The Simple Complexities of Life

luvinjesus · 02-04-2004, 04:53 PM

Thanks so much. ... I appreciate it very much!

luvinjesus · 02-04-2004, 05:37 PM

So, how's my life you ask? (okay, so you didn't ask---humor me). My life is wonderful! I'm in love with Jesus, I like myself, and I like my family. So life is good. SEe you later!

luvinjesus · 02-06-2004, 12:32 PM

Well, as I sit here pondering why I'm here, I think to myself, even though I know not the reason to my existence, I'm glad I'm here nonetheless. So, I find myself tragically boring, and my life painfully bleak. But yet, through it all, I find myself (my person) wonderfully charming, and gracious, and compassionate, and I LOVE myself. I think I shall give myself some flowers, or one at least....

So.... if you're reading this (I don't know who you is, but thank you YOU) you probably wonder what is wrong with me... Don't worry this is normal, I wonder that a lot too.. IN fact, most people when they first meet me, think I'm on crack. Yep, that's true. But I'm not

, so don't be getting any ideas. K?

So yep.... this is my life, I'm boring, yet wonderful. GET USED TO IT!!!!

luvinjesus · 02-09-2004, 10:00 AM

I'm usually very happy-go- lucky. But today, has been a crappy day. Last week my parents told me that the doctor's found some blockage in my dad's arteries, and they had to go in for tests, and possibly surgery. Then last night, my dad was having really bad chest pains, and so they called his doctors and they're having him come in for a consultation this morning. I'm having a really hard time right now with this, because it's the first time anything like this has ever happened, and I've been praying like crazy lately. I'm right now going from laughing to crying. Right now, I'm just confused...

luvinjesus · 02-10-2004, 12:52 PM

Well... my dad's in the hospital right now... so, I'm on my way to see him, check in with you later.

luvinjesus · 02-10-2004, 05:47 PM

My dad was scheduled for open-heart surgery earlier today... When the nurses went into check on him, his heart monitor was acting really strange, so they did a few tests on his heart. They came negative for any artery blockage, he didn't need surgery, and he's on his way home. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!

luvinjesus · 02-14-2004, 09:12 PM

Well, life has been good lately. I've been working alot, and praying. Well, gots to go. HOpe you all had a great valentines day!

LJ or Gwenny

luvinjesus · 02-16-2004, 10:07 AM

Anyone, reading this, probably has no life. Why else, would someone be reading about my pathetic life? I did nothing for valentiens day, except work,and went to this party, which was fun.We played mafia for a long time.

luvinjesus · 02-18-2004, 10:52 AM

I don't mind my life, do you? Would like to spend a day, trapped in this tortured mind? No, okay, I'll trade you....... I find writing this journal hard for some reason now... So, is anyone out there is "Blog" world? Or am I talking to empty space? Well, sometimes that's what I feel like. I shall, from this moment on, speak of things that are "HEALTHY", whatever that means. TTYL my chicks.

luvinjesus · 02-21-2004, 11:50 AM

You know, I wish I could start a decent conversation with people. I love to talk, but when it comes to talking with people in real life and even here on-line, i just can't come with anything to say. I feel when people are talking to me, they're just being fake... I don't know. I wish I had a really close friend to talk to about anything, or just talk about nothing. Does anyone else ever wish that? Oh who am I kidding, i'm the only one who ever reads this thing anyways. So, I'll answer myself

"Yes, Gwen", you're absolutely right, Gwen", You're wonderful Gwen, please keep talking"

Okay....

Braid · 02-21-2004, 08:37 PM

Haven't gotten past the first few posts, but I wanted to say that having a pet pig is the coolest. I've alway wanted one, but my entire family objects, I wonder why? lol.

Anyway, are they hard to care for? what did you feed yours? male? female? name? how big was it when it, err, died? what kind? More questions to come? I mean, more questions to come...

luvinjesus · 02-24-2004, 12:33 PM

well my pet pig was female her name was Bessie, and I was devastated by her death that I'm not sure exactly what her weight was but I'll have to ask my dad....... Okay, he says that she weighed around 400 lbs. I got $80 from her, which I just found out today, (so that's cool). I had to shovel out her pen everynight, and carr out 5 HUGE buckets of water everynight. It was hard work, and then my parents forced me to eat her after all I had done. It was a devastating year for me.

luvinjesus · 02-24-2004, 12:47 PM

ON with my thoughts..........

This past weekend was awesome. We had a special guest minister, Larry Huggins, at our church. He's a prophet/evangalist. He was so awesome. He told me that I would have a job change in the near future, I just started a brand new job yesterday. He also told me that my destiny was not far off, and that I didn't know how I would get there from here, but God did.
Lately at church, I've been so frustrated. I've been playing piano and singing for years. I was asked to be on the worship team in August of 2002. I started out as a back-up keyboardist, and a singer. Well, my worship leader decided that I wasn't a good enough piano player, so now I can only sing. Now, she's telling me that I can't sing well enough either, so I'm stuck in the top row of the choir with all of the other "joyful" singers. (Or what she calls the joyful, but untalented singers.) I don't think that I'm that bad at music, and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt what God has called me to do, which is write music, play piano and sing. I feel that God has called me to be a worship leader. I've been prophesied over that I have the gift of a "Psalmist", and that means during worship, I can break into spontaneous songs, songs that are relevant to what the Holy Spirit is doing in the particular service. My leader however, has told me that if I don't take lessons, I will never move beyond where I am. Right now, I do not have the money or the time to take lessons. I'm saving money to go to Bible College, so that I can take Praise and Worship music ministry, so I can learn to flow in the Holy Spirit, and lead God's people into the presence of The Lord. At the particular college, I feel called to go to wants their students to take, private voice lessons, as well as private musical instrument lessons (either guitar or piano). I told my leader this, and she said that I should stay true to my church, and take lessons here at home, and be a back-up singer to her. I know that God has called me to this church, and I don't feel that I'm supposed to leave, but I don't know what else to do? Do I go to college, be kicked off the team, and when I come back what do I do? I don't know.... this has been bothering me since this past summer. Last year was great, I was playing piano for the team, and I felt really great about that. There is one other piano player there, that doesn't like me, and whenever we would play together, she would tell me stop playing, and that they didn't need for this particular service, and when I would go up to start singing, she would tell me that they didn't need any more singers either and that I could sit in the congregation. This only happened when our real leader was gone. She treated me so bad, and when I finally called her on it, she told me I was being rebellious, and that there was no place for it on the team. This is SO frustrating.

luvinjesus · 02-27-2004, 03:23 PM

Well, I have not posted in a while, so I guess I'm checking in. Later today our Young Adults group is going laser tagging, and going to see "The Passion of The Christ". So see you later, all. Have a great weekend!

CanadianChick · 02-29-2004, 12:11 AM

Hey, Gwen, you remind me so much of myself that it's SSSCCCCAAARRRYYY. Except I have been mellowed by marriage, (ooh. I'm the alliteration queen), and kids and being old and boring with a house and car. I am now only strange in a wistful and mild sort of way. Not even strange, really, just a bit on the odd side. V. sad. How the mighty have fallen! Anyways, there IS someone reading your blog. You're not talking to the air.

I sort of stumbled onto this, mainly because my name is Gwendolyn as well, and, what the hay, we're a rare breed.

Yes, Gwen, you're absolutely right, Gwen, you're wonderful, Gwen, please keep talking.