[xxSparkOfLifexx]

How to read this blog.

Title is "Just A Place To Type"

So just ignore everything written in Indigo

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

This is my theory why there're more boys desperately looking for a room than girls:

Stereotyping that boys are more dirty than girls.
("Dirty" as lazy to clean up stuff)

So if you're a girl, you're surely looking for a girl tenant. If you're a boy and given that you're a lazy ass too, a girl to share one appartment with, will of course be more beneficial to you. Ehm yeah also because of some other "reason" which must be clear by now


And.... it's hard to find someone who wants to rent my room!!!
I got like 15 respondents on my third day advertising the room on the internet. Most of them are boys. I should've put "girls only" sign. But yeah, I'm close to desperate now. I should find someone before end of december... so if there's no girl, boys will also do

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

Of all of these days, why that dream? The same kind of dreams I had few years ago, almost every week in my teenage years. I thought they're gone. I was once again in the middle of a riot, no, it's actually more like the world coming to its end, burned cars, some unattended shops, half ruined buildings, and the people... they're doing their regular activities like nothing had happened. I was telling them, screaming that something had happened, but they're staring at me like I was one of those distracted people on the street screaming and talking to themselves, like I was the one who's mad there, not them. Angry and irritated, I went home.

Our home which I had been living for 19 years, which suppose to be a "home" to me, turned into some weird building, if not one of those haunted house in the movies. What worse, my parents and siblings... they're not themselves, at least they're not the people I used to know anymore. They didn't even recognize me as someone who actually lived there, not as daughter, not as sibling. I was an enemy to them, someone they had to kill and cast away from the house. And I remember I kept telling them, "I am me, I live here, why don't you guys remember me at all?" Then I felt an evil thing coming out from the house and from them, so I ran away, still with the feeling that something evil was still chasing me. I tried to mingle with the people outside, hoping that the evil thing stop chasing me, but those people weren't there anymore, I was alone in that big city, still with the burned cars, unattended shops and half ruined buildings. Then I woke up.

[xSuspensionx]

Hello neighbor, welcome to the the boards. I'm Walker.

And being an 18 year old male, yes, I'm very very messy, but not all of us are.

[Demon_Hunter]

Originally Posted by xxSparkOfLifexx

So if you're a girl, you're surely looking for a girl tenant. If you're a boy and given that you're a lazy ass too, a girl to share one appartment with, will of course be more beneficial to you. Ehm yeah also because of some other "reason" which must be clear by now

What reason? Its not quite clear to me yet.

Originally Posted by xSuspensionx

And being an 18 year old male, yes, I'm very very messy, but not all of us are.

Stop lying, yes we are!


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Anyways, yeah. You shouldnt get a dude to be your tenant. You will never be able to keep up with the mess, lol.

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

Originally Posted by xSuspensionx

Hello neighbor, welcome to the the boards. I'm Walker.

Heyy, neighbor! Thanks for stopping by. It's kinda lonely in the X section, huh? I have a name, but you can call me Spark

And being an 18 year old male, yes, I'm very very messy, but not all of us are.

That's why I said it's a stereotyping
Some girls I know are even worse than boys.

Originally Posted by demon_hunter

What reason? Its not quite clear to me yet

A hot female apartment mate?
A female apartment mate bringing her hot female friends?
A chance to accidentally seeing her naked?

Clear enough?

Stop lying, yes we are!

Ha!

Boys as last choice. Hmm, what about a gay guy? second last choice

[Demon_Hunter]

Originally Posted by xxSparkOfLifexx

A hot female apartment mate?
A female apartment mate bringing her hot female friends?
A chance to accidentally seeing her naked?

To say that something like that isnt tempting, would be lying. But, all the troubles I can imagine arising from having a female room mate would drive me away from that option. Just having female friends can be stressful, I cant imagine living with a girl Im not at the very least dating, that'd be to much I think, lol.

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

I can't understand my brother. When he's chatting with my friends on msn, he's like a complete different person. Well, at least a different person that I know. He's like... um, telling them about his personal life? Gosh, I didn't know that he even had a girlfriend. We didn't know! He never told us that. We did have some suspicions, but until we heard that directly from his mouth, it'd stay as suspicion. He also seems to be more talkative to my friends than to me. Everytime I say hi to him in msn, he's like... you know, pretending to be busy, replying to my message like 100000 minutes after I actually sent my message (well, okay 100000 minutes might be a little bit exaggerating, but you got the point). Our conversation won't even last for long. Usually it's just about some really important stuff that Mom and Dad have to know... or some geek stuff like the latest internet technology, the newest cell phone model, blablabla. In fact, the only thing that can keep the conversation rolling is... talking about those things... which doesn't interest me that much, but have to do it to keep him replying. If I want to know something personal about him, I just can as good as asking my friends to get that information out of him... bleeeh, stupid brother!!! I just want to be able to relate to my own brother just once... but the harder I try, the faker the conversation is.

When we were still little, I remember nothing about he.. being the older brother... ever protected me from anything. Things that I do remember are:
1) He left me somewhere in a shopping center which made me cry because I couldn't find him. And when I cried, he appeared out of nowhere and laughed at me.
2) Couples of physical fight scenes
3) Another couples of physcial fight scenes
4)

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Originally Posted by demon_hunter

To say that something like that isnt tempting, would be lying. But, all the troubles I can imagine arising from having a female room mate would drive me away from that option. Just having female friends can be stressful, I cant imagine living with a girl Im not at the very least dating, that'd be to much I think, lol.

True, so very true, only I see it from the other point of view. I can't imagine living with a guy, who is a complete stranger, who in this case will mostly be messy, lol , it's not very handy. But! Since I won't be seeing him (but my roommate), that's an option . Am I smart or what?

Just kidding, of course I would consider her feeling too

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

Am I a loner inside? All this time, I thought I was just quiet. Looks like I'm not only quiet by nature but a loner too.

My best friend went on a long vacation since last sunday. My roommate went on a long vacation since yesterday too. I've been spending time all alone at home, watching anime, listening to music, doing some cleaning and things having nothing to do with people. Today is my second day being alone. Amazing that I feel happy and content, no I-miss-my-friends kind of feeling. I feel uneasy when my cell rings. Oh man, do I really have to pick up the phone and talk? I thought they're gone on vacation. Who might it be now? My friend living downstairs needed someone's phone number. So okay, it only took couple of minutes, but it did bother me a bit. Weird...

Then another call from one of my classmates, talking about nothing important at all. Oh well, I kinda get used to him. He always asks random things, he's a bit... um, eccentric? (I guess). Not to mention the way he talks. The first year I know him was really something. I often had to really REALLY pay attention to what he's saying to get what he actually meant. I know him for around 4 years now, so it's not so bad anymore. I can see where he's going with that style of talking and kinda read part of his mind. Anyway, I answered only what he asked and didn't bother to jump to another topic like I normally would do. Deep inside I kinda hoped that he stopped talking and hung up so I could go back watching those anime's, but he kept on talking... again about random things. Usually it won't bother me, but I don't know why it did today.

After that, the pastor's wife called me. Pastor's wife called?!? That's my first reaction when I saw the caller ID. What did she want? We're completely done with the wedding service since last week. Sunday school? I'm not in sunday school ministry anymore. Have I done something wrong?!

No, I don't (mind you? ). She's just asking how I was doing without my roommate.... did I feel lonely? did I miss her already? who brought her to the airport? stuff like that. Um yeaaa... MISSing her? not at ALL. Go figure.

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

Why do people tend to forget all the good deeds someone did for them just because... human simply makes mistake? What ever happen to forgive whatever grievance you may have against one another? What ever happen to forgive as the Lord forgave you? (Col 3:13).

We do forgive, but have we really left it all behind? Or is it because we never actually forget the pain at the first place? If we do, why does everytime something reminds us again about the pain, the wound it left, is again... opened?

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

So.... I just finished browsing through couple of last updated journals and I notice that almost everybody started their journal with self introduction, which I didn't do (I thought this thing was like Xanga or something... you know personal thoughts and ramblings?).

Looks like I started it the wrong way, huh?

But!!! Guess what? Since this is my journal... I got to decide what to write and what not, yay! . Besides, who wants to check the X section anyway?

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

It's hard to look into someone's eyes and know that they are telling you that something's bothering them without saying a word. You wish you could help, you wish you could say something, but the words wouldn't come out. So you kinda give them that look that says: eh, what can I say? But I'm here when you need to talk... and until then... let's pretend that nothing happens.

which is what I do most of the time...
.
..
which makes me pretty seriously inconsiderate as a human...

[~FreT~]

Spark, that's a cool way to write in your blog. You have little snippets of topics and I can imagine them being post-it notes stuck all around a desk (or wall). So when you go 'outside' and come back, you have these little memories/reminders/warnings for reflection to see how you've progressed/to plan what to do next. Now that there are several posts already, just reveal bits of biography every several posts.

What do you think led to the childhood dreams?
Are you a Christian? Do you play guitar? What led you here?
Also, what does your blog title say?

I'll try to see you again later.

[xxSparkOfLifexx]

Wow, a visitor!

Hehe, it is indeed post-it notes. That pretty much describes the contents of my brain.

I'll try to answer your questions.
What do you think led to the childhood dreams?
Probably:
1) I just miss them so much
2) Something terrible is going to happen again. I got these dreams just exactly before the real riot took place in 1998.

Are you a Christian? Do you play guitar? What led you here?
Yes, I'm a Christian and I play guitar. Some search on Google led me here

Also, what does your blog title say?
"Just a place to type"
Some l33t intermezzo.

[Demon_Hunter]

Originally Posted by xxSparkOfLifexx

Some search on Google led me here

Just about the samething led me here aswell.