
had a grip on you
you let go
and it stopped cutting then
hold on
to that someone
who saved you
instead

[Gods*Armygirl]

12/26/07 SONG

vrs.1-I remember the day
The day I told you to stay
But you still turned your back away
I said that I loved you
Don't you remember

chrs.-Now I'm cold
The sun isn't warm enough today
While I cry
You still walk the other way
With your hands covored in pieces of me

vrs.2-The day I lost you
I lost most of myself too
I'm trying to create a new
Without you beside me
But I don't think I can

This picture frame is getting colder
And still I'm growing older

[Gods*Armygirl]

12/24/07

Your cold hands grip the broken floor
I know you don't want this anymore
Pills are scattered everywhere
Plus your bloodstained skin, it makes me scared
Your life's like walking on shattered glass
Or trying to breathe holding your breath
It wont be long until you're dead
What am I supposed to do then

[Gods*Armygirl]

12/26/07

Staring at those empty lines
Wishing they meant more
Adding to it little by little
Slowly, rereading every word

Make sure everything is perfect
It can't be less than that
We don't allow imperfections
No, not in this world

What's the point of even trying
When you know you'll be rejected
Don't slip away, don't mess up
As the lines keep building

We starve ourselves for beauty
Calling on others to tear us down
And tell us we're not good enough
When really, no on is

The lines are finally done
And given to the "oh so perfect"
They read it, but don't see the meaning
So it's torn up and burned

[Cruelty*free]

Originally Posted by Gods*Armygirl

ah, thanks?
I know they're really depressing

You have so much talent I just think that maybe sometimes you should reveal that talent with light =)

[The wirerat]

Originally Posted by Cruelty*free

You have so much talent I just think that maybe sometimes you should reveal that talent with light =)

Thats a good idea. However, I feel GodsArmyGirl and I share one thing in common, if not others. But that one thing, I believe, is that we write from our hearts and experiences. If our hearts tend to be broken, and our experiences dark, we will write about that. I know that when I feel down I cannot write something happy, because it tends to be fake, and forced. I want my poems to reflect my heart state, not the state I want it to be in. If you drop by my thread, you'll see what I mean.
While I agree with you that happy poems are better, I know from experience, at least in my life, the happy times are few and far between.
Just my two cents, not a sermon, just a thought.

[Cruelty*free]

Originally Posted by The wirerat

Thats a good idea. However, I feel GodsArmyGirl and I share one thing in common, if not others. But that one thing, I believe, is that we write from our hearts and experiences. If our hearts tend to be broken, and our experiences dark, we will write about that. I know that when I feel down I cannot write something happy, because it tends to be fake, and forced. I want my poems to reflect my heart state, not the state I want it to be in. If you drop by my thread, you'll see what I mean.
While I agree with you that happy poems are better, I know from experience, at least in my life, the happy times are few and far between.
Just my two cents, not a sermon, just a thought.

I see eye to eye with you and GodsArmyGirl, all the poems i've ever written were depressing and expressing me. When I read them it just gets me feeling more down then I was before. Sometimes bringing hope in the words you write helps even if its not how you feel or what you believe. This is what I do sometimes, I write what I want to happen in the future. She can right whatever she wants, just a thought also =)

[Gods*Armygirl]

Originally Posted by The wirerat

Thats a good idea. However, I feel GodsArmyGirl and I share one thing in common, if not others. But that one thing, I believe, is that we write from our hearts and experiences. If our hearts tend to be broken, and our experiences dark, we will write about that. I know that when I feel down I cannot write something happy, because it tends to be fake, and forced. I want my poems to reflect my heart state, not the state I want it to be in. If you drop by my thread, you'll see what I mean.
While I agree with you that happy poems are better, I know from experience, at least in my life, the happy times are few and far between.
Just my two cents, not a sermon, just a thought.

That's exactly what happens with me. I'll try to write a happy one, but it either comes out sounding fake, or it turns into something depressing. Ever since I found out that I could write poetry, I've been using that as a way to let out how I feel.

Originally Posted by Cruelty*free

I see eye to eye with you and GodsArmyGirl, all the poems i've ever written were depressing and expressing me. When I read them it just gets me feeling more down then I was before. Sometimes bringing hope in the words you write helps even if its not how you feel or what you believe. This is what I do sometimes, I write what I want to happen in the future. She can right whatever she wants, just a thought also =)

I'm still working on writing a happy poem, and maybe, someday it will happen.


Thanks for both of your thoughts though.

[Gods*Armygirl]

6/29/07SONG
This is the End~
Sometimes I feel
The devil crossing paths with me
This door closes
And crushes all my hopes and dreams
In the state of no confession
This is my final depression

I'm alone in this world
No branches to cling to
And everything seaps through
This is the end, this is the end
Sick of starting over
Nobody will hold her
And today I stand, and say this is the end

I've locked my heart
And no one's gonna find the key
Say you love me
I'm not what you want me to be
You sit there and think I pretend
You're never gonna understand

I can't think straight anymore
My life is completely torn
Just get away
You're the cause of my pain