Neurosis for Dummies

Kati · 05-09-2007, 03:45 PM

Prayin' for the whole roomie thing.

I haven't talked to you in a while. This makes my heart sad. I had a dream the other night in which Jeremiah and I flew to Canada, and you were waiting at the airport wearing a beaver hat. But then, for some reason, you couldn't talk, so you had to write everything down, which was terribly inconvenient. Also, apparently Canada is ruled by Tim Horton's.

You psychoanalyze people. What does it mean, Wise One? What does it mean??

Tracy · 05-09-2007, 04:07 PM

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Originally Posted by Kati

Prayin' for the whole roomie thing.

I haven't talked to you in a while. This makes my heart sad. I had a dream the other night in which Jeremiah and I flew to Canada, and you were waiting at the airport wearing a beaver hat. But then, for some reason, you couldn't talk, so you had to write everything down, which was terribly inconvenient. Also, apparently Canada is ruled by Tim Horton's.

You psychoanalyze people. What does it mean, Wise One? What does it mean??

It means your inner child desires a trip to Montreal. Immediately.

And if Tim Horton's doesn't already rule Canada, it should. It would be the best Prime Minister ever.

Tracy · 05-23-2007, 09:10 PM

My cat creeps me out sometimes. It seems that she likes to fake my morning routine in order to convince to get up to feed her. She often will knock down whatever it is I've been using as an alarm - my cell phone, watch, or actual alarm clock - as well as whatever coffee cup I may have left on my desk. She sometimes also drags whatever clothes she can find toward the bathroom. Anyway, I woke up this morning around 5:30 to see the computer freshly booted... and Firefox open. I realise now my cat must have stepped on the button for the internet rather than the main power button (they're something like 2 cm apart and cat paws aren't too accurate) but it certainly gave me a start this morning.

I go back to my parents' on Saturday, start work on Monday. I'm really looking forward to being back at my home church. I won't be able to attend there too often due to weekend courses, work and moving, though. I never managed to connect either with the church I attended here or with the campus ministry. I'm not entirely sure why. I know it's my fault, for, among other things, sporadic attendance, but I don't know what it is that made me feel distinctly unwelcome at either place. I can remember one incident that made me very wary of the campus ministry, but as far as I can remember the problem started earlier than that. It does make me very wary of letting myself be open in that group. The incident in question was when we had a guest speaker who had come up with this whole system as to how God speaks to us. I found her reasoning pretty unsound since a lot of what she said was based on isolated verses from the Old Testament. The worst thing, though, was that she started off by saying all those who disagreed with her were guilty of idolatry. Maybe I'm making a big deal of nothing, but it seems to me that charges like that need to be properly backed by Scripture, which most certainly wasn't the case here. Anyway, the group as a whole seemed thrilled with the preaching, and I got a very negative response when someone asked me what I thought and I said I wasn't quite sure I agreed.

So I think it's clear - at least with the campus ministry - that I don't really fit in, but my response isn't necessarily appropriate. But really it's more of a problem with the church, where I do have an obligation to be involved (not necessarily that church in particular, but certainly a church) and I don't even have much of a reason to be suspicious of it. Last I knew, the church was without a pastor, and there were some pretty dubious guest speakers - a shame because the elders proved themselves quite capable of preaching - but nothing like the campus ministry. And I know I was put off a bit by not knowing how I could be of use in the church, but obviously that's something that actually being there might have remedied. I know I'm in the wrong here, I just don't know exactly why or how to move past it. I'm hoping that I'll have more insight on this by the end of the summer.

bobthecockroach · 05-23-2007, 09:18 PM

HI! You get my 15000th post.

Tracy · 06-05-2007, 05:15 AM

I've been lurking but haven't had much to say as of late. I'm hoping to get a good sleep in sometime soon. I finished work on Friday at midnight and had to be in Sherbrooke for a course at 8:30 the next morning. I had an exam the next day and stayed up late to study, then I started the day shift here this week. I worked 11 hours yesterday, and while it felt okay then, it doesn't so much now.

On the bright side, I got to play with stickers at work yesterday. (Well, stickers to identify locations where parts are stored - I work in a warehouse - but still!)

I have to leave in five minutes. Blah.

"BrooksB" · 09-03-2007, 11:41 AM

Coffee is truly a wonderful thing to help with unreasonable workloads. I read some science periodical explaining how folks can drug test an entire community (via the water supply at a particular link). In America, the most common substance was caffeine. I believe it, because I know I'm a major user here in my town. Ever since I got the french press (and I highly recommend it to coffee lovers) I can make very strong, very good, very fresh, very NOT burned coffee EVERY day! And I get to drink it out of a mug labeled "Future Millionaire". Gettin' richer with every sip, yall.

Tracy · 09-05-2007, 05:15 PM

Brooks! Long time no see! How's it going? Coffee is indeed wonderful, unreasonable workload or not. I must confess, however, that I turned to Red Bull the week I was on night shift. I misplaced my French press in the move, unfortunately.

"BrooksB" · 09-06-2007, 02:09 PM

You're in college and all now, right? What do you study? Alas, I am done and now am enjoying the freedoms of life in generally and, more specifically, the lifestyle of an American bachelor. I only see this getting better.

Elizabeth · 09-06-2007, 04:40 PM

I didn't realize you had a blog, Tracy. I am subscribing.

Tracy · 09-06-2007, 04:59 PM

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Originally Posted by "BrooksB"

You're in college and all now, right? What do you study? Alas, I am done and now am enjoying the freedoms of life in generally and, more specifically, the lifestyle of an American bachelor. I only see this getting better.

I'm in my second year (of three) in psychology, and just now starting to stress about grad school. When did you finish?

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Originally Posted by Elizabeth

I didn't realize you had a blog, Tracy. I am subscribing.

It's pretty much never updated, but good to hear someone will be reading.

"BrooksB" · 09-07-2007, 05:56 PM

I just finished a few months ago. Four years (which is on time... none of this nancy-poo "three year" business for us Americans.) and now I have a degree, which I'm not doing anything with yet. Just give me a minute. I did recently begin working on an album. I'll be the songwriter, main performer, producer, and promoter. I'm stoked.

Are you doing clinical or something else? Maybe something cool like psychoanalytics? Or cognitive neuroscience? I studied some psychology in college, it was my minor study though. I use it to understand and manipulate people, as well as to comfort people, or even sometimes to make people feel completely naked and awkward. You could say I enjoy having power over the moment.

Tracy · 09-13-2007, 07:06 AM

It's really only three years in Quebec; everywhere else in Canada, it's four years. Between high school and university, we have two years of CEGEP, which basically serves as a transition between the two. I'm very grateful we do, because otherwise I wouldn't have realised in time that I am really very bad at math and science. (I had no problems with it in high school.) What work have you done so far on the album?

Well, right now I'm just in a BA program, and you need a PhD/PsyD to practice here. I do want to do clinical work when I'm done, though, but my grades may prevent me from doing so. I'll probably take a more psychodynamic approach (psychoanalysis lite

) but that, too, remains to be seen.

In other news, I have been ancient since Tuesday.

"BrooksB" · 09-13-2007, 08:54 PM

Ancient? What the hell does that mean? Since Tuesday? Did you have a birthday or something? Cause I'll be even more ancient than you in about a week.

We've just done the preliminary stuff. All scratches (stuff we'll eventually record over after we get drums). We're doing one in analog with my old band, which is a cool reunion to have. I blame all my current hearing problems on my involvement with them.

And psychodynamics are only as "lite" as you make them. Read Jung. Then read Nietzsche. Then read Jung again. You'll get the hang of it.

Tracy · 09-13-2007, 10:12 PM

As far as ancient... well, it was my 20th birthday. 19 is young, 21 is young, etc. But 20? Ancient. I'm still not over the shock.

In other news, I was crazy sick earlier today and hope it doesn't return. I need to be at class tomorrow to find a group for a project, but if I feel as miserable tomorrow as I did today, there's no way I'll be able to sit through the whole thing.

**Becky** · 10-03-2007, 08:15 PM

Hey Tracy! How are are you doing?? how are you enjoying being 20, now that you've been 20 for about a month?