[orionseesall76]

I've never posted here before. I love the site. I've always found that when times were tough, I could pick up my guitar and play for Him. Things would be better then. However, I haven't given all my life to Him...

9 days ago my wife found out about an addiction that I have that caused her to question a lot of things about me. She and my daughter went to a friend's house until I can move out...

Things have been falling apart for awhile. I haven't been the husband to her and the father to my daughter that they needed me to be. I can't tell if she will ever forgive me. I'm so afraid that I will never get her back...

She has already filed for divorce. She says it's an incentive to get the help I need. It can sometimes take about a year for the paperwork to finalize. I'm so afraid. I have my daughter for the weekend and it's so hard not to cry in front of her. She's only 4 and doesn't understand what's going on yet. As soon as Wednesday rolls around and she comes back home and I'm not there...

I love my wife and daughter more than life itself. I'm starting therapy on Monday as is my wife. Separatly of course. I'm so afraid. I've never felt this helpless before. What do I do... What have I done... Have I lost her forever...........

Please pray for my family and I. That we have the strength to overcome this. That we can draw closer to God and make it through this with his help and come out on the other side stronger, and most importantly, as a family again.

Thank you and God Bless,
lost, alone, and afraid

[katmetal]

Welcome to CGR.

Wow, that is a tough one, I can sympathize with you & how you must be feeling.

When I feel this way (alone,depressed,helpless) I usually turn to the Psalms;

Psalm 91
Psalm 46

May they give you some comfort as well. I will be praying for you & your family. Be strong for your daughter, my heart really goes out to her in a situation like this...

katmetal

[Cruelty*free]

*HuGs*
Praying def
Chin up

[Big_al]

I will pray for you.

[orionseesall76]

Thank you all for your prayers.

katmetal, thanks for the verses. They helped.

There is a song by Rush of Fools that practically screamed at me yesterday. The song is "Undo." It kept playing over and over again.

The chorus goes:
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I've become

I know that before my wife will even think about giving me another chance I need to work on myself. I need to overcome this thing that is dragging me down. I know I need to give it all over to God and quit trying to do it myself...I know what I need to do... I just need all the prayer I can get for the strength I will need to get through the pain I feel without my family there.

Thanks again to all of you for your prayers.

God Bless,
Ron

[MtlMom]

I will be praying for you and your family.

~Mrs. M.

[orionseesall76]

Thank you Mrs. M. for the prayers.

My wife and I went to our 1st counseling sessions today. It was one of the hardest things I've done. I think it went well though. And we are going back.

She told me she would talk to the lawyer today and have him change her filing to a legal separation. I feel like a heavy load has been lifted from my chest. I know however, that I still have a long way to go before she can completely forgive me. My journey is just beginning. No, our journey. I know what I need to do, and she has her own healing to do.

Thank you all for your continual prayers and God Bless.