Is it even possible?

rocker_chick · 11-27-2006, 08:24 PM

Im tryin...really hard..but it doesnt stop the hurt
im trying to surround myself with the people iknow love me..but its hard when you live 15 miles away from your friends and you dont drive...its really very difficult
i talk to my friends as much as possible..but then i deal with my family..which isnt fantastic

**Adri** · 11-27-2006, 09:33 PM

I am thinking back to when I first met you on here, I must say I am so glad you are trying to focus on God. You don't sound hopeless and it seems like you are moving on remarkably fast. Focusing on God is hard but the reward is so great. Remember we your bretheren are here for you. *hug*

**The wirerat** · 11-28-2006, 08:23 AM

We are here for you. even if you can't see our faces, we love you and are praying that you will get through this fine.

rocker_chick · 11-28-2006, 09:19 PM

Wow guys thank you so much...Im trying hard to focus on God..today something slipped..and i feel terrible for sayin it..i denyed God..saying he wasnt there for me..i felt terrible and asked his forgiveness.i cant even believe i said the things i did
i saw them kissing at school today..and for some reason my whole body just felt like it sank...i dont even ilke him anymore..its just like..yeah a long thing that went bad that i put alot into

rocker_chick · 11-30-2006, 01:20 PM

Last night there was a talent show. We were both involved in it so we were backstage together. Everything seemed to be going fine then something he said really hit me. We started talking about what happened with us and he didnt seem to understand what he did. All he kept saying was that he was sorry, he still cared about me, and that he didnt do anything wrong. I cried infront of him..which is somethingi promised myself i wouldnt do...it really sucked. So now my mother is making me write down everything i want to say to him and send it to him in a letter...working on that now

WeArEtHeFuTuRe · 11-30-2006, 01:50 PM

Well i think its good you turned to god instead of other things during this time. I also agree witht he others that staying away may be the best thing. Because it will only make you feel worse when you see them togeather. It will bring memorys back of when you 2 were togeather. But i still cant believe that your friend would go out with him. I no my friend and his girl friend were still going togeather and she decided she wanted me and i told her straight up no because you do not ruin a friendship over a guy or girl. chances are they wont get married it usually doesnt work out if they talk about marrige so soon. Just keep trusting on God he isn't about to leave you in this position you will pull through it. Keep reading your bible it helps a lot and keep praying. Also i wouldn't pay attention to your parents in a time like this. Friends or a older sister are usually the best to talk to in situations like this they understand more. Your parents probably cant remember their last serious breakup but your friends/siblings probably can and will be able to help you through this time.

Will be praying for you.

Scott