| I guess I am similar to you -- I have wanted to either do missions or be a full-time missionary since my early teen years too.. God placed that desire in my heart, and at college I learned so much about other cultures...
For me, God had called me (or gave me a burden, as some of my friends would say ^_^), prepared me (even if I didn't know it), brought about the opportunity for me to do what He called me to do. When I was preparing to come to Japan for my internship with Pioneers International, God had opened some doors, closed others.. I knew that I was called to come to Shimonoseki Japan this year, and it wasn't like God had specifically told me.. it was a burden for Japanese people, and then an opportunity arose, and as I was planning to go, everything worked out -- I got my VISA a week before I flew out to Japan, I got a good price for my ticket, etc. etc... so along the way, God was confirming what I was doing, and He keeps nudging me to continually follow Him...
good luck with everything... sometimes I hate to hear this advice, but I will say, know His voice, where He is calling you, ask Him to give you specifics, to either open a door or close a door, and He will answer you. He wants the world to know Him, so it's His responsibility. We are to just follow Him and obey. and trust, and love, and all those other goodies ^_^
__________________ San Antonio, by Naomi Shihab Nye
Tonight I lingered over your name,
the delicate assembly of vowels
a voice inside my head.
You were sleeping when I arrived.
I stood by your bed
and watched the sheets rise gently.
I knew what slant of light
would make you turn over.
It was then I felt
the highways slide out of my hands.
I remembered the old men
in the west side cafe,
dealing dominoes like magical charms.
It was then I knew,
like a woman looking backward,
I could not leave you,
or find anyone I loved more. |